Her Last 50 Days (Completed)

Day 47

Dear diary,

I checked Jasmine's bucket list and there are only four remaining things left that she wanted to do. We already had a plan, nag-usap na kami nina tita and tito for a three-day stay in a beach resort at bukas kami aalis. Ngayon naman ay narito kami ni Jasmine sa mataas na parte ng isang malapit na village kung saan kitang kita ang city lights at nagniningning na langit. I brought her for a roadtrip dahil gustong gusto niya kahit medyo hirap na siya. While we were on our way going here pinabuksan niya ang bintana ng sasakyan and spread her hand out of the window. Her eyes were sparkling right now as she was looking at the sky. She's leaning on me at ninanamnam namin ang bawat minuto na natitira bago kami umuwing dalawa. A tear secretly escaped from my eye seeing how fragile this girl. I don't want to give up but seeing her hurt and weakly struggling to fight, I am more willing to give up and just painfully let her go.

"I was very happy Dominic, thank you for everything. I wish I could spend more time with you. I really do!" these were sweet words coming from her but I find it so painful that I began crying as I hugged her tight.

"I'm afraid to lose you Jasmine, I love you so much" that's the only thing I could respond.

I really love this girl, I don't know how will I continue a life without her. For years, I have dreamt of being with her and now that I am, the destiny's been playing with us so bad.

"If only I have met you earlier, sana-- sana mas maraming memories pa ang meron ako sayo." she was crying at kitang kita ko ang hirap sa bawat pagtulo ng luha sa kanyang mga mata. Masakit dahil alam kong pagod na siya.

"We already met a long time ago Jasmine and you will always be a part of me. Gustong gusto ko ang manatili kapa pero ayaw kong nakikita kang nahihirapan. Sa tuwing nag-iinda ka ng sakit ay nasasaktan din ako. Kaya kung hindi mo na kaya, magsabi ka lang ha. Handa akong pakawalan ka kahit masakit. Kakayanin ko, kakayanin ko mahal. You'll always be the Jasmine I love and will forever stay at my heart." yan lang ang naisagot ko sa kanya. Kung sana dati palang ay nagkaroon ako ng lakas na magpakilala sa kanya marahil mas nagkaroon pa kami ng maraming oras para sa isa't isa. 

We cried and stayed like that for about an hour at umuwi na rin dahil sumasakit ang ulo niya. Pagod na siya alam ko yun, kaya pipilitin kong magpakatatag para sa kanya kahit gaano pa kabigat!

Bucket list checked:
✓18. Roadtrip
✓19. Go to the top of the mountain

                      -Dominic (July 31, 20XX)

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