Her Last 50 Days (Completed)

Day 31

Dear diary,

I knew I was very near to dying. I can't lift such fact but all I ask is for a little more time. I was really hurting, the pain's consuming me but I'm still holding on. Barely holding on! I guess, I really have to die soon?

I heard everything yesterday, that the cancer cells are way too fast to spread and my timeline is now undetermined. Sabi dati roughly a year, and this time roughly a month or two? Or maybe tomorrow? And now I'm really scared, big time! All I want is to collect happy memories and finish this simple bucket list.

I've decided, since I'm dying let me be reckless then! Today onwards, I'm going to give my all, I'm going to finish this bucket list before I go!

Today, we fled paper lanterns in the garden. It was my message to the person above "a little more time". I was with them, barely walking from the seizures I had yesterday yet I insisted. I want to cherish my remaining days, with the people close to my heart, with Mom, with Dad, with Nana Ester and with Dominic.

It was indeed a love at the wrong time. Yes, I am finally admitting it to myself. I can only admit but can never commit. Sticking to the plan, I'll die and I'll bury this feeling along with it!

Goodnight diary.

Bucket list checked:
✓7. Fly a paper lantern.

-Jasmine (July 15, 20XX)

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A/N:
I've never written a diary before so I'm trying it here. Tamad po kasi ako magsulat ng mahabang updates kaya diary entries nalang to keep it short. (Reality: am not a writer material talaga haha)

Good night😘