Animalistic Desires 2

His Encahnated Swan

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Everyone in the ballet company was in total disbelief. How could it have happened?  Why would Alexander kill himself?  Everyone especially Yvette, was horrified by the news.

"Why?" Cried Yvette. "I don't understand!  I just talked to him a couple of days ago! Everything seemed fine!  He was my best friend, and my mentor, and he had always considered playing Von Rothbart the role of a lifetime!"

She continued to cry as she laid her head against Fredrick's, her fiancé's shoulder. Fredrick placed his arms around her, and held her tight. All she could do was continue to cry. Alexander was more than her best friend, and mentor. He was also the brother she never had.

"I'm going to miss him." She said, as she continued to weep. "Why didn't he tell me that he was depressed. I just don't understand." Slowly she pulled away from Fredrick, as she looked up at him.

"I don't know." He replied, as he had a look of concern in his eyes. "Sometimes when people feel that way, they don't know how to express their pain. Unfortunately a lot of guys like Alexander can't handle being who they are."

"You mean gay?" She asked, as she couldn't believe what he had just said. "Alex was never ashamed of being gay. Not only that, his parents loved him enough to accept him. He was one of the lucky ones. Plus he had just gotten engaged to Paul, he was so happy. None of this makes any sense."

"Sweetie, I didn't mean anything by that." He told her. "Both Alex, and Paul are friends of mine as well. Maybe their parents accepted it, but a lot of time society doesn't. In a lot of cases of suicide, friends and family never seem to notice warning signs. The victim usually is so good at putting on a façade, that even those closest to them can never tell until it's too late. I know you may not want to hear this, but since Alex didn't leave a note. We may never find out what actually happened."

Yvette just shook her head, and sighed. "How could he do that to Paul?"

"I have no idea." He replied. "They loved each other so much. Surely he would have realized the pain that this would cause Paul."

"Oh believe me, I know." She answered. "After Alex's parents called me to tell me about Alex, they asked me to be the one to tell Paul. I was taken back by it. But I think they did it, because they just couldn't handle telling him themselves. They had a hard enough time telling me. But I decided to tell him in person. I figured it was better than over the phone. I can still see the devastated look on his face. I had never seen a man so destroyed before."

"Why didn't you wait for me?" Fredrick asked. "It might have been easier on you, if I had gone with you. Plus I would have liked to have offered my sympathy."

"I know."  She replied. "But I couldn't get a hold of you, and I didn't want to put it off for too long. I had to do it as soon as possible."

"I just wish I could have been there for support." He told her. She then smiled at him.

"I love you, Fred." She said to him. "Just promise me one thing."

"What?" He asked.

"Please don't ever leave me." She began to cry, again. "Especially that way.  Please if you ever feel so low like that, please just come to me!  I don't think I could—"

She couldn't even finish the sentence, as the awful experience of telling Paul was still fresh in her mind. As Fredrick continued to hold her, all she could think about was how Paul had been in total shock. He had told her, that night before Alex had killed himself, that Alex had started a pen pal type friendship with his idol.