Black Section

Chapter 19

Lunox's Point of View

I'm at school. I haven't made my move yet. Now that I know that he is IDK. I will not hesitate anymore, but I'll be more careful when I'm with him. He might be watching over my every move.

"Lu!" Pharsa called me. The way she looked; it seems something came up.

"What?" I asked.

"It's Sele! She said she'll go to the restroom for a while but she hasn't come back until now. I'm worried about her. Can you check her? I'm busy doing paper works and our class—" One of our classmates shouted her name and they asked her help. Her eyes were pleading. I heaved a sigh. "Fine." I agreed. "Thank you, Lu!" She said.

I scratched my head. She just went to the restroom. Maybe she's taking a shvt. Thus, it took her time. I entered the restroom. I was about to call her when I heard she's on the phone talking to someone.

"I'm keeping an eye on them! Yes. I'm doing my job. Stop calling me every time. Lunox? She's not suspicious of me. I think I gained her trust. Well... That's... I know what I'm doing. You don't need to remind me. We have an agreement. Hey! Fvck him. He hanged me up."

Oho. It was all an act after all. I thought I've gained a friend. She's also like them. She wants something from me. Therefore, she befriended me. I thought our feeling's mutual. Is Pharsa involved too? Are they conspiring over me? Selena went out to the bathroom. Her face was shocked. "L-Lu?" She's a great actor. A round of applause. I have to let her know I just came here.

"Pharsa's worried something bad might happen to you so she asked me to check you out. From the looks of it, you're fine. I'll go—" She held my wrist. "You heard me." Her grip tightened. She's showing her true colors. I smiled bitterly.

"Yes. I thought you're different. I just assumed again. I'm the only one who treated you as a friend. You knew! You knew that I was hesitant because of the past. I've told you my story. Even though I have trust issues, I tried..." I said.

"Lu... Let me explain!" I stepped backward and removed her hands. "I don't need your explanation! What you've said that day were all bullshvts? You fooled me. You made me believe those lies and I was a fool to believe you. I thought I have made the right decision but I guess I did not." She tried to touch me again but I avoided her. I smiled bitterly again. "You don't have to worry. I'm not telling anyone about this. This is between you and me. What you're planning to do, I don't fvcking care. Once you get in my way, I'll crush you!" I said and turned around.  I was a fool. I let my guard down.

"Lunox! I-It's not w-what..."

I touched my chest. Why does it hurt? It has been weeks since I transferred here! And yet, they already have a part in my heart. Knowing that she betrayed me, it's like there's a hole inside my chest. I-It hurts... It's so painful. I can't see clearly. When's my eye started getting watery? I felt like I was taken back in the past. This is the same pain I've experience but this time, it is more painful. Fvck! Why did I transfer here? Oh. It's because of Mask Man. I shouldn't waste my time like this. I let myself be attached! My goal is him, not fooling around. This is all my fault.

All I want is to have my family back. My friends back. All I want is to live in peace. To have a normal life with the people I love.

I sat down. I lowered my head and covered my face and cried. No one should see me like this. I should be strong. I can't let anyone see my state. I haven't change one bit. I'm still powerless. I'm still weak. Brother Ling, I need you.

"If you'll cry here. People will notice you." I know that voice. It's Gusion.

"W-What are you doing here?" I asked. He just looked at me. I can't look at him. He's IDK! But, why am I relieved? Why am I relieved that he was the one who saw me?

"I-I..." A group of students was passing by. Gusion took off his jacket and surrounded it on me. We're facing each other. "Stay still or people will see your ugly face," said Gusion. I remained silent. I don't have the strength to argue with him. Our face is only an inch away. If he came closer, our lips will touch. "Why are you doing this?" It slipped on my mouth. I quickly covered my mouth. He chuckled.

"Yes, dude! I've ranked up. My rank's legend. Three more stars and I'll reach mythic! Let's play later. I want to raise my rank so I can compete with our seniors... What's that guy doing?" I heard them say. "Let's just leave, man. We might stir up in trouble." They have passed by.

Gusion put down his jacket. He gave me his handkerchief. "Here. Wipe your face." He said while looking to his left. He's shy. I wiped my face.

"Eh?! Why are you giving it to me? You have wiped it on your face!" He said. "But it's yours," I stated.

"Wash it. Then give it back to me," he said. "Okay." I answered. He held my hand. "Let's go to my usual spot. No one dares to go there because of me," he said. He helped me stood up. He's still holding my hands while we're walking. I guess I don't have a choice but to follow him. I need someone to talk to. I want to get rid of these feelings.

I sat while he lied down with his arms crossed. He looked above. "Lie down," he commanded. I followed him and lied down. I can see the sky. It's clear and blue like the ocean. It brings me peace and it's beautiful. "I want to see what's above the sky. I want to touch the clouds. The sky is full of wonders. We don't know what secrets lies above. We can only look at it from below. What if, there's another world up there?" He asked. I looked at his face. A new look. A new side of him I haven't met.

"A world where we're free, free to do anything. There's no war but only peace. No one will get hurt or sad, only happiness and jubilant. No one will cry because of pain but will cry because of joy. If there's such a thing, I will do anything to go there." He raised his hand and clenched his fist. "If there's such world, will you go with me?" Our eyes met.

"I'm so sick of this world. Government officials who abuse their power and stumble the weak. Politicians who uses their authority for corruption, stealing and spending the money of their people like its nothing. The wealthy who thinks that they're noble just because they have money. Children were forced to work and take advantage of. Orphans were taken by nasty people and obliged to work under them. And us, we thrown away our humanity just to survive." He said.

"Filled with vicious and wickedness, this world's a living hell. If there's a world out there, I'll grab every opportunity to reach it. Maybe the remote part of the sky has always seemed clearest, so we'll always aspire to get in there," he added.

"From a movie I've watched, he stated that in this world the only absolute, past or present, is the survival of the fittest. That's how our world is. No matter how cruel and evil it is, it's true that if you are strong, you live and if you are weak, you die." I said.

"Even so. The strong has strength to protect the weak. If you're weak, you aim to change yourself to be better, to get stronger." He said.

"If what you've said is true. I'd rather stay in here. I'll still choose this world. A paradise... is remarkable. However, peace will not last long. The past will continue to hunt us. Are you saying you'll run away to live in peace and harmony? Accept your fate. Face it. I've been hurt and betrayed many times but I didn't run away, rather I accepted the pain and suffering. It made me stronger and tougher. My heart is strong and pure. I won't back down to a fight." I said. Abruptly, he blocked my view. "Hey! I'm looking at the sky!" I reacted.

"I bring you here to make you feel better, not to preach me. I'm not the one who should need someone to talk to. It's you. Why are you crying earlier? I can't stand seeing you cry. I'm used to see you composed and poised. Talk. Scream. Say something. Express your feelings," he said. He removed his hands and I saw his face. I sat up and slapped him gently. "Your face is unsightly."

He's IDK but why can't I resent him? I believed that he's unlike Mask Man. I touched my chest. Deep within my heart, I know he's a good person. A person whom I can trust. Yet, my mind tells the opposite. If I trust the wrong person again, I'll be broken pieces by pieces and I'll not be fix again. A battle between heart and mind. What should I choose?