will you be mine

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I wake up to the sound of ark throwing up, he's wretching so loudly I can hear him even with the bathroom door being shut. I grab a bottle of water and head to the door just as he steps out into the bedroom. He looks awful, his eyes are red and puffy and his skin almost looks transparent.

"god are you ok"

Ark takes the water I offer and almost chugs it, "yeah I think it was that chicken from last night, ill be OK"

"you didn't really eat that much" I state as I recall seeing him picking at his food.

"yeah cos I thought it tasted funny, I'll be OK soon I'm just gonna go to bed for a while. Why don't you go out with your family, they go home this afternoon remember"

Damn, I had forgot that they were leaving. Even ethan is going with them as his flight is tomorrow from La. I've hardly spent any time with ethan during the vacation and I feel really bad about it.

"are you sure you will be OK alone, you really don't look good"

"I'm a big boy, go have a good day."

"OK, I love you"

"I love you more rose"

..….......

Ludo insists on joining us all for our sight seeing day in Vegas, he insists that he's never visited any of the tourist spots before.

With ethan on one arm and ludo on the other I feel like a thorn between two roses. Everywhere we go people look at them and I can see why, they are both beautiful in very different ways. I feel very blessed to have these men as my best friends and the fact that they may end up together makes me want to jump for joy.

"I'm going for an ice cream" dianne comments as she heads to a street vendor, everyone follows apart ludo and I follow her.

"I'm really happy for you" I tell ludo as I watch ethan walk away.

He looks at me with confusion. "why did I win the lottery"

"no I mean that you and ethan are getting on so well"

Ludo shrugs "yeah he's alright"

"he must be more than alright you've been sleeping with him for a few days now"

"I've been what"

I roll my eyes, "it's OK, I ark told me you were bi . It's not a big deal"

"hold up, what the fuck are you talking about"

"you and ethan have been hooking up right" the look on ludos face tells me I am not right.

"have we fuck, I'm not bi. Ethans been hooking up with my assistant Harry"

"oh"

"wait you said ark told you I was bi, did that twat tell you I had been fucking ethan" ludo looks mad and I can't help but to laugh.

"maybe"

"ill kill him"

...........

"ark where are you, you skinny, lying piece of shit" ludo yells as he barges into arks house. I run after him but he's too quick before I can stop him he's pushing open arks bedroom door.

"fuck" I hear him call out.

"what's wrong"

"call an ambulance now" ludo yells, I can hear the panic in his voice. I do what he tells me as run towards the bedroom. I see ark on the floor with ludo holding him, he looks so weak.

"is he breathing" I ask, my voice is almost a whisper.

"yeah, he's clutching his chest. I think he's had an heart attack"

Ark shakes his head as he struggles to breath, he tries to talk but he can't manage it.

"was he OK when you left"

I shake my head "he was sick, he thought he had food poisoning"

........

It's been hours now since ark was wheeled into the ER, I've still not been given an update. Ludo and Arks mom Betty sit in the waiting room with me as we wait for answers.

How could having a bad Chinese takeaway lead to him being rushed to hospital with a suspected heart attack.

I call arks daughter to inform her of arks condition, she plans to get the first flight to Vegas so she can be here for him. I feel awful that i cannot answer any of her questions. I know nothing.

Arks mom asks if he had relapsed but I shut that thought down immediately, I know ark wouldn't touch drugs again. I trust him, he knows his life Is better now than it was when he was using. He was looking after himself and even taking vitamins and supplements.

Chad has the bright idea to bribe an orderly for information. We find out that ark is in surgery but for what reason he can't tell us. If anything I'm more worried than I was before. What was so bad he needed surgery to fix it.

I can't lose him, not yet.