Unplanned Love - COMPLETED

Kabanata 29 - Reasons

"W-why?" Naguguluhang tanong nito at napasabunot na sa ulo nito. "Bakit kailangang madamay ng engagement natin? Mahal kita, Aurora!"

"H-hindi kita mahal," masakit man para sa akin ito ay ayoko na ring patagalin pa. I need to be honest.

"Our family has already decided regarding this matter even before, it's just that we still don't have the power that time to stop everything. But now that we're complete... Everything will come to an end."

Nahihirapan man akong sabihin ang lahat pero I tried my best to do it. I think it was a little bit rude pero alam ko namang parehas na sakit lang ang madarama nito. I have all of this words planned beforehand in my mind.

"H-hindi ko maintindihan, b-bakit," napaluhod na ang binata sa harap ko. Bigla ko na namang naalala ang lalaking noon rin ay lumuhod at nagmamakaawang wag ko siyang itaboy. I have to do this. Kung natiis ko nga si Jon noon ay magagawa ko rin ito. I need to say goodbye to the both of them.

Lumuhod ako at mapait na nginitian si Jerome, I think I shouldn't do this that harsh. It was painful to do this because I really treasure him and it's the first time that he cried in front of me.

"Jerome, thank you." Masayang sabi ko at pinunasan ang luha nito.

"The years I had with you might be hard for me but you are one of the people who made me happy... I just missed doing the part of loving you back. You're one of the people I treasure the most especially because during those painful years. You are with me all through those moving on journey."

Umiling lang ang binata at patuloy na umiyak.

"Pero isipin mo... Our families just brought damage to one another. Masakit, Jerome. But finally, everything is going back to its place, pero kahit na ganoon all those things will be part of our history. A messed up one. Something that we can't erase at all. Talagang sira na ang dalawang pamilya and our engagement can't fix everything."

"P-please, wag naman ganito, kaya kong iwan ang pamilya ko, if that's what you want," nagmamakaawang sabi ni Jerome at hinawakan ang kamay ko.

"That's not what I mean, Rome. Those things just definitely mean that our two families was never meant to be together. We broke each other. And I know I should be honest with you..."

I held his hand as I tried to find the strength to say it to him, "I love someone else Jerome. I'm sorry and I know that it will be unfair with you, I shouldn't marry you three months from now if I can't give back your feelings."

"H-how? S-sino? You told me you like me those years? K-kahit yun lang, kahit katiting tatanggapin ko, wag lang ganito..."

"Yes, I've liked you but all those feelings are drowned by the greater love I had for... Jon."

"Wala na 'yon, Aurora! All those years I had with you, hindi mo manlang ako nagawang mahalin pero bakit doon pa?! You just met him for months only!" Marahas na ang pagkakasabi nito at tumayo na at nakasara ang mga kamao.

Tumayo na rin ako, "I'm sorry, Jerome... Alam kong alam mong sinubukan ko pero... All those years... sometimes I think I have done everything just because I should do it and I need to do it. I don't have freedom at all... Something I found kay Jon. And I want you to know that I had him courting me during those times together, I cheated on you."

"He left you! Diba ayaw mo sa mga nang-iiwan?! Lahat sila iniwan ka, but who stayed? Only me! Ako lang ang hindi ka iniwan! Kahit ano pang ginawa ninyo noon, okay lang! Mapapatawad ko at matatanggap ko kasi m-mahal kita."

"Alam ko, Jerome and I'm grateful for all those things. Hindi mo nga ako iniwan but all those years is a scar to me, those happy moments are locked in a scary prison. For five years, all of you dictated my heart..." Hirap na sabi ko habang naaalala ang lahat ng aking pinagdaanan.