A Million Way's To Love You™∽For All Time∽♥Book 5

~Chapter 70~

*Jasmine's Point Of View*

I'm nervous, my hands have been clamming every since I've returned home. What if thing's go wrong? What if Derrek's parents doesn't like mom or dad? What if dad or mom doesn't like Derrek's parents? These questions have been burning my mind since returning home.

This will be my first boyfriend. I have had flings, but I never came close to actually calling those minor crushes my boyfriend. I really like Derrek and can only hope mom and dad likes him just as much. It would be a dream come true as well as another step onto my path or self renewal.

Leaning over the toilet, I glance at my previous meals. My throat burns like hell, but I fee much better. I don't feel good until after I have purged for the day, it's becoming more of a ritual than a routine. It's now an necessity.

Glancing into my full body mirror, I scan the girl in the reflection. Mom and dad always joke that I am nothing but skin and bones, but I just don't see it. I see a girl who can never be as pretty as Cameron Diaz or as well built as mom. Mon is tall, pretty, and skinny. Even after three pregnancies and now a forth one, she still maintains a beautiful figure. I want that, but all I see is fat.

"Jas... Can I talk to you for a sec?" Dylan interrupts, poking his head through the crack of my bedroom door.

"Isn't that what you're already doing?" I smartly reply.

Rolling his eyes, he proceeds into my bedroom, glancing around my walls, which are decorated with my many female inspirations. I think I'm a bit of a feminist, I strongly believe in women empowerment and my walls are living proof of that.

"Whose this?" He asked, pointing one of my personal favourites.

"Joan of Arc. She's pretty awesome" I smile, walking over to my desk chair.

"You have ten minutes, whats up?" I ask, plopping into the chair.

His wandering eyes fall onto mine.

"I think mom and dad are fighting again" He sighs, plopping onto the edge of my bed.

I sit upright in my chair.

"Fighting again? They didn't seem unhappy when I went to fix myself a glance of water ten minutes ago" I question.

He shrugs, picking at his nail beds.

Mom and dad have been on great terms, besides yesterday, I haven't noticed any signs of resentment or anger. I know mom and dad. They will argue one minute, then you'll here them working on baby number twenty-five the next. Mom and dad have been through a lot, but they always seem fine in the end. I guess it could be a mirage, I just don't know.

"I overheard uncle Bill and dad talking about Evelyn. I'm guessing she came over today. Jasmine I'm scared. Mom is pregnant and that woman keeps bothering us. It's not fair. But I feel bad for dad, I heard him mention adoption" He stresses, shuttering at his thoughts.

My heart sinks.

I don't know how I feel about mom and dad adopting another child. I don't want them to adopt another child. I want to be the only one that they have adopted. It's all I have as a specialty to this family. I'm already competing with five other kids for their attention, six including my little brother or sister on the way. Another child would just add onto my agony.

"What else did he say?" I investigate.

"Well, I didn't hear much. I just know uncle Bill is on the fence about the idea. He's talking about going to court. Jasmine what if he's divorcing mom or she's divorcing him? What if he wants to adopt us and leave mom with the baby? Jas, we have to do something" Dylan frantically babbles.