The Waiting Game (Overload/Ryan Robertson)

The Day After The Night Before

I woke up to the worlds worst headache and a faint memory of the night before.

I lay in bed looking at the ceiling wishing everything was all one big nightmare but deep down I knew it wasn't and its killing me.

'Georgia? Can I come in?' My mum asked tapping lightly on the door.

'Yes' I bluntly replied as she opened the door and sat on my bed.

'Darling, I know it hurts now but it does get better' she smiled.

'Why me? Why aren't I good enough for him? Am I that bad?'

'Of course not and I'm sure it was just a drunken mistake! He worships the ground you walk on and loves you to pieces, there has to be some explanation' she smiled.

'Or maybe I'm just not good enough. I mean look at me mum, I'm a mess, who would want me?' I said trying to keep the tears in and put on a smile.

'Don't put yourself down. Just turn your phone off or ignore him for today until you're emotionally stable and able to talk to him. You need to ring Sophie and tell her you're alright and also Harvey, you can use my phone' she said.

'I know, Harvey brought me home, Didn't he?' I asked trying to remember.

'Yes, he was really worried, you need to call him'

'I will' I smiled taking my phone from my bed side table and turning it on to see I had several messages from Sophie, Harvey, Ryan and Leondre. They all pretty much said the same thing - asking where I was and if I was alright - so I text them all back excluding Ryan.

The minute I sent send Sophie rang me. I considered declining her call, knowing what I was about to be asked, but I decided to answer it.

'Hello?' She said.

'Hi' I responded.

'Oh my god, Georgia are you alright' she said as she let out a sigh of relief.

'I'm fine'

'Where are you?' She asked.

'At home'

'What happened?'

'I don't want to talk about it' I bluntly replied.

'Do you want me to come round and we can talk?' She asked.

'I want to be alone, I'm sorry, maybe tomorrow' I replied.

'It's alright, just text me when you want me to' she said.

'Alright, thank you, bye' I said hanging up.

I felt so emotionless and like my whole world had came crashing down right in front of me and there was nothing I could do. I just felt so empty and like I don't exist. I don't want to be here.

I sat on my bed staring at the blank walls I was surrounded by wondering what it would be like to go back to old habits.

I tried taking myself away from the thoughts but they were constantly there ,in the back of my mind, asking what if.

The tears began to stroll down my face and they just wouldn't stop. Why me?

I looked down at my wrist and the bracelet Ryan gave me caught my eye. Yes, I might be mad at him right now but I love him and nothing can change that. He's my everything but I don't know if he feels the same way. Why would he kiss another girl if he was happy with me? He wouldn't.

I began to play music hoping it would block everything out but it didn't. I sat, yet again, crying.

I heard a faint knock on the door and began to panic. What if it's him? I'm not ready to talk to him.