SLEEP..
Matapos ako magbihis ng pantulog binuksan ko na yung pinto.
“Sa sahig ka matutulog ah,” sabi ko.
Hindi siya sumagot at pumasok lang.
“Tapos ka na?” tanong niya at tumango ako bilang sagot.
Pumunta siya sa cabinet ng kwarto at pumili ng damit. At matapos niyang makapamili ng damit ay bigla siyang naghubad ng shirt. Napatakip ako bigla sa mata ko.
“KHYREE JARED!” sigaw ko at tapos tumalikod.
Hindi siya nag-react tapos maya-maya narinig ko siyang nagsabing, “Done.” Kaya humarap na ako.
Pero napatalikod ako ulit kasi topless pa rin siya.
“Like seriously Khy, stop messing with me!” inis ko ng sabi.
Nakakainis na siya.
“Okay okay sorry,” sabi niya then he said, “Done.”
Pero hindi ako humarap kasi baka niloloko na naman niya ako.
“I’m done Emily. For real.”
Saka ko siya hinarap. Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin and he laughed. Kaya mas lalo akong nainis.
“You think this is funny? Huh?” inis kong sabi.
Dahil sa sinabi ko ay nawala ang ngiti niya sa mukha.
“Can you stop fooling around and act like something is not wrong with our situation?!” galit kong sabi.
“Emi I’m sor--”
“What’s with you seriously Khy?! Nakalimutan mo na ba?! You’re engaged!”
Hindi ko napigilan at napasigaw na ako.
“Sige ilagay na nating nagloloko ka lang, na binibiro mo lang ako, but this sweet talking, this showing your body infront of another woman, yan ba gawain ng matinong lalaki na ikakasal na?!”
As in di ko na napigilan. Naiinis na talaga ako sa kanya.
“Have some shame okay? It’s disappointing to see you act like this,” I said at umupo na sa kama at naiinis na humiga.
Tumagilid ako para hindi ko siya makita.
Naramdaman kong tahimik siyang umupo sa sahig at sumandal sa kama.
“I’m-- I’m sorry," I said nung narealize ko ang ginawa ko, hindi ko siya hinarap at nagpatuloy lang sa sasabihin. “I just want to tell you that you should stop doing things you can’t take responsibility of. Stop confusing me. Because you can never take responsibility of my feelings anymore.”
Hindi na pwede.
Wala akong narinig na sagot. And as I lay there in the bed, I silently cried. Hindi ko talaga kayang i-deny na mahal ko parin siya.
And then in the middle of a silent night, he suddenly said,
“I missed you.”
His voice echoed in my ear, and it resonated into my heart. I was paralyzed. And suddenly, I want to forget what situation we are in. I want to forget that he’s engaged with someone else.
And then naramdaman kong gumalaw ang kama. And before I knew it, naramdaman ko ang kamay niyang pumulupot sa bewang ko.
No! No! This can’t be happening! Hindi to pwede!
Aalisin ko sana ang kamay niya but he tightened his hug.
“I know, mali to. Hindi ako dapat yumayakap sa ibang babae. My whole being knows this is wrong Emily and I don’t know why I am feeling this way. Trust me, I’m more confused than you are right now.”
Inalis ko ang kamay niya sa pagkakayakap sa akin at hinarap siya. This is making me nuts like hell. I am sharing the same bed with Khyree Jared! And my heart is beating like crazy!
“Sa sahig ka matutulog. That’s the right thing to do,” sabi ko in contradiction to what I really want.
“The floor is cold and hard.”
“Still dun ka," matigas kong sabi.
“Ayokong sumakit ang likod pagkagising ko,” he reasoned out.
Like wtf! He’s making this hard for me!
“Edi ako nalang sa sahig,” I said at bumangon na kaya lang hinawakan niya ako sa braso at hinila pahiga ulit.
“Mas lalong ayokong sumakit ang likod mo.”
“Khy, this is wrong,” I said.
He looked at me in the eyes. “I know Emily. This is wrong.”
I stared back at him.
“Just for tonight, can we pretend na tayo pa? Kahit ngayon lang gabi. I miss you like crazy I don’t know what to do with you," he said.
Please stop! Stop Khy! Kasi pag hindi ka tumigil hindi ko rin alam pano tumigil!
“It’ll be okay right?” I said.
Right? Isang gabi lang naman so okay lang diba? Diba?
“Just for tonight Emi,” he said and then he hug me and closed his eyes.
Niyakap ko na rin siya. A tear fell from my eyes.
Kahit ngayong gabi lang please? I want to be happy and wake up in his arms in the morning.
“I miss your smell Emi,” he whispered as he burried his face in my neck.
I missed you too Khy. Sobrang miss na miss kita. Your smell, your presence, you. I missed you.
But I didn't say a word to him.
Hinigpitan ko ang yakap sa kanya, hoping that tomorrow, hindi pa humupa ang bagyo. I want more time with him. Kahit ngayon lang.
--
I WOKE UP in the morning and I smiled. What a beautiful dream. I am seeing Khyree sleeping soundly infront of me at nakayakap ito sa akin. I wish this dream would never come to an end.
He opened his eyes and he smiled at me.
“This is a dream right?” I asked innocently.
“This might seem like a dream, but I’m real Emily.”
Nung na-realize ko ang sinabi niya at naaalala ang nangyare kagabi napabalikwas ako ng bangon.
Napahawak ako sa buong katawan ko.
Nothing happened right?
Naginhawaan ko nung suot ko pa ang damit ko.
“Crazy..” sabi niya ng tumatawa.
And my heart melted. Khyree Jared’s set-up in the morning. Sleepy eyes, messy hair, and a bedroom voice.
“Nothing happened. I’m not that crazy yet," sabi niya.
Buti naman.
Napatingin ako sa labas.
“The storm is still up,” sabi ko.
Did HE heard my prayer? Is HE willing to give us more time?
“Yah, it’s still up," sabi niya rin. “Come here..”
Napatingin ako sa kanya. “Why?”
“Basta..” he just said.
Lumapit ako sa kanya. At nagulat ako nung bigla niyang hinawakan ang braso ko at tapos niyakap niya ako.
"Khy.."
“Do you want to commit a sin with me?”
“WHAT?!” gulat na gulat kong bulalas.
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