Be The Bride

IKA-KAWHAA'G DUHA

KISS..

This feeling.. this is the reason why I didn’t enter any relationship after Khy.

This feeling when kissing someone. Hindi ko maexplain, basta ito yung gusto kong maramdaman when someone is kissing me. And no one ever made me feel this way, but Khy alone.

I dated guys before. I kissed many guys before, but not this way. Not the way I am kissing him.

It’s hard to explain. It’s not about the way I kiss him, it’s about the feeling that exudes when I am kissing him.

He pulled out from the kiss at tinignan ako sa mata.

“You’re mine Emily. No one else’s.”

And then he leaned his face again to kiss me. His lips are soft, and his kisses are hot and so loving.

We were both breathless when we broke the kiss. And we both layed in the bed, facing the ceiling, while our minds are wondering, if all these things can be.

“Marupok na kung marupok, don’t come to me, don’t touch me, don’t kiss me, because no matter how much my mind detest to it, I can’t ignore you,” I said while he’s caressing my face with his hand. “Because from the start, it’s you Khyree Jared, that I want.”

“Talaga bang okay lang sa’yo?” he asked.

“Ang alin?”

“Me, getting married to someone else.”

Napaiwas ako ng tingin.

It’s not okay!

“Whatever makes you happy,” sabi ko nalang.

“You make me happy.”

My heart skipped a beat because of what he said.

“I left you once, are you not afraid? I might do it again,” sabi ko.

“You did not. You never left my heart.”

“You told me Klara didn’t knew about us,” sabi ko.

“Hindi naman talaga.”

“She knew all along. She told me.”

Nagulat siya sa sinabi ko.

“I didn’t know,” he said.

“I think it’s destiny that we met again. To have closure. To end things properly.”

“Please don’t say that," he said at niyakap ako.

Umalis ako sa yakap at tinignan siya sa mukha.

“I’m serious Khy. We should end what’s supposed to end. Because that’s the right thing to do.”

“Emily, can you please just once? Stop saying painful things.”

“Khy we should stop.”

Nagitla ako when he gave me a quick kiss on the lips.

“Let’s not.”

“Khy..”

“Siguro nga, it’s destiny. But why are you looking at things half sidedly? Maybe we met again, because we are meant to be.”

He tightened his hug on my waist.

“Mahal kita Emily. And I’m willing to go against destiny for you.”

Chills, I got the chills. He could always hit the most sensitive part of my being by his words.

“How about Klara? You said you love her that’s why you decided to marry her.”

Natigilan siya at umalis sa yakap. Umayos siya ng higa at tumingin sa kisame.

“I don’t know. Maybe I loved her, maybe I did. But those feelings went all to a drain, when you came. Or maybe, I just made myself believe I love her. She’s Klara Emily, did you know? What draw me to her, is her name. No, scratch that. What draw me to her is your name Emi.”

What?!

Klara Emily pala ang buong pangalan ni Klara?!

“I’m confused as hell of what to do. Gulong gulo ako sa lahat ng bagay. And amidst those confusing things, isa lang ang klaro. Mahal kita. Sa lahat ng bagay yun lang ang klaro sa akin ngayon, that’s why I believe this is destiny Emi. We’re destined.”

Are we? Are we really destined?

“Can we please trust our fate? Let’s have faith on our fate.”

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“Why? What’s wrong? Is something on my face?” biglang tanong ni Ran kasi kanina pa ako nakatingin sa kanya.

Nagi-guilty na naman ako. Feel ko may kasalanan akong nagawa. I feel like I am cheating.

Well I kissed a man who is not my boyfriend, so para na rin akong nangangaliwa.

“When will I stop being sorry to you?” I said.

“Love me Karen. Then you’ll stop being sorry.”

I stayed silent. I don’t know why, but when he said that, I feel like that’s the hardest thing to do on earth.