Experience Me

Chapter 26

I woke in the middle of the night wrapped in Silas' arms. Realization struck me to my core. Silas and I had sex last night. Unprotected. I slowly slipped out of his arms and went into the bathroom. Standing in the mirror, I stared at myself. I had to slow my breathing down. It was only a couple of hours ago and I could go to the store in the morning. Taking a deep breath, I open the door to find Silas sitting up on the bed watching me.

"Did I wake you?"

He shakes his head and motions for me to come over. I switch off the bathroom light and climb into bed with him. The moonlight that dimly lit the room highlighted Silas' chiseled chest as he lay on the bed. I snuggle close to him as he wraps around me once more.

"You okay?" He asks while twirling a lock of hair around his finger.

"Yes, just got a little restless. I guess."

Silas remained silent for awhile before responding. "Interesting."

"How so?"

"You never get "restless" Ariah. At least not when you're sleeping with me. Something is on your mind."

I sigh. "Sometimes, I wish you weren't so attentive."

He laughs softly then falls silent.

"We had sex last night."

"I'm aware."

"Unprotected," I add.

"And it felt amazing. You felt amazing."

"Yes," I concede breathy. Tilting my head up, I find him smiling. Confidence was pouring from him and I was stroking his ego. Though, I didn't mind.

"What would your answer have been?"

"To what?" I knew what he was asking. We were about to have a serious conversation. Was I ready to talk about it? Here we are, about to pass another milestone and if I was being honest with myself, I'm afraid.

"I'm not going anywhere Ariah." For a moment, I was confused. Sometimes, I could swear that he read my thoughts. My body was tense and he could tell hence his reiteration. "I want you to trust me with your heart."

"I'm working on it."

He nods.

"I would have said yes, but not right now because I don't think I'm ready to have a child."

"No one is ever ready."

I allowed my fingers to trace along his chest. "Are you prepared for that kind of responsibility? I mean that's whole human being."

A deep chuckle came from Silas, giving me the pleasure of seeing him smile. "Ariah, I'm well aware that babies are humans. As far as responsibility, I've had to be responsible for a number of things in my lifetime."

"You sound like a man ready to settle down."

He sighed. "I am Ariah. I really am."

I shifted so I could look into his eyes. The brown pools stared back into mine as he caressed the side of my face. The movement was so affectionate. Something about the way Silas was looking at me made my body tingle. I hated to ruin the moment, but there was a question I was dying to ask.

"Why do you hate your father ?"

His jaw clenched as he dropped the lock he was coiling around his finger.

"I don't mean to pry," I quickly add in. "It's just that-"

"I don't hate my father. I know it may seem like it after last night. My father and I don't get along because he mistreats my mother. He taught us when we were growing up that women were the lesser species. David still has old fashion views of societal roles."