Twists Twirls Perils & Pearls

76. Faith, love , trust- 'respect'

Abhedya was shocked. Did Swarnima just slap him? Abhedya touched his cheek which was still hot with the tight slap, to confirm. She did slap him.
Swarnima's eyes had tears and so did Abhedya's. No one spoke anything but the room was not silent. The noise of their hearts to stop all the drama and clear out the differences, the sound of tear drops and Kazu's soft woof's could be heard loud and clear.

Swarnima looked into Abhedya's eyes for one last time before leaving his room. Abhedya didn't stop her. He knew his actions today were unforgivable. After a while, he went out of his room and knocked Swarnima's door.

"Hmm," was just what Swarnima manage to say.

"Nim. I am not asking you to open the door. Just listen to me, please." Abhedya requested in a soft voice. But, his voice showed desperation.

"Hmm," Swarnima was still crying he could feel.

"Nim. I know even a thousand sorry will be insufficient for what I did today. I don't know why, but the thought of you getting close to anyone else other than me, makes me mad and I lose control. I guess, I have always wanted you for myself and I am damn possessive of my things. I know you are not a thing, but I want to own you. Nim, I felt jealous of Karanjeet, Survang and even Arya at times because they came too close to my possession. You are my most treasured and priced possession.
I know you think I flirt around and get cosy with every other girl. I do. Initially I did that because when puberty hit me and because of peer pressure and all I wanted to get hooked. I compared every girl to you. I know none could be you. Still, I tried and ended up getting close to every girl to find your closest substitute. Guess, God has created no variant of you and you are his masterpiece.
The 'kiss challenge' was a step to erase that little peck we shared, from my memory. I was a fool to think of erasing it because it was etched on my soul.
You were right when you told me that the peck we shared was filled with purity and love. Yes! I have kissed many girls and regretted every time. But, since the time you have walked into my life again, I have not kissed a single girl Nim.
Why? I didn't know the answer. I hated my ceasing capabilities to flirt and kiss and get cozy. I went to Mystic Grill after coming here because I hated the fact you lied to me. I tried and tried hard to find a perfect diversion but you and your thoughts wandered in me.
Nim, I have the answers to my refreshed possessiveness and jealousy. If you could let me in once, I would love to tell you what you mean to me." Abhedya spoke his heart out. He was a very expressive man! A trait not many men possess. Abhedya was rare. His honest confession and apology could melt anyone.

But, for the one it was meant to be, was quiet.
The boy she loved was pouring his heart out but she just didn't want his love today she wanted more...

Abhedya and Swarnima were on opposite sides of wooden piece of block with a metal lock. Years of separation, death, lies, mysteries, rules, regulations, mandates could not separate them but indecency, accusations and jealousy created a wall between them. Swarnima's heart was dying to open the door and hug Abhedya. Her duty and boundaries did not matter to her, anymore. But, what mattered to her was...

"Abhey," Swarnima whispered from the other side of the door.
Abhedya's eyes watered with happy tears. It had been days he heard his name and it was a total bliss. Now, Abhedya could just say a "hmm" because his throat had a lump.

"You may come in, when you promise to trust me. You have always doubted me. From smallest of the things to larger issues.
You say you want to own me then why do you keep complaining about the defects I have, like lack of expression and communication.
You say I am your treasure and priced possession, then why do you keep hurting me by saying mean words to me, accusing me, insulting me.
You say you hate anyone coming close to me, you feel jealous then why do you keep pushing me away at the slightest misunderstanding.
You say you went around with every girl to find my substitute but could find none then why didn't you stop your search when I came?
To you, I am a total weirdo and absolutely not your type. I don't know how to live and don't fit into modern world/your world.
You tell me flirting is like breathing.. then I swear on my parents, I should have been dead by now.
Abhey, I have lied and hid several secrets from you... for you. I have lived just so that no one can harm you... you were my solo motivation to live after my parents... still, you doubt my conscience? It breaks me Abhey. I don't want to know what I mean to you because honestly, I know the answer and you too." Swarnima's voice cracked at the end. Her patience gave up today.