Somewhere In Neverland ~Flykarth~

Chapter 17

A/N: OK so most of this chapter is actually going to be in Kellin's POV, and probably most of the next chapter. You'll see why I've done this as you read on :)

  Matt's POV
"What do I do Jack." I cried over the phone, sure I felt bad for waking him up at three in the morning but I needed him. "H-he just text me, saying it was over, h-he clearly only loved me be-because I was t-the only one wh-who cared...h-he was u-using me."
"Matt, you know Alex better then that! That his parents talking, not him, you know that! Where are you?"
"T-the p-park." I sobbed. There was a park about two blocks from Alex's, I couldn't go home but I couldn't stay there, so this was the only place I could go.
"I'll be there in ten ok? J-Just hang in there."
"I-I can't...I-I can't live wi-without him." I couldn't, I really couldn't, that text broke me into a million pieces, my entire world crumbled around him. I didn't see the point in doing any of it, life, without him. He became my reason for living, for breathing, he was oxygen to me and without him I couldn't breath.
"Matt, we'll work this out ok? Just hang on, I'll be there soon." And with that he hung up.
I curled into a ball, sobbing, wishing I wasn't alive, wishing some mass muderder would come and just kill me. I hadn't had the urge to cut in so long, but now it's all I wanted to do, something to take the pain and hurt away. Why didn't he fight? Why was he letting his parents win? Did he not love me enough to fight for us? "Please come back Lex." I begged.
Minutes later, I felt Jack sit next to me. "Oh Matt."
"I-I can't." I sobbed on his shoulder.
"Matt, I know it hurts, and I know you probably can't make sense of anything right now, but you know this isn't Lex. This is his parents, obviously, they've chosen not to support him and they're either making him do this, or doing it for him. Ok, so here's what we're going to do, we're going to speak to Kellin tomorrow at school, get Kellin to get as much information from Alex as he can about what happened after you left and we'll draw up a plan of action ok?"
"W-Why didn't h-he fight?"
"You don't know that he didn't, but Matt, it'll be ok, we'll find a way, I promise."
"I-I should have stayed."
"Matt, this was between him and his parents, y-you can't be there every single time, I know you want to but it's impossible. But he loves you and you know that, and you know what he said just isn't true, it's not how he feels. Hell even I know it. We'll work this ok."
"I-I love him so much."

Alex's POV
I just laid there, cuddling Matt's hoodie that he left, crying, my world torn apart, nothing was right anymore, everything was broken...I was broken. Why couldn't I fight, why couldn't I stand up to them? I was doing it and then...I just...stopped. I wanted Matt, I need Matt, I was nothing without him. He was fixing me, and now it was all gone. I felt empty, lost, alone, confused, why couldn't my parents just accept me? Why didn't they want me to be happy no matter what? Matt was the only thing that made me happy and they tore it away from me. I had to fix this, I wanted to fix this, but I didn't know how. Want all you like, you're too weak to take a stand! The voices where right, I was too weak. Soon as Matt left my side, I went back to the Alex I've always been, scared, weak and alone. Maybe Matt was better off without me. I couldn't even fight for us, he deserved better then that.

Seeing Matt at school killed me, it broke me into pieces, when Alan came to give me my daily beating, I just took it. No...I wanted it...I needed the pain, I deserved it, I used to hate Alan colliding his fist with my rib cage, but now I craved it.
"Why so down Gaskarth? Matt dump you? Realized what a worthless piece of shit you where? Good!" Shayley snarled and there came the second punch today, to my stomach, before walking off it felt good for once.
I hid out in the hook up toilets, anything to avoid Matt, Jack, I even avoided Kellin outside of class. He tried getting me to talk in music, but I told him I meant what I said to Matt. It was better this way, Matt was better off without me. He could move on and be with someone who wasn't so broken and weak. He deserved someone happy, strong, carefree, someone who would fight, something I couldn't be without him. I just sat in the cubicle, crying, I was useless, pathetic, worthless.