Somewhere In Neverland ~Flykarth~

Chapter 19

Matt's POV

I was numb, I was nothing, I was empty, I was dead inside. Life without Alex, it just wasn't worth it, it wasn't worth living. But...I was too cowered to end it, so instead I marked myself, arms and hips and drank until I passed out afterwards. How did I get the booze? Well there's one shop, near the school, he sells anyone, it's where students got their poison for the party's they held. So yeah, I'd wake up, hung over, come to school go home, cut, drink, pass out. Moving on was not an option for me, the thought of another guy even touching me made me sick. No one could ever hold a candle to my Alex, I loved every single piece of him more then mice loved cheese. Some would say he was the one depending on me, but no, I depended on him just as much, if not more. He changed me, into someone I actually like, I hated who I was before I met him. He made me better, in every way, he made me stop thinking about myself, he made me want to be everything I wanted to be and more. Life without Alex, now I knew lift with him, it was pointless, empty and lonely.
I was sat in first period when the teacher called me to go to Mr. Carlile's office. So here I was, sat in his office, staring at a small black book he handed it to me.
"Read it." Mr. Carlile urged. And I did, my heart stopped, it was Alex's scruffy hand writing, I'd recognize it anyway. I read the lyrics, right to the end and tears spilled from me in loud sobs. "He wrote that for you. He's nothing without you Matt, if his parent's hadn't taken away everything he could have harmed himself with, I honestly don't think he'd still be here..."
Those words made me cry harder, I was so angry with him for giving up, but now I regretted not fighting. How could I be angry at him for giving up when I'd done the same thing. "I was so angry..."
"I know...but you need to know...his parents...they made him send that text, his dad cornered him, trapped him. They've made it impossible for him. Not only that, he's got it into his head you can move on and find someone better. You know as well as I do, Alex's self confidence, it's almost non existent. You where changing that about him, he was becoming more confident in everything, his grades where improving, he was happier and he hadn't hurt himself once in what, over two weeks? But then his father ripped you away and now...he's just...a shell...he's worse then he was before. So much worse, you both need to fight, but I think you both need a reminder and to find the strengh to fight. But you two are strong enough to do it, what you two have is so pure, don't give it up, please."
"I-I what about his..."
"Never mind about that, that...that's the tricky part, but, they can't stop you being together in school can they? Is it not better to be able to be together, even if it is only at school, then not at all?"
He was right, if during school, on brakes and lunch was all I could have, I'd take it in a heartbeat. Hell, I'd take just five minutes if it meant I could just kiss and hold him once. "Yeah." I nodded.
"Well then, let's fix this then shall we? It's going to be hard Matt, the battles not over, but are you ready to fight?"
I wiped my eyes. "I am." and I was, I was going to fight, I needed my Alex back and I didn't care what it took.
"Good, come back at lunch." He nodded. "Now go back to class."
"Thank you."
"Don't mention it." He gave me a smile and I headed back to class. Alex would be mine again, I just hope he still wanted me back.

Alex's POV
The words I read in that book last night made my head spin. I knew it was Matt's handwriting, I knew they where Matt's words. And I spent the entire night, holding that book to my heart, crying. I must of read them one hundred times now. The words that made my head spin the most was the line 'I'm going to ask her to marry me'. Did he really feel that way, did he really want to marry me one day? God I knew I'd say yes if he asked me. Even if he asked me today I'd say yes, I knew he was my Neverland, my forever, I didn't want to be with anyone but him. The thought of being with someone else made me feel sick. I was ready to give myself up to him, wholly and completely, every single part of me, give him all I had to give. And then he was torn away.
It was lunch time so I made my way to Mr. Carlile's office, he probably wanted to import more of his wise words on me, or talk more about my parents. I really wasn't in the mood, but here I was, going anyway.
When I walked into his office my heart stopped. There stood Mr. Carlile...and Matt.
"Right, I'll leave you two to talk." Mr. Carlile nodded and left the room.
We stood there, in awkward silence for a moment, neither of us knowing what to say. Finally I broke down, collapsing to the floor, tears flowing like a waterfall from me. "I'm so sorry."
And just like that, Matt was at my side, wrapping the arms I'd missed so much around me. "No, no, I'm sorry baby, I'm so sorry. I'm sorry I was so angry...I was so angry I thought you gave up on me...I-I thought you didn't want me...so I-I didn't see the point in fighting. But I'm so sorry baby, I miss you so much, I'm nothing without you."
"I missed you so much." I sobbed, clinging onto him for dear life as we sat on the floor, crying into each others shoulders, the tears pouring freely from both of us. "I'm sorry I gave up...I-I was too weak without you...I-I couldn't fight...I-I was so lost...I-I didn't know what to do...I-I was angry with myself...I-I hated myself..."
"Shhh baby it's ok, oh god I've missed you so bad."
"M-my parents..."
"It's ok baby, we'll find away, I promise. Even if we just have to settle on being together in school for now."
"Take me back, please Matt." I begged, I needed him back, I had to, if he said no, that would be it for me. I'd take being with him just in school, it was better then nothing and I needed his arms, his kisses, his love, I needed the way he made me feel.
"Only if you take me back."
"O-of course I do."
"Then I do too. God I love you so much Lex." He sniffed.
"I love you too." He lifted my head to meet his and there it was, that kiss that made everything melt away.
"D-Don't ever leave me again..." Matt begged.
"Never." I shook my head, promising and sealing it with a kiss. "Matt did you really...hurt yourself..."
He looked away, ashamed. "I'm sorry...I-"
"No, no it's okay." I pulled his face back to mine. "Just promise me you'll stop."
"I promise." He nodded.
"And the drink..."
"And the drink. I didn't even really enjoy it, I only did it so I would eventually pass out."
"I'm sorry."
"No more sorry's." He shook his head, pressing his lips against mine.

We sat there, in each others arms, not speaking, just being there, together, for the first time in over a week, savoring that moment. I had my Matt back, my Mickey Mouse loving, Matt. I knew this happiness wouldn't last, this could only be this way at school, at home I wouldn't even be able to speak to him. But right now, I didn't care, right now I had him, in this moment.
"Every morning, I'm going to meet you by your locker, every brake and lunch I will meet you outside your class room. And every day, after last period I'll be at your locker to steal one last kiss before we have to go."
"I like the sound of that." I nodded and gave him a small smile.
"Good, the rest...we'll work it out somehow...together."
"Together." I locked my lips on his, when we where together, I felt invincible and I liked it.
We where interrupted by Mr. Carlile clearing his throat. "Well, I'm glad to see our plan worked."
"Our?" I looked at him confused, and then in came Kellin and Jack...of course.
"Yup, ours." Kellin smiled proudly. "And...so you can talk outside of school..." Kellin held out his phone to Matt. "They still let me speak to Alex, you'll have to keep it to mostly school work talk, and you know friendly chit chat, no I love you's or anything like that, but it's better then nothing. Alex you can hit me up on facebook."
"B-but this is your phone..." Matt looked up at him confused,
"Sister got me a new one." Kellin shrugged. "So, have it, text him as me, it's not much, but it's something until we work out what to do about Alex's parents."
"Thank you so much Kel." Matt stood up, taking the phone and hugging Kellin. "And thank you too Jack." Matt moved from Kellin to Jack.
"Don't mention it, I couldn't stand seeing you the way you where, so I had to help give you both a nudge towards each other."
"H-how did you do it?" I asked,
"The books I gave you. Kellin had seen yours, Jack had seen Matt's...they practically broke into your houses to get them, give them to me so I could give you a gentle nudge."
"You have my..." Matt blinked at me.
"Wait, you have mine..." We both dug in our bags and there they where, mine in his hand, his in mine.
"You wrote it for me?"
"Yeah." I nodded. "Somewhere in Neverland...You're my Neverland. You wrote..."
"Yeah, Remembering Sunday...it was a Sunday when I realized how much I was falling in love with you."
"Y-you said in it...you where going to ask..."
"You to marry me, yeah, and I intend too, one day. We're a bit young for that, but one day. You...said you wanted to run away with me..."
"I do, one day." I nodded, right there, was the perfect moment as we stood, just looking at each other, with nothing but pure love in our eyes.
"I love you so much." Matt took a couple of paces towards me and slammed his lips on mine.
"I love you, so much." I smiled resting my forehead on his.
"You called me Wendy..."
"Sorry, only name that came to mind." I shrugged. I had no idea why Wendy came to mind when I wrote it, but it worked with the song so I used it.
"I don't care, I'm just glad I got you back."
"Me too." I pressed my lips on his again.
"Right, now we've won this battle, are we ready for the next?" Mr. Carlile spoke.
"I'm ready." Matt nodded.
"Me too." And I was, I was feeling strong, stronger then before. Now I knew my life without Matt, there was no way I could loose him again.
"And we're both right here with you." Jack smiled and Kellin agreed with a nod.
"And so am I, I'm here for all of you, remember that."
"We will Austin, thank you." I smiled at him.
"You're welcome. If you guys ever want alone time at lunch, just come to the office, but uh, no, um..."
Me and Matt chuckled. "You're good Mr. Carlile, we won't do anything like that."
"Please, Matt, it's Austin and jolly good. Well, you got twenty minutes of lunch left. So we'll leave you two to enjoy the moment."
"See you in class."
"Sure, Kel, and uh, thanks again."
"No worries."
"See you later."
"Bye Jack." Matt smiled and all three walked out.
"Well I think it's safe to say we have some pretty amazing friends." I grinned.
"Yeah we do." He agreed. "It'll be ok."
"I hope so. I promise, I'm going to try so hard to be strong for you, you deserve that much."
"And I promise I will give you the strength to be strong. We're going to tackle your parents, and then we'll take on Ashby and his band of idiots. And we'll do it, together, standing side by side, hand in hand. It's going to be hard..."
"Nothing worth having is ever easy." I pulled him into my arms, holding him tight. I did have to admit, although he was the older and, clearly the 'man', I absolutely loved that he was shorter then me. He fit into my arms perfectly and his head would always rest over my heart, hearing it beat, for him. Not to mention, it did kinda make me feel a little less like the girl, but I didn't mind anyway.

A/N: Yay, I fixed Flykarth!! Well, for now at least :P