Somewhere In Neverland ~Flykarth~

Chapter 30

  "Hey Lex, can you hang this please?" Kayla smiled, handing me a New Years banner up.
"Sure." I nodded. Today was New Years Eve, and Kayla had invited everyone over for a party. Jack, Vic, my mum, Matt and his parents and sister. So our afternoon was being spent decorating the place with balloon's and banners, putting together a New Years play list and cooking up some typical party type food. Before my New Years Eve's where always just spent with my mum and dad, watching the ball drop and then I'd be sent to bed. But, despite the fact my dad still wasn't talking to me, I was excited to celebrate the new year with everyone, especially Matt.
I held on to hope that this year would be a better year. I held on to the hope Alan would no longer be a problem and me and Matt could just be happy. I hoped that my dad would come around and things could go back to how they where. But I didn't let my hopes get too high, we all knew Alan wouldn't let go and who knew if and when my dad would come around, but there was no harm in being a little optimistic was there?

See that's the difference now, before, I was the biggest pessimist in the world. I couldn't find hope in anything, I only ever saw the bad in life, I could only see the worst in everything. I could never let myself be happy, because I only ever saw it being torn down in the worst way. But, since I met Matt, Kellin and everyone else in my life now, who proved every day they loved me, I was becoming a little more optimistic. I still had more pessimistic moments then not, but when I did, they where all there, especially Matt, to make things better, calm me down and help me find the good in things.
That was one thing I loved the most about Matt, no matter how bad things got, he was always there, knowing what to do, what to say to help me see the good in situation, in people. He'd always be there to hold my hand and kiss away the tears, even if it was three in the morning, he didn't care, he was there. He gave me a reason to believe that, one day, everything would be ok, and until then, he'd stand by my side, being my better reality when I escaped the hell and just making me happy in that moment. I honestly don't know where I'd be right now if he hadn't came into my life, if I was strictly honest, I'd probably be dead, but I wasn't, I was here, living, with him and some amazing friends around me.

I never once saw my life being like this. I never saw me having friends who loved me, family who cared, people who would catch me when I fell, people to go through the hell with me, fight with me. I only ever saw myself being alone, with no where to go, no one to turn too and eventually, even though I'd always told myself I never would, I'd end up like Tom, because it would become too much. The pain and loneliness would one day completely consume me and bring me to braking point. But I didn't think like that anymore, and when I did, they proved me wrong.
It made me sad in a way, sad that Tom could never find the thing he needed to help him hold on. I wish every day that he had found it, and he could still be here. But, I guess that's life, some people find their Neverland's, some don't. And in those who don't, some can handle it, and some can't. And sadly, Tom was one that couldn't, and it took him from us, but I hoped where ever he was now, he'd found his Neverland and he was happy. I wasn't exactly one to believe in heaven and hell, but I had to think like that because it got me through the times he came to mind, when it came up to his birthday, or the anniversary of his death. I couldn't let it consume me anymore, and Matt had made me see that.
I honestly didn't think it was possible for me to love someone as much as I loved Matt, but I did.
"Earth to Lex?" Harry waved his hand in front of my face.
"Huh? Sorry, I was thinking." I gave him a small smile, snapping out of my thoughts.
"About?"
"Just how much things have changed."
"Yeah, there's been some rather big changes this year that's for sure." He chuckled.
"Anyway, I need to finish hanging these." I waved the banners I held in my hands.
"Yeah, I better go finish the food before Kayla has my balls...I'm kind of attached to them and I'd like to keep them that way." He winked and left the room, leaving me to finish hanging up the banners.

"Right ok, is everything ready?" Kayla looked around, running a check list silently in her head. She always did that I noticed, and you could tell as she mouthed everything to herself silently.
"Aye." Kellin nodded. "Vic's on his way over now."
"Yeah, Matt should be here with his family soon, apparently his sister is taking forever. Oh and mum's on her way too."
"Excellent! Well I guess there's no harm in getting started is there? Turn it up Kels!" Kayla beamed. Kellin nodded and turned on the music.
Half an hour later, everyone had arrived and started enjoying themselves. Kayla had set up a game of twister in the living room. And watching your mum playing twister with your boyfriends parents, was just about one of the funniest, yet most distrubing things I'd ever seen.
"Ok...Right hand yellow!" My mum chimed. This time it was Me, Matt, Jack, Kellin and Vic, and after only six turns we where already stuck in awkward and uncomfortable positions. Matt had managed to get himself into a rather compromising position with Kellin, and I had Jack wrapped around me, some how.

Vic was the first to fall, when it came to having to put our left foot on red, his leg couldn't reach it and he ended up losing balance, and he managed to take Jack down with him. By the end of the game, Kellin had won. Matt went out the turn after Vic and Jack, and I couldn't keep my balance three rounds later, my limbs where acting too much and my arm gave out under me. And my god, Kellin was a poor winner, going around gloating about how he was the twister champion and he was the god of all party games.
A few more games where played, more laughing and joking filled the house and in that moment, I felt like one of the luckiest people on earth.
"Hey, Lex come here." Matt tugged my hand and led me outside into the garden.
"Matt it's freezing, why are we out here?"
"It'll take five minutes." He chuckled, and sat down on the little bench that sat on one of the sides, patting the space next to him.
I sat down next to him. "What is it?"

"I wanted to give you something..." He pulled out a small black box and inside that black box was a plain silver ring. My heart pounded and my eyes went wide. "Don't worry, it's not what you're thinking. It's a promise ring." He took it out and I could faintly see the words 'This I promise you' engraved on the inside of the band. "A promise to stand by you, no matter what. A promise to be there to hold your hand every single day, to dry way every single tear, to kiss away all the fears you have have. A promise to never let you down, a promise to never leave your side so long as you want me there. A promise that I will do everything I can to make this year a better year, and next year a better one then that, and the year after that...and again after that...and well, you catch my drift. A promise to be your Neverland, forever and always, no matter what may try and tear us apart, I will be there, never straying. A promise to be someone you can be proud to call yours, and I will be proud to call you mine. A promise to never stop showing you how much you mean to me, how proud I am of you, a promise that no matter what I will always love you, with my whole heart. A promise to love you more and more every day and remember why I love you and to make sure I remind you why you love me. No matter what Lex, I promise to be there. I love you more then words can say, there just isn't enough words in this world to describe how I feel. There is no one single word in this world that even comes close. All this, I promise you, forever and always."
Tears streamed down my face, not sad tears, no, happy tears, the happiest tears any one person could cry. The amount of happiness that exploded inside me was overwhelming. "Matt..."
"Let me make this promise to you, please Lex." He looked at me pleadingly, I was speechless, not once had I ever felt so happy and loved by one person. I couldn't speak and nodded my head and he slipped the ring on my right ring finger, it was a perfect fit. "I love you so much."
"I love you." I choked, taking his face in my hands and pulling his lips to mine, pouring more love, passion and affection then I ever had before. Every day I fell in love with him more and more, even when I didn't think it was possible to love him more he proved me wrong. "I-I promise I'll make you proud. I promise to love you, every day, until the day I die and then carry on loving you. I promise to stand by you as well, as long as you want me there, I'll be there. I promise I will try and be the man you deserve, the man you can be proud of. You have no idea how much you mean to me, and how much of a difference you've made in my life. I-I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you. A-and I promise I'll prove to you every day I love you, no matter what, forever and always."
Tears came down Matt's cheeks now, as he rested his forehead on mine. "I already am proud of you baby, proud to call you mine."
"T-then I promise to keep making you proud."
"I know you will baby." He pressed his lips against mine and wrapped his arms around me, while I wrapped his arms around his.
We stayed like that for a moment, just revelling in how it felt being in each others arms. It felt right, it felt perfect, like two jigsaw pieces fitting together perfectly to complete the most beautiful picture you could imagine.
"Hey you two! It's ten to midnight, get your butt's in here!" Vic called, we kissed once more before heading back in.
The rest of the night was perfect, Harry set off fireworks at midnight, the adults had allowed us half a glass of Champagne to toast the new years in with. Everyone hugged and kissed cheeks, making promises to always be there for each others and thanking them for everything they had done. Jack promising to carry on standing by us and making sure we have the best year yet.
Me and Matt had the perfect kiss as the clock struck midnight. And when it hit bed time, Matt sealed his earlier promises in the most loving and intimate way only he could.