Somewhere In Neverland ~Flykarth~

Chaper 22

  Matt's POV
My birthday was perfect. Sure, most kids my age went and had big house parties, with alcohol, dancing, all that jazz, but that wasn't me. I liked simple, just me, Kellin, Jack, Kayla and Alex chilled out enjoying an awesome dinner Kayla cooked us and lots of jokes and laughs. I didn't need no fancy party, I'd had one for my sixteenth and I spent the whole time stood in the corner wanting to bang my head against a brick wall. But this year, just chilling out and getting to spend it with the man I loved more then anything meant the world to me and easily became my best birthday yet.
The only problem now, was how was I going to get to see Alex on his birthday, any idea's we'd had so far where too flawed. Doing something at Kellin's wasn't an option, because his parent's still would've wanted to be there. Doing a small party in a hall...his parents would be there. There was a concert that night I could of easily got tickets for, but his parent's had said no, didn't even give a reason, just said no. Kellin's idea to go to the mall for an hour or two was stepped on when his dad said he may as well stick around and do some Christmas shopping as he'd be driving Alex there and back anyway. It was safe to say, I was out of idea's and totally lost. This distance between us was killing me and I could feel it was beginning to take it's toll on both of us.  I wanted nothing more then to just be able to go back to the nights where we could just lay in bed, cuddle and watch Netflix. I hadn't even had a chance to take him out on a proper date yet. And this was all my fault, if I hadn't been so protective of him and insisted on staying with him, everything would be ok.
"This is all my fault." I sobbed into my pillow.
"No it's not Matt, you where just trying to be a good boyfriend to Alex. Being the man he deserves, it's not your fault, it's his parents fault for being closed minded idiots." Jack rubbed my back trying to comfort me.
"I-I'm t-trying so hard to b-be strong for him, b-but I don't know how m-much more I can take."
"I know man, we can see all this is taking it's toll on both of you, but it'll be worth it in the end. You know that."
"Wh-What if we c-can't find away to be t-together outside of school, e-except the o-odd night every couple of months a-at Kellin's. W-we only have a y-year and a half left...a-and we'll be completely a-apart u-until he turns eighteen."
"You will, we will, trust me, Me and Kellin are working on it. We'll have more options once he turns sixteen, we'll work this out Matt, I promise, you and Lex just need to hang in there."
"I-I just want to be with him, be a normal boyfriend to him. I-I can't give him w-what he deserves like this. I-I'm failing him Jack."
"You're not Matt, he loves you with all his heart. It'll be ok."
"H-he's better off wi-without me."
"Don't say that! You know for a fact that's not true! What happened last time huh?"
"I feel so useless."
"Matty, you're both doing the best you can, you both knew this wasn't going to be easy, but you need to stay strong. I promise we'll find away."
I sat myself up, so many doubts and worries filled my head, it made my head spin. "I hope so, I love him so much. I-I haven't even t-taken him out on a-a date yet."
"You'll get your date, don't worry man. Just focus on being there for Lex as much as you can right now, me and Kellin will do the rest. You focus on your relationship and we'll sort the minor details out."
"Thank you Jack...I-I don't know what I-I'd do without you."
"Hey, anything for my best friend huh? Just, try not to worry ok? I know it's hard but you both need to be strong."
"I'm trying." I sniffed, wiping my eyes.
"I know, it'll work out." He gave me a small smile. "Hey, why don't we go see Mr. Carlile tomorrow? See if he can come up with something that we haven't thought of?"
"Ok." I nodded my head slowly.
"Alright, now get your shit together because we got to be at work in half an hour."
"Yeah." Oh yeah, I'd started working in the coffee shop with Jack about a month ago on weekends. I needed a job, my allowance from my parents only covered my car, but I needed to start earning money so I could do things like take Alex on proper dates, buy him presents for his birthday and Christmas. I also wanted to start saving up so I had some money saved for when me and Alex could get the hell out of here and find our Neverland together. I wasn't exactly paid well, but it was just enough to make a start on things for now and I fully planned on getting a full time job once I was done with school while I waited for Alex to finish his senior year. I'd planned our entire future together, but right now, that future just seemed too far away.