Adira felt sick to her stomach as she heard the words leave his mouth, it was her fault, everything was her fault. She felt like the world was caving in around her and she didn't know how it was possible but somehow at that moment she hated herself even more. She hted herself for how much pain she put him through, she never wanted to leave him but if she didn't he would have died along with the rest of the fey. She didn't care how much pain she had to go through over the last 9 years as long as he was alive and well but only now did she realise just how much pain he was in. He was broken just like she was but deep down, she knew that it was what had to happen
"Whoever she was, i don't think that she would have wanted you to hunt down and kill the fey" The weeping warrior says softly, she did what she could to protect the fey but thousands of them still fell, she wasn't able to save all of them, not from the paladins, not from the fires, and not from the weeping monk
"I know she wouldn't have, she would have tried to stop me, but i will stop at nothing to bring Adira back" The weeping monk says and his cheeks flushed in sadness at the mention of her name he had'nt talked about her in years but she was always on his mind, she was the reason he was doing all of this, he would do whatever he had to to bring her back even if she would hate him for it "I try to keep myself busy with the things that i do but it doesn't ever stop me of thinking about her. I miss her so much, i miss how we talked every minute of everyday and how she was always by my side, how i was able to tell her every single little thing that was on my mind"
Adira wanted to tell him then and there that she was alive, that she was right there and that she missed him just as much as as he had missed her but she knew that it was not the right time and even if it was, she didn't deserve to be happy and she definitely didn't deserve to be happy with someone like him "You need to let her go, she wouldn't want you to be suffering so much"
"i know i need to let her go and it sucks because i just cant let her go, my heart just keeps on waiting for the impossible to happen. I cant sleep at night, all that is on my mind is her and how i can get her back, but he wont talk to me, i pray to him every night and he wont answer no matter what i do. When i close my eyes i see her and when i open them, shes gone and i miss her" He says and Adira noticed a small tear fall down his face but he quickly wiped it away and she could tell he was embarrassed for crying in front of her
"I lost someone once too" She mutters and he looked up at her "he meant more to me than anything or anyone else. And every piece of me aches for him. I fell bad when he misses me but id feel sad if he didn't. Just thinking about him makes me want to burst into tears but i cant do that, i cant cry. Its my fault, i left him and i hate myself for it everyday but i knew it was what i had to do"
"How could you leave someone that you loved so much?" The weeping monk asks her softly
"The only way to stop feeling pain, is to stop feeling anything at all" She mutters back "but after all of this time, i still miss him everyday"
"if you could go back... back to before you left him, would you stay" The weeping monk asks her softly and she lets out a soft sigh
"i don't know" she mutters back softly
"so where are you going to go?" the weeping monk asks her softly and she shrugs her shoulders at him
"I don't know just yet, ill probably just stay in the woods for a while and relax, bond with nature, see if it decides to kill me or not"
"You really are a strange girl arent you" the weeping monk asks with a small grin on his face "whats with the mask anyways?"
"it makes me look real tuff huh" the weeping warrior asks in humour and then he lets out a sigh and he stopped questioning her on it because he could tell that she was trying to cover it up with fake humour
"do you think that the fey will take you back?" the weeping monk asks the woman
"probably not, i don't blame them though, and i definitely don't blame you" the weeping warrior tells him softly and he looks up at her in confusion
"How can you not blame me? all of this is my fault" he says and she could detect the anger that was in his voice
"Dont you understand, none of this is your fault. Its all my fault" the weeping warrior said and stood up quickly "I need to go"
the weeping monk stood up as well "you're not leaving are you?"
"i have to" the weeping warrior told him softly
"Please i cant lose you too" he mutters out and she turns away from him to hide her teary eyes from him
"Soon, everything will work out i promise. For now i must go but we will meet again and i just pray to my gods and i pray to your god that you will forgive me for everything that i have done" she mutters out and then she leaves. She left him again and just like before 9 years ago, he felt his heart shattering and he felt incomplete
"Who hurt you so bad" he called out to her as she left
She turns back to him for a second to reply "my expectations" and then she turned back around and left
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Warrior - The Weeping Monk
Fanfiction- The Cursed Fanfiction - *spoilers ahead* It was believed that Ash Folk were completely wiped from Britania but that wasn't the case... there were two left. Both on opposite sides. The weeping monk was known for being apart of the church and for k...
