BTS Sickfics

35. Hoseok: I'll Always Be Here

Hoseok' POV

I have noticed in the last week that I have been experiencing panic attacks, and the only reason I know that's what they are is because Yoongi has them badly. I am sitting on my bed thinking about what we still have to do this week. It's friday and we have an interview, photoshoots, and a vocal rehearsal. We have tomorrow off so it is back to the grind on Sunday, but I am worried for this interview because there is a hashtag on twitter that the boys won't let me look at. #Hoseokleave is trending and I have been coping alright because the boys won't let me acknowledge and we have been too busy for me to care. I am pulled from my thoughts by Yoongi walking in.

"Hey hyung, whats up?" I ask and he shrugs.

"Was making sure you were dressed so that we can leave on time." He tells me and I nod. "Everything alright?" He asks me and I nod again. I can feel my breath catch in my throat and I try to calm down so Yoongi doesn't notice.

"Hobi, your wheezing are you okay?" He asks again, more worried and I nod but panic more. "I am going to get Jin hyung." Yoongi says getting up and heading towards the door and I grab his wrist before he can leave.

"Panic." That is the only word that I manage to get out of my mouth and he nods like he understands.

"Okay Hobi, I need you to think of the last time you smiled or laughed and then squeeze my hand if you need a distraction." He tells me grabbing my hand. I nod and start to think about yesterday when Jimin was excited about how he got an inch taller and then he took a drink of his juice and Jungkook said something funny and Jimin's juice came out his nose. "Good Hobi, you're doing well." I feel the air starting to return to my lungs more regularly.

"Thank you hyung." I tell him when I can breath again.

"Yeah no problem, but what caused it and when did they start?" He asks the concern present on his face.

"At the beginning of the week and I don't really know what's causing them?" I half lie and he nods.

"Okay well if you have anymore find me and I will help you." He tells me, I nod and we leave and head downstairs.

"There you guys are, I thought I was going to have to come get you." Jin says and I sigh.

"Hobi hyung, are you alright? You look a little pale." Jimin asks concerned, I nod.

"He had a panic attack but he is alright now, right Hobi?" Yoongi says and I nod.

"Alright, well let us know if you need anything Hobi, but we really have to go." Jin says ushering us out of the house. We walk to the car and I can't stop thinking about how this interview could go so wrong. I get more and more lost in my thoughts about it when I feel a hand rest on my bouncing leg.

"It will be alright." Yoongi whispers after I look up at him, I smile and turn to look out the window.

Namjoon's POV

I am a little worried for Hoseok's sake about this interview we just arrived at. The last week I have noticed the slight panic attacks, but I dont step in, in fear of making it worse. That and now I am worried because we have shielded him from it but there are a lot of negative hashtags trending on twitter right now aimed at Hoseok and the idea that he should leave BTS. We walk into the studio and I shake everyone's hand after bowing and introduce us. We are ushered to a room in the back to wait for the interview, luckily it's a radio show and not on tv. We are sitting there trying to relax, and I notice Hoseok getting pale again. I tap on Yoongi's shoulder and when he looks at me I point in the direction of where Hoseok is sitting. He nods and goes over to him and I see him rubbing circles on Hoseok's back. Yoongi talks to him for a minute and nods standing up to walk back towards me. As he gets closer I go to ask if Hoseok is alright when I get interrupted by someone telling us it's time for the interview to start. We sit down in the chairs with the order being me, Jin, Jungkook, Taehyung, Yoongi, Jimin, and Hoseok at the end.

"Hello and well back to the show, I am glad you are all listening because today I am here with BTS." The interviewer says and we all say hello intp our mics. "So my first question is for Jungkook." The interviewer says and Jungkook nods. "How does it feel to be the youngest, but yet be such a powerhouse?"

"I guess it's nice, being the youngest isn't great most of the time but when I get passionate about something, I don't let anything stop me." Jungkook answers with a smile on his face. The interview continues and we get to the last question and so far we have done so well to leave the twitter hashtags out of it and I think we will make it, but I was wrong.

"The last question is for JHope." the interviewer says and Hoseok smiles. "What are your thoughts on the trending twitter hashtags about you, what would you like to say to your fans and the antis alike?" They ask adn I see Hoseok's smile fall and his face goes pale.

"Oh uh, um I guess." He stutters over his words and before I know it we can hear him wheezing into his mic. I notice the panic in his eyes and on his face and he starts to struggle to breathe. I go to go to him but Yoongi beats me to it.

Yoongi's POV

I can't believe they asked him that and I am worried because I can see the panic attack starting, I was hoping Hoseok could calm himself down but he didn't. I notice him get really pale and that the wheezing stopped meaning he isn't breathing barely at all. I got to him and try to get him to focus on me. I am about to walk him to the bathroom when he collapses due to lack of oxygen. I hear Jin calling for an ambulance and I am just doing what I can to keep him breathing. The paramedics arrive and take Hoseok to a hospital and I go with him. I am sitting there in the waiting room. I get lost in thought when I am pulled from it by the other five running up to me.

"Have you heard anything? Is he okay? Where is Hobi?" All these questions fired at me at once it was making my head spin.

"Guys slow down." Namjoon says and I give him a small smile to say thank you and he nods. Just as I am about to go answer the questions, the doctor walks out.

"Hoseok will be fine, just panic attack, I would suggest him talking to a therapist, but other than that he is fine so when he wakes up he can go home." she tells us and we nod and Namjoon thanks her. We make our way to his room and I walk over to the edge of the bed and grab his hand. He opens his eyes and smiles at me.
"Hyung, I'll be okay." He tells me and I nod.

"I will help you whenever you need it, don't be afraid to ask." I tell him and he nods. He gets up and gets ready to go home. In the car he leans over and lays his head on my shoulder.

"Thanks for being there for me hyung." He says and I smile down to him.

"Don't worry about it, I will always be here for you." I tell him and we both fall asleep staying that way the whole way home.