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41. Namjoon: I Got In My Own Head

Hoseok's POV

I am worried, I didn't realize how much Namjoon was struggling, but then again he hasn't said anything and he has been good at keeping to himself. I am standing outside Namjoons locked studio and I hear the music blaring and I know he won't hear me if I knock. I try the door handle even though I know that it wont open. He hasn't been home in almost a week, and when he is he doesn't eat or sleep he just sits in his room and works. We notice the exhaustion and him getting thin, and when we try to talk to him about it or get him to stop working it just causes him to be snappy and we don't want to upset him, but he also needs to take care of himself. I get pulled from my thoughts by the door opening and I realize I don't hear the music playing anymore.

"Hyung what are you doing here?" Namjoon asks and I sigh.

"Namjoon it's time for dance practice, but maybe you should go back to the dorm and rest." I answer seeing that the bags under his eyes have bags of their own, its sad cause I have never seen him this bad.

"No hyung, I am okay, I will be there in a minute I lost track of time but I need to use the bathroom." He tells me and walks the other direction and I sigh and walk back to the dance studio.

"Is he coming?" Jin asks and I nod.

"What's wrong Hobi hyung." Jungkook asks and I shrug.

"I am worried guys, I just don't know where this came from and he is not doing well. I can tell you that." I tell them and Jin goes to speak but we hear the door open and we all turn to see Namjoon stumbling in.

"Hyung, I don't feel so good." Namjoon says and Yoongi starts to walk towards him. Namjoon looks like he is having a hard time staying on his feet and like he is about to lose his stomach onto the floor.

"Namjoon, why don't you go back to the dorm and rest." Yoongi says and he shakes his head.

"Hyung I don't feel so good." Namjoon repeats and before we know it he is falling towards the floor, luckily Yoongi caught him. Yoongi struggles to hold his dead weight so as slowly as he could he lowered him to the floor gently.

"Joonie, Joonie wake up." Yoongi says and he taps on Namjoon's cheek.

Jimin's POV

I cant believe what just happened, I didn't know it had gotten this bad. We promised each other we wouldn't do this after I did this to them, I feel myself start to tear up and I back away. Everyone has gone to Namjoon's aid and I just can't process what happened. I hit my back against the wall, and it's then that I realize I am shaking and I slide down to the floor. I start to feel the tears falling causing my lungs to not work properly. I still see everyone trying to wake Namjoon up when Yoongi starts calling my name for me to get something and he starts looking around, we make eye contact and he turns back to the others and they all turn to look at me. Hosoek and Yoongi get up and come walking over to me.

"Jiminie are you alright?" Yoongi asks and I shake my head and he knows what is happening.

"I know we promised each other and we will talk to him when he is better, but he will be okay. We called for help and they are on their way." Yoongi tells me and I nod, before I can say anything though paramedics come into the room and Namjoon is taken to the ambulance with Jin with him.

"Let's get the other two and go to the hospital okay?" Hoseok asks and I nod and they help me up and Yoongi doesn't leave my side as we walk out to the car and he sits next to me humming as I fall asleep on his shoulder. When I wake up I feel I am laying on something soft and Yoongi's body heat is missing. I look around and see that I am laying on a couch in a hospital room and the others are all gathered around Namjoon's bed talking to him, no one knows I am awake yet.

"Hyung, why didn't you tell us, we promised that we wouldn't do this to ourselves after Jimin." Jungkook says and I silently sigh.

"Joonie, you had Jiminie terrified today, he had a panic attack whether he knows that or not." Yoongi tells him and I hear Namjoon sigh.

"I'm sorry guys, I didn't mean to and it's not like I got hate, I just got into my own head and it got out of hand." Namjoon says and I decide to sit up.

Namjoon's POV

I see Jimin sit up and I smile.

"Good morning Baby, are you feeling better?" I ask and everyone turns to look at Jimin. Jimin nods before standing up.

"How long was I asleep?" He asks and I shrug.

"About two hours." Yoongi answers and he nods before rubbing his eyes.

"Come here." I tell him quietly with a smile and he smiles before slowly walking over to the side of the bed and I pull him into a hug.

"You scared me hyung." He tells me in a whisper and I sigh.

"I know Jiminie, I am sorry but I will be okay." I tell him and he nods before he stands back up and he yawns, causing us all to "aww".

"I pull him down on the bed next to me and he cuddles up to me and puts his head on my shoulder and a minute later he is once again sleeping.

"Namjoon next time you feel yourself starting to get that mindset please let us know so we can help you." Jin tells me and Jimin shuffles a little bit. We all smile and I know that they are my family and just want to be there for me and I did make a promise, so now I have to make it right.

"I am sorry again guys and we are promising again and this time we are holding to the promise, all of us." I say and they all nod and Jimin makes a cute little noise causing us to all smile and I cover him with a blanket.

"The panic attack took a lot out of him and he needs rest, and so do you." Yoongi says to me and I nod.

"Let's take him home and we will bring him with us tomorrow when we come and visit." Jin says and I shake my head.

"No it's okay he can stay with me, I could use a buddy." I say with a smile and they all nod and smile as they wave a walk out the door heading home. I cuddle up better to Jimin and fall asleep, thinking about how I will protect my little brother and that I really need to make it up to Jimin.