The Journey

Nothing

I wake up the next morning with a smile on my face. 

The girl I've had a crush on forever kissed me last night. Now that I know she feels the same way I will be patient with her but I honestly don't know how long. 

I brush my teeth putting on my slippers and a sweatshirt then head to hair and makeup for the day. 

I wake in and the makeup artist is finishing up setting up his station. I guess I'm the first one today. 

The hairstylist start brushing my hair as soon as I sit down in the chair. She straightens my hair then does a single french braid then pins it back with two bobby pins. 

Then for my makeup we are doing like a gold eye shadow with light pink lip gloss. 

She hands me the lip gloss so I and reapply during the day. 

"Thank you." I say standing up going back to my room. I see Leigh walking towards the room. 

We make eye connect and I smile at her and she just looks down at the ground entering the room. 

I brush this off though because it is 4:30 in the morning. I pick out a a white v-tanktop with black jeans and a Gucci belt. 

I grab a jacket stuffing my lip gloss in it and then pack my backpack. I pack my portable charger, my cord, wallet, sunglasses, and my water bottle that has a bunch of Stitch stickers on it. 

I exit the room and head down to the lobby and I see Jade exiting her room as well. 

"Oh my god bitch." I say pulling her into the elevator. 

"What? What?!" She says kind of out of it. 

"Leigh kissed me last night." I tell her and we both squeal like school girls. 

We exit the elevator and enter the van waiting for the other girls. I sit across from Jade so there is an empty space next to both of us. 

Leigh comes down next and she makes eye connect with me again as she's entering the van and sits next to Jade. 

Ok. WTF. 

I look at Jade who is just as confused as I am. I just roll my eyes as to say 'I'm not dealing with this today.' 

Jesy and Perrie follow entering the van sitting next to me. Perrie puts her head on my shoulder and closing her eyes slightly. 

"Aw bubs you tired?" I ask putting my arm around her and she nods tiredly. 

I hear someone clear their throat and I look up to see Leigh glaring at me. 

"What?" I mouth at her causing her to roll her eyes. 

We arrive at the first radio station and we exit the van. We are about 20 minutes early and as we are waiting to a waiting area they have us in I feel someone grab my arm dragging my to the bathroom. 

"What the hell was that in the van?" Leigh says once she locks the door so were alone. 

"What are talking about? You're the one who made eye connect with me twice today. First this morning you didn't even acknowledge me and then when you got into the van you specifically didn't sit next to me." I say quite frustrated. 

"I want to continue how we were before. I want to keep us private." She says trying to give her reason. 

"Well what are we. We kissed last night and then this morning it's like I don't exist. You said be patient but when you're treating me like I'm not even there that's not what I'm okay with. You say you didn't want anything to change but you're not even treating me like before." I say and she sighs. 

"That kiss last night meant everything to me. I swear to you. I'm sorry for my actions but it's just that whenever I see you now all I wanna do is kiss you so I thought it was better to just keep my distance. But now I swear I won't do that anymore." She says looking at me lovingly. 

I sigh. "It's ok just don't do that again. Please?" I say giving into her eyes. 

She smiles. "Thank  you. Can I kiss you now?" 

"I don't know. I have lip gloss on." I say tensing her causing her to pout. 

I chuckle putting my arms around her neck and kiss her lovingly. 

"I will never get tired of kissing you." She says and I smile and pull my lip gloss out. 

I go to the mirror and reapply while Leigh moves behind me wrapping her arms around my waist. 

There's a knock on the door. "Girls 5 minutes!" 

I give Leigh a light peck on the lips and unlock the door exiting back out to our waiting room. 

Leigh sits next to me at during the interview and putting me in a happy mood. We were sat in the corner so the camera couldn't see under the table so Leigh grabbed and held my hand. 

"So Leigh-anne how are you and Jordan?" John asks and I look at her waiting for her to reply. 

Without hesitation she says "Were good. I talked with him this morning. I miss him so much." I take my hand away from hers setting it on my lap. 

"That's good any wedding bells?" He asks and I have to use every fiber in me to not roll my eyes. 

"We can only hope." She says crossing her fingers laughing a bit. She puts her hand back down and reaches back for my hand but I pull away. 

We literally just had a talk and she goes and says that. I get that she just kissed me last night but she hasn't even broken up with Jordan yet? 

We finished the interview getting back into the van and were given food in a take out box. 

Leigh sits next to me. 

"What's wrong?" She asks and I look at her. 

"You really don't know?" I asked confused on whether we were in the same interview or not. 

She sighs opening her food. "If this is about the Jordan question..." 

"What if it is?!" I say not caring the other girls are in the van. "Why couldn't you say you broke up? Did you even break up with him?" 

She stays silent answering my question. 

"So you kiss me while still being in a relationship. Good to know where I stand." I say then begin eating my food. 

"How can you expect me to break up with him?! We were together for 2 years! I can't do that to him. It's not fair to him." She says. 

"But it's fair to me right? Give me the heartbreak." I say causing her to groan. 

"That's not what I meant." She says. 

"I don't care. I'm done with this conversation." I say making her roll her eyes and the other girls just look at each other not knowing what to do. 

Fuckin shit. We aren't event together and are already fighting.