BLUE AND MUSIC

10

scared of my own image, Scared of my immaturity

Scared of my own ceiling, scared i'll die of uncertainty

Fear might be the death of me, Fear leads to anxiety

Don't know what's inside of me

Don't forget about me

Song: Doubt by Twenty One Pilot

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*Violent scene...don't read if sensitive😶

I swear once i die...God and i are going to have a talk about how he allowed me make wrong decisions...

I mean common!

Am already in pain...i dont need more.

Am sure God is looking down now and laughing

"Ha! You listened to the voice in your head...who does that...Mehn"

Or No...

Probably my life is a tv show in Heaven

"This is THE PATHETIC LIFE OF ASHLEY. Previously on the show.... Ashley had listened to the voice in her head which has lead into the hands of her mighty enemy... Kylan. Sit back and enjoy today's episode" A dude with a weird MC voice will say while the Angels and God sat around the tv with popcorns in their hands...

Yea its probably the latter.

Kylan eyes were filled with rage but i could see the angry tears bubbling in his eyes...

Ever slowly he took a step and my heart punded. I was scared. Frightened. I knew what was coming to me and some may say you should get used it. But i can't.

You can't get use to the punches and kicks of someone you once saw as family.

"YOU HAD THE AUDACITY TO COME HERE!" he shouted his gaze on me. I didnt look up knowing that will fuel his anger....

"LIKE THAT WASN'T ENOUGH...YOU STARTED TO SING!!!"

Another step...

"SHE ALWAYS SANG TO ME..." Tears slowly coming out of his eyes.

His anger was hitting me in waves...i was already shivering in fear.

Another step.

"BUT YOU TOOK THAT AWAY!"

This time it wasn't a step but a jump...because immediately he was infront of me.

He grabbed my neck and then a punch...

"I KEEP YEARNING FOR HER TOUCH... HER VOICE BUT I RECEIVE NOTHING"

A punch to my face...

I screamed in pain.... and a sinister smile appeared in his face.

"DO YOU KNOW WHY THAT HAPPENS?" He asked clearly not wanting me to answer because i receive a punch to my gut. Taking the air out of my lungs. Another scream comes out of me as tears roll down.

Even with the pain the former me...the sacarstic me wanted to reply

"but your gonna tell me anyway aren't you"

But i held myself because i have come to realised all they say is what i deserve...

"BECAUSE YOU HAD TO HAVE A FUCKING BOYFRIEND!"

He released the hold of my neck. Letting me fall to the ground. Pain shooting everwhere. I whimper from the pain but i barely have time to breath before he jumps on me giving me different punches...