BLUE AND MUSIC

14

Am going under and this time i fear there's no one to save me

This all or nothing really got a way of driving me crazy.

I need somebody to heal

Somebody to know

Somebody to have

Somebody to hold...

         Song: Somebody you loved by Lewis Capaldi.

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Have you ever felt...i dont know like empty...nah i cant say empty but like you cant feel..

   Haha!

"Numb" thats the word..

   Right now my brain is shut down and body doesn't feel like reacting to anything.

   I cant feel a damn thing... Since this morning i have been feeling like the walking dead.

  So reverse to this morning. After the mentioning of that...that... you know who.

  The teacher finally intervened giving both Rae and Red hoodie guy detention. The reaction on Chris face was funny he just kept looking around like a cute lost puppy.

   My other classes before lunch didnt involve any of my so called companions. So here i am my last class before Lunch.

     The teacher didn't even spar me a glance. She right there infront of the board yapping things i dont want to here..

Eren...

   But they didnt believe me when i said it so why...why does he know. Is there anyone else that knows the truth. Why dont they say something...

Why blame me...

   Well why not blame me... i guess..

  The bell rings and everyone rushes out for food. I roll my eyes at their enthusiasm.

  My stomach grumbles and i glare at it. How dare it grumble...its not like i wont puke out everything if i eat.

    Grabbing my thing i walk solemly to the cafeteria. Getting there i notice my table empty...

   Perfect.

  Taking just water from the lunch lady i head there with my head down.

  Someone pushes me and i almost fall to the ground but luckily i still live.

   Seating at the table i do my normal routine. Drink water and play some  games on my phone. Slowly i notice the cafeteria getting silent and that means one thing something is happening.

  Stopping my game and raise my head.

   Okay so there are two things happening.

1) Rae walking with Chris

2) Both coming my way.

  Rae coming here is okay but with Chris now thats a topic.

"Hey bae" Rae says as she takes a seat. Chris seats inbetween Rae and I

 
    "Hey Ashyboo"

   My eyes widen in surprise.

 
   "Ashyboo?" I ask clearly confused.

"Thats my name for you. Dont you like it. I could call you Ashinator! Yea that could work!" He exclaims bringing an arm around my shoulder and dragging me close to him.

Okay....so we are at the touchy stage...

   I give him awkward smile.

"Chris you are the worst nickname giver ever" Sage says seating down beside Rae

  My jaw drops to the ground. She is also seating here. Are this people crazy their popularity with drop with me around them.

  Sage just stares at me blankly before turning to her brother with a small smirk on her face.

     She gives me the creeps..just a bit.

Chris pouts and i immediately wanted to awww. He looked like a 5 years old.

"No! Am the best nicknamer ever"

  Sage and Chris immediately start bickering. I look around and notice everyone was talking about the latest development.

   My mind goes blank again and i start to staring into space. The things i will do for a normal life...

    I feel someone seat at the other side of me. I snap out of my blank staring i turn to see Xandee smirking at me.

    What happened this morning comes into my mind and the blood rushes to my cheeks.

   Xander smiles at my reaction clearly  enjoying my embarrassment.

What are you doing to me Xander...

     What are you doing to me?.

Author's note.

  Heyyy...

What do ya all think?

Hope you are loving it so far.

Am really trying my best...

   So for the first time am not leaving for food...😂

My mum gave me alot of chores and i havent done them

Also she is coming in the next 40 mins so like.. 🤗

I got to dash😬

    Bye....

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   Alright am going

      Bye

          Love Blue💙