Avoid

Chapter 27

My first day working at the hospital was a shock to my system but I loved it. Even if I was constantly on the go on my feet. I observed a midwife called Jane.
She was really lovely and so good at her job. Watching how caring and supporting she was to patients coming in made me realise I had made the right choice.
One lady had a baby girl she named her Kylie. She was the like a scrunched up ball of cuteness. I congratulated her and said how beautiful her daughter was.
She was crying happy tears saying it had taken her years to have a child but she still couldn't believe her baby was finally here.
I had to wipe the corners of my eyes, seeing so much love from this woman and what she must have been through. That baby was going to have one hell of a mum and get spoilt rotten.
She'd had to stay in a week due to some complications she had. When it finally came to her leaving I waved them off with Jane. She thanked us saying how kind, helpful and supportive we were.
I went home with the biggest smile on my face. This made me determined to focus more on my maths to get it done with.

I had done the first test from maths and Mateo was getting me to check the results.
"Ohhh would you look at that. ONE MARK! Away from passing." He grinned knowing he had to set me a task.
I couldn't help but smile because if it wasn't for him I wouldn't even have got half the answers right. I covered my face waiting to hear what he had to say. He chuckled uncovering my hands from my face.
"Since it wasn't a bad score, you could make me them cookies tomorrow or whenever?"
I sat up quickly.
"Really? That's my task?" I didn't quite believe him.
"Yeah, you was close let's be honest. One mark and you'd of passed anyway. This way I get to eat them cookies and I don't think it's the worst task do you?" He said with a slight curve at the sides of his lips.
I was pleased! Although he set to work with me again. More maths... yay! Eye roll.

Weeks went by and this was the most we had got on to be honest. He hadn't been out drinking as much, which I felt a little bad for as I wondered if it was because he was helping me. I'd also noticed I hadn't heard him with any women maybe he had chosen to try be more respectful? Who knows.. but I wasn't complaining.
While he helped and explained things I'd often just sneak looks at him wishing he'd want me back like I wanted him.
I passed and failed a few tests. He set some funny tasks and tried to embarrass me making me do silly stuff. Like cluck around like a chicken and whatever else. The ass!

I'd got in from a shift and needed a shower, I put my pyjamas on to get comfy. Then off I went like the routine we had I knocked on his door.
He must of just been in the shower too he had his black joggers on and was topless showing his glorious body off. His hair was still damp and some bits spiked across his forehead.
"Come in then stink." He waved me in.
I sat down now feeling at ease on his bed.
He got my modules up on the laptop and started rubbing his hands together.
"This one is an easy one. You'll storm it."
I smiled brightly that he had such confidence in me. He started to explain what the question was asking, breaking down it's meaning when my strap fell down my arm.
He stopped talking for a moment looking at my strap then pulled it back up onto my shoulder.
Then carried on talking...
"So circle the key words in this question you think is relevant. Just remember they add information to try confuse you."

I nodded leaning over circling words.
His breath hitched staring at my chest which was nearly spilling out. Shit! I sat up straight, his eyes were burning bright. He cleared his throat, trying to continue with what he was saying.
He leaned in and I felt like he was going to kiss me for a moment but he didn't he grabbed the pencil from my side. I gulped hard and my eyes were on his nipple piercing I'd love to lick it.
"Lacey you listening?" He asked.
"Uh huh." I hadn't heard a word oops.
He glanced up at me as he was jotting down an equation.
"Sure you are. You should be anyway. So here's an equation." He slid the paper to me.

He'd wrote down how many people I'd kissed and put four, then how many he'd kissed roughly.
"What's the estimated range?" He had the most smug grin on his face.
I rolled my eyes I knew he was teasing me, the fact he'd leaned in as if he was gonna kiss me before. What an asshole!

I huffed.. "What the hell sort of question is that?"
He was grinning and laughing so hard I thought he was going to pass out from loss of air.
God I could slap him across his stupidly idiotic beautiful face. "Grrr..."
"Your cute when your mad." Still holding his sides whilst his shoulders shook with laughter.

I jumped up to storm out of his bedroom door. But he caught up to me putting his hand on the door to stop me leaving. I turned and was now backed up against the door. He leaned in resting his forearms on the door enclosed around me as if I was in a cage.
He got closer brushing his lips against mine.
"You have gorgeous lips you know." He said with his eyes focused down.
I was stunned by his compliment, I blushed a little...

"Why do you blush everytime I compliment you or if I say something sexual, or rude?" He asked.
I suddenly felt embarrassed and looked down at my feet.
He pulled back a little... "Wait.. You have.." He paused bringing his hand to cup my chin tilting my head up to look at him.
"You have had sex before right?" He was searching my face probably for the answer. I couldn't keep eye contact and my body I could feel was giving me away, my burning cheeks felt like they were on fire.

He stepped back.
..... "Shit." He said under his breath.
"Whoa Lacey. How have you not?" He run his hands through his hair.
I shrugged. A deeper shade of red I said "I haven't wanted to with anyone..."
"Fucking hell. Why? That's just weird." He said rather harshly.

"I... I... don't know. I haven't met the right one I guess.." I stuttered.
His eye brows rose.. "The right one?"

He shook his head in disbelief.
"You really don't know what your missing out on.."
"It isn't just about sex you know!" I said suddenly feeling brave.
"Ohh it certainly works for me. The pleasure you can feel without the complications of feelings. No expectations, no commitments and definitely no disappointing anyone just mindless sex." He said as if as simple as that.

Is he serious right now. He's just outright told me what a player he is sleeping around. The thoughts are making me nauseous.
"Look maybe for you. I want more, someone to laugh with, have fun with, someone who cares for me, makes me feel safe, someone kind, someone..."

"Yo Teo you in? We brought pizza mate." A voice shouted interrupting me.

He frowned looking like he didn't know what to do or say, I saved him the bother I picked up my stuff and walked out of his bedroom and straight to my own. He followed me out and to his friend. His friends weren't exactly who I'd want to be hanging around with. But then again this is him we are talking about. The player of all players.

I couldn't get the image of the way he looked at me like I had three heads for not having had sex yet. I thought he might tease me for it. Shaking the thoughts from my head I decided to look at the equation he'd given me and wrote down the answer, I needed the toilet so I slipped it under his door. As awkward as it may be now I still needed him to help me with my maths.

    After I'd been to the toilet I braved going to the kitchen as I needed a drink.
    "Lacey! Hey hot stuff where you been? I've texted you a few times. When you next hitting the club?" Ben wrapped his arms around me.
     "Hey! I've been busy with my placement at the hospital sorry. As for the club I'm not sure maybe when my friend Jodie comes up."

Mateo was sat on the sofa ignoring me.
Danny came over to give me a hug... "Yeah you need to let your hair down!"
  "Or just let your dress and panties down." Tom shouted across the room.
Mateo tensed up and I could see him glaring at him.
   "Ha ha." I stuck my tongue out at Tom.
He laughed.

     I grabbed my glass of water and was going back to my bedroom when Ben grabbed my hand.
  "Why don't you sit with us for a bit?" Ben's eyes were giving me a quick once over.
I looked across at Mateo who had his lips pressed together.
  "No thanks I'm tired." I gave Ben a tight smile.
"Ok goodnight then gorgeous." He kissed me on the cheek.
I saw Teo shaking his head looking pissed.

     When I got back to my room, I laid on my bed wondering what Teo was thinking. If he didn't want me before he sure won't now he knows I have no experience.
      My eyes felt heavy... I drifted off to Mateo kissing me and him telling me he wants me!
At least in dreams it could feel real..