#22 - Huang Renjun

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We continued asking questions for the show, and after Jaemin they said the 'Ask.. Jinji!'

"If you had to get married to a member, who would you pick?" Jaemin asked. I inhaled and made my cheeks puffy while exhaling, making it evident that that's a difficult question.

"Marriage is really scary for me since I've never loved anyone in a relationship type of way so it's not anything I would think of until I'm much older. However, if I had to pick a member I would choose either Jisung or Renjun. While most people are here thinking that Jisung is just a maknae and a baby, he's actually really mature. Maybe even more mature than some 127 members." I answered. The boys started talking about how they agreed with me and stuff, when Jaemin spoke.

"What about Renjun? You never gave a reason." He said.

"A while back when my parents and my brother were visiting, my parents texted me later that night after they left and said how they liked him the best. They told me how he was perfect for me and how our personalities match so well. Also another reason was because he is very well with all kinds of people. Especially people that are younger than him and he cares about. Whether they all call me mom or I call him mom it never fails to make sense. He takes care of all us when we need it." I explained. The boys made some noises and spoke about how Renjun is perfect, which made him shy.

"Whats your dream collaboration?" Chenle asked me.

"I have so many to be honest. I'm gonna have to go with Taeyong or Joyner Lucas. Taeyong has always fascinated me in many ways. We have a very odd relationship, where we bring out the goofy in each other. Plus he is a rapping king and I will forever live by that. But Joyner Lucas is a not very big rapper and he deserves it more. He had this one song that's called ADHD, which many people may not know this about me but I struggle with a lot of things because of ADHD. When I was in school it affected me a lot and sometimes I'd get in trouble for not being able to focus or sit still. He just really inspired me in ways that most people don't." I explained. The boys started discussing some things, also teasing me about picking Taeyong of all people.

When we got back to the dorms we were talking when I got a message on my phone. I grabbed my phone and saw Huixiao text me something.

Huixiao🥰:
The amount of videos there are on youtube of fans shipping you and nct members is insane. I can't believe I'm friends with a famous person🥺

Me:
Wait I'm confused wym

Huixiao🥰:
Go on youtube and look up Jinji nct

I went on youtube and typed in what she told me to, and there were so many shipping videos. Some from Vlives, music videos, behind the scenes clips, the show today, and even some things called 'one shots' with my name on it. I read down the list of videos.

The first one was titled 'Jinsung being adorable for 4 minutes straight' I assumed that was me and Jisungs ship name. The next one was 'Jinji is a big mood and here's why'

Another one was 'Renji is too pure for this world' Okay the thumbnail is pretty cute. It was in the behind the scenes of me and Yuta's mv, when Renjun gave me a piggyback ride.

The next one was 'Yuji can step on me for 6 minutes' I internally screamed at the name because I say that 24/7 about Aisha, but I smiled at it because it was funny.

And the last one on the page was titled 'Renji has more fans than nct dream itself and we stan' My eyes went big at that because how could that be true? I mean yeah me and Renjun are a power ship and everything around it but we aren't even dating, how would fans already love us together. I show just as much attention to the other members. I just shut my phone off and laid down, thinking about it all.

"What's wrong?" Chenle asked me.

"Nothing." I replied.

"Your face is saying otherwise." He told me.

"Did you know that there's a chance that me and Renjun won't be able to breath the same air around camera without people making videos of us being together?" I asked Chenle. He looked at me with wide eyes. Luckily it was just the two of us in the living room.

"What do you mean?" He asked me. I turned on my phone and pointed to the one video about having so many shippers.

"It's in english silly." He said.

"It's titled 'Renji has more fans than nct dream itself and we stan.' I translated.

"Haha as it should. You and Renjun could be the mom and dad couple. You guys would be cute." Chenle replied.

"W-what?" I asked, dumbfounded at his response.

"You are the only person he cuddles, the only person who can give him funny nicknames, the only person he looks at like there's some magic sparks floating, and the only person that he focuses on more than himself." He told me. I didn't say anything back. Instead I just sat there and thought.

What if Renjun likes me? How would that work? I don't even know how I feel about him.