#22 - Huang Renjun

24

I hadn't slept yet and it was 1 am, and I was thirsty. I left my room with my fuzzy socks on so I didn't make as much noise. When I got in the kitchen Renjun was standing in front of the fridge with a phone flash light.

"Hey." I whispered.

"Hi. Why are you awake?" He asked.

"I'm thirsty as hell and i've been listening to music for the last 30 minutes." I replied.

"Ah. What playlist?" He asked. He knew all my playlists because of the one day where we were sharing them on vlive.

"The sad one." I answered while looking away.

"Why are you sad?" He said and pouted while walking closer and putting his arms out. I wrapped my arms and legs around him and hugged him back while letting out a deep sigh.

"A lot has been on my mind lately. I'm not even close to alone, but yet I feel so lonely." I told him. I was comfortable with talking to the boys now about my issues because we all go through them no matter what. They know I have another side that isn't just bright and bubbly all the time.

"We can get through it together. Whatever you need, we can supply it." He said. I just sighed because I knew what I needed wasn't something that's easy to get a hold of. I wanted Renjun. I wanted to tell him how I feel, and be with him. But I don't want to be rejected because then I'm with him still almost 24/7 and that's bad enough, let alone the hatred we'd get.

"Hey Jinji?" He asked and pulled away to look me in the eyes. I hummed waiting for him to continue.

"If you had to pick a member who you feel the most comfortable with, who is it?" He asked.

"Are you an interviewer now??" I teased.

"No I'm just curious." He replied with a pout.

"Fine. Mostly Haechan, you, and Chenle. You're all my closest and have seen me in my worst more than the others. I mean I'm comfortable around all of you though." I answered.

"Oh." He said with a smile.

"Why?" I asked.

"If I do this now I might regret it after I see your reaction but if I don't do it now I won't get another chance." He said in chinese which made me worry. He took a deep breath before grabbing my face by my cheeks and pressing his lips to mine. He pulled back and looked at me. I leaned in and kissed him this time. He relaxed a bit and when we pulled back he leaned his head on my neck.

"Renjun?" I spoke. He mumbled a low 'hm?' so I continued.

"I'm glad you were my first kiss." I said. He chuckled and hugged me with his head in my neck.

"I like you, Jinji." He mumbled.

"I like you too. I'm just scared." I replied. He looked up at me with his arms still around my waist.

"Of what?" He asked.

"Of what everyone will think. I know we don't have a dating ban anymore but it's a big deal when members of the same group are dating. Its just scary in general and I can't deal-" He cut me off by pecking my lips.

"Listen to me, It's gonna be fine. Like I said earlier-we're gonna get through this together. And honestly who cares what everyone thinks. We're 21 now, we can do whatever the hell we want. Okay?" He said. I smiled and nodded before hugging him again.

"You should get some sleep. We have early practice tomorrow." He reminded me.

"Yeah. You need to go back to sleep too." I told him.

"Goodnight Jinji." He said. I said the same before going back into my room. Haechan was laying on his bed with his legs curled up and no covers on. I shook my head before pulling the covers up and over his body, which he cuddled into the blankets immediately.

Over 2 months later

The boys had just went to the 127 dorm to eat pizza, but I said I'd stay back and clean. They said they'd be gone for a long time but I was okay with that since my room was messy *haechans side* and the rest of the house could use some straightening up.

I played a random playlist and started cleaning up in my room.

"Cool song." I heard from behind me. I jumped and turned around with the shorts in my hand.

"Eww youre holding Haechan's dirty shorts." Renjun said with a disgusted face.

"I'm cleaning bro. What do you expect? Someone's gotta do it. Why are you here anyways?" I replied.

"Well I told the guys that I'd come and clean my room because it's so dirty even though it's really not so I could spend time with you." He explained with a smile while plopping down on my bed.

"You're such a simp." I said.

"Correction: your simp." He replied. I chuckled and continued picking up the room.

"You look nice today." He spoke while staring at me.

"Thank you baby but you look better." I said knowing that he was just admiring my ass in these biker shorts.

"Gimme kiss." He pouted. I smiled and pecked his lips, but he quickly grabbed my waist and pulled me on the bed.

"No a real kiss." He demanded. I rolled my eyes and kissed him, but he pulled my head so I couldn't pull back.

"You gotta either wear these shorts and help me out sometimes, or stop wearing them completely." He whispered against my neck.