She Didn't Break ✔️

Page 74 - Make Him Feel Better

Page 74 – Make Him Feel Better

I made myself watched as the arrow landed on the border-most portion of the wooden target, the other side of its blade sliced Knidn’s neck.

Nabitawan ko yung mga hawak ko at naluhod sa semento habang nakatulalang nakatitig sa dugo na umaagos sa leeg ni Knidn.

I failed.

“I'm fine.”

Nabuhayan ako ng loob nang nakapagsalita si Knidn. He finally moved away from that cursed wall. Three people in white rushed to check his neck wound.

“It’s not fatal. I’m okay.” sambit ni Knidn sa kanila. Ignoring him, one of them said, “Emperor’s order.”

And without further explanation, they started first aid treatment. I watched as one of the medics pulled out the dart. Knidn didn’t even flinch. Nang naalala ko 'yung lason, I yelled, “The poison! Treat the poison—”

“There’s no poison.”sabi ng isang malamig at malaghong na boses. Napalingon ako pataas sa Emperor mula sa aking pagkakaluhod.

“What do you mean.”

I know I'm about to snap every time my questions turned into statements.

“The dart is not poisoned. I lied—”

Hindi ko na siya pinatapos, I sprung out from my kneeling position and threw myself at the Emperor. I gave all the strength left to push him down until he’s lying beneath me as I continuously slap and punch him in the chest and arms.

“How dare you!” I shouted on his face. “I hate you! I hate you! Monster! You’re a monster! Monster! Monster!”

Paulit-ulit kong isinagaw na halimaw siya habang patuloy pa rin ang pag sampal sa dibdib at mga braso niya.

My tears fell on his face and I watched his emotionless deep black eyes staring back at me. He's smiling softly na para bang hindi ko siya pilit sinasaktan. Na para bang hindi man lang siya nakakadama ng sakit.

“No. Don’t interfere.” bigla siyang nagsalita. I know it’s not for me. There’s a shadow and a presence behind us.

Isa siguro sa tauhan ng Empero ang akmang pipigil sana sa ginagawa ko. I didn’t stop until I felt so tired. So tired na hindi ko na maiangat pa ang mga braso ko. Tears were still falling on my face as I slumped my bruised and reddened hands on the Emperor’s chest covered with black vest.

Pinilit ko ang sarili na umalis mula sa pagkakapatong sa kaniya at nang naggawa ko ito, naupo ako sa semento, at isinubsob ang ulo sa pagitan ng aking tuhod.

Someone ruffled my hair. Kahit hindi ko nakikita kung sino, I know the owner of this large, callused hand.

The Emperor.

Itinaas ko ang aking kaliwang kamay, I grabbed his thick wrist and pushed his touch away. Kaagad akong bumitaw.

From the hands of monsters to another monster much much worse that the monsters before him.

This is my fucking life.

Hindi ko alam kung kailan ako tumigil sa pag iyak. My eyes felt dry of tears.

“I will be a monster if needed for you, my dear niece.”

Hindi ako sumagot. I thought I could change, or at least, make him better but how could I if his monstrous side is more powerful?

“Take her home, De Silva. Fulfill all of her needs and wants.”

May bumuhat sa akin, bridal style, I don’t want anyone, especially the Emperor to see my face kaya ibinaon ko ang aking mukha sa leeg ni Knidn. My mouth landed on his gauze covered neck. Napayakap ako ng mahigpit at siniguradong sa likod niya ako nakahawak.

Knidn's body vibrated, when he replied, “Yes, my Emperor.”

I wonder what would have happened to any of them who’s not me kapag ginawa nila ang ginawa ko sa Emperor. Kapag sinubukan nilang hindi sumunod o tumanggi sa mga utos niya.

I think I know the answer.

The Emperor would kill them without any hesitation.

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I made Knidn stripped down to his boxers at pinahiga ko siya on his back sa aking kama.

Naupo ako malapit sa kaniya at hindi napigilan ang sarili nang sinuklay ko ang malago at medyo kulot na buhok ni Knidn gamit ang aking mga daliri. His eyes would open in slits then close.

“I’m sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry..” walang hintong bulong ko na para bang mapapagaling ng sorry ang sugat niya sa leeg.

“Please stop apologizing, Zony.”

Umiling ako, “If I'm just better at archery, hindi sana kita nasugatan. Muntikan na Knidn. Kung napausog lang 'yun ng konti, sa leeg mo na diretsong tama ng palaso. You could have died because of me. I’m sorry. Forgive me. Please. I’m—”

Knidn placed two of his fingers against my lips preventing it from moving.

“There’s nothing to apologize for. I believe in you, Zony. I believed you will pass our Emperor’s test and you did.”

Hindi ako makasagot dahil hinagod ni Knidn ang labi ko gamit ang mga daliri niyang nakalapat dito.

“I will never blame you for this,” saad niya, “You saved me. Yes, it’s not smooth and easy but what matters is you're here with me. I feel no pain whenever you’re around, my Zony. Only satisfaction. Happiness.”

I opened my mouth. Ipinasok ni Knidn ang mga daliri sa bunganga ko. My automatic reaction was to roll my tongue against his fingers, sucking them lightly in my mouth.

Knidn’s mouth opened and his eyes narrowed further. He looked like a cat purring with pleasure.

He pulled out his fingers and it was released with a pop. I watched him lick the same fingers with his pinkish tongue.

Nang natapos siya, he told me, “Way better. You’re my medicine, my Zony. I love you so much.”

What did I do to deserve his love?

“Tell me, Knidn, what can I do to make you feel better than this?”

“You’re already making me feel better. It’s enough.”

“I want to take away your pain completely. Tell me. Anything.”

It’s the least I could for him. For this man who love me. This man who asked for nothing else but to just let him love me.

I’m far from being ready to love again. But if I ever love someone once more, it would be him…Prince Knidn De Silva.

“You said you have a huge sexual appetite.” sabi ko.

Knidn licked his lips.

“Yes.” He groaned and I watched his lower body thrusts in air.

Wetness gushed from my center. I want to make him feel so good.