𝑪𝑶𝑴𝑴𝑶𝑵 𝑺𝑬𝑵𝑺𝑬, cmb ✓

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C M B

"All the things that I know
That your parents don't
They don't care like I do
Nowhere like I do"
Saturday Nights - Khalid

3 days since I talked to Lara. I don't know why we're not talking. Normally, I'd start the conversation, but I don't really have anything to say to her right now. Plus, things are just weird between us. I want her, she wants me but not now. I don't think I could do much about that. Of course I'll wait for her, but what if I keep waiting only to see that she's fine without me?

"Thanks for watching!" Jonah says, his voice startling me. I bring my attention back to the camera in front of me as we end our YouTube video with AwesomenessTV. We spent the last hour making theme songs for different AwesomenessTV web series. From Guidance to Twin My Heart, we did it all. It was definitely a fun experience and an even better distraction from Lara.

"Click the top right to listen to our newest album." Jack says, pointing to the top right.

"Make sure to subscribe to AwesomenessTV and click the bell for post notifications." Daniel says, pointing down to where the subscribe button would be.

"And don't forget to hit the like button and comment down below what show we should be in. We'd love to see your suggestions." Zach says with two thumbs up.

"Who knows, maybe you'll see one of us on the next season of Twin My Heart." I say jokingly. Jonah raises his hand and says, "I nominate Daniel." causing all of us to laugh.

"I second that." Zach laughs, raising his hand too. One of the producers raises her hand, telling us it's a wrap. The cameras cut as we walk out of the setup and back into the greenroom to retrieve our belongings. "Well that was fun." Jack says, still laughing at a joke we made while filming.

We grab our stuff, thanking the producers and crew before leaving their offices. The 5 of us agree on going to our favorite pizza place for dinner Downtown. Nothing like pizza with the boys to cure a broken heart right?

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After dinner we went to the beach in Santa Monica to watch the sunset on our Instagram live. I must admit, it's been a while since we've done one of these as a band. I remember we used to do at least one every other day, but now, not so much. Although, it was nice to reconnect with our fans again and just talk.

"Alright it's already pretty dark outside as you can see." Jonah says. The 5 of us are crowded around Jonah's phone, seeing the chat go by quickly. We've been sitting on the beach ever since sunset - it's now almost 10 o'clock. "Ack I don't like the darrkkk." Zach says in a funny voice, making all of us laugh.

"Thanks for tuning in with us." Jack says, winking at the camera. Me and Daniel begin milly rocking in the background as we wave goodbye to the live. "Love you guys!" Daniel says loudly, the rest of us saying the same thing after. Jonah ends the live as we make our way back into the car to head back to LA.

It was my turn to drive so on the way back, I dropped off Daniel at the C4 House, Jack at Gabbie's, Zach to his parents, and Jonah to Tate's. I'd be lying if I said I didn't feel like a soccer mom at the moment. I got back to the house alone and parked the car in the garage, making my way into the pitch black house. Driving around LA and dropping everyone off to their destinations took almost an hour itself. I check my phone for the time - 10:56 PM. I see my lock screen filled with notifications from Twitter and Instagram. Most of them are posts or tweets I'm tagged in, which is normal for me. I begin to like some of the edits on Instagram as I walk inside my closet to grab some pajamas.