☆.｡.:*𝕕𝐞𝑠𝕡𝐞𝗋𝖺𝗍𝐞.｡.:*☆ || a Seungjin ff || ✓

Tuesday 💜

3rd person

He opened his eyes.

They were hurting.

And swollen.

He was laying in his bed, darkness surrounding him.

The wind was blowing heavily, crashing the rain drops which had hung on the trees leaves on the window.

It was hurting.

His heart.

So badly.

Almost unbearable.

They escaped once again.

Tears.

Rolling down his cheeks once again and landing on his blanket.

They didn't stop. They wouldn't stop.

Not until it stops hurting.

He was weak, he knew it.

But if it comes to loving Hyunjin, he'd never show his weakness.

He'd never show his weakness when fighting against it.

He didn't want to lose.

He couldn't. Or else he'd lose him.

Why did he had to cry? Because he was sad.

But Hyunjin wouldn't want him to be sad.

He wouldn't want him to be crying right now. He would offer him a tissue or wipe them away with his sleeves....or hug him.

"I cannot disappoint him..." Seungmin whispered to himself.

"He would've wanted me to be happy....but I cannot be happy without him. I can't be happy without you, Hyunjin....because you are my happiness..."

A last tear rolled down, stopping on the halfway. 

"If we could stay like that forever..."

It didn't move.

"I would give you all of my love"

It slid down, dropping on to the blanket.

"But we can't...."

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School

Hyunjin was entering the school with a weird and heavy feeling in his heart. He didn't sleep well. Almost not at all. He went through the halls which were empty. He had overslept his first period and soon his second would start. It doesn't make sense to go to class...

Then he saw him. But this time his smile wasn't as big as usually. It was a small smile. A fake smile. A smile that was hiding pain.

"Hey" greeted Seungmin.

"Hey" said Hyunjin.

"Skipped first class?"

"No, overslept"

"I see"

"You?"

"My first period is free but I came earlier"

"Huh...why?"

"Because I wanted to see you"

Realizing what the younger just had said, he flushed in a dark shade of red.

"U-uh-" stuttered Hyunjin.

"Because of me?"

"You should learn how to tie ties Jinnie" the younger changed the topic.