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His body was lying on the floor.
Like a dead body.
Freezing.
And cold.
But he wasn't dead.
Maybe from the outside but not from the inside.
It had gotten a bit dark. Dark clouds were showing up. It'll rain.
And he'll be able to hide his tears.
A few drops landed on him.
The cold wind blowing.
He had tried to stand up multiple times but failed.
His knees were hurting badly.
HIs back was hurting badly.
HIs heart was hurting badly.
But he managed to stand up as the rain started to pour.
As if the day wanted him to get wet.
Maybe he deserved it.
He was walking through the rain, being too weak to run.
Making slow steps, stumbling around the streets while clutching his stomach.
Some people were giving him weird looks, not caring if the boy got wet.
Well, people are selfish....
He got soaked wet, reaching the bus stop.
His body shaking as he sat down on the bench to wait for his bus.
"No one will ever love you..."
"No one will ever love you..."
"No one will ever love you..."
"No one will ever love me..."
His eyes teared up just by thinking about the sentence.
He wasn't able to give Hyunjin all of his love.
His love wasn't enough.
HIs love wasn't good enough for Hyunjin.
He wasn't good enough for Hyunjin.
He and his love.
It hurt him so much.
Because he had thought that Hyunjin actually meant it.
"He played all off it..."
He had thought Hyunjin would like him, no matter in which way.
"Can't you see that I don't like you?"
He had thought Hyunjin would care about him.
"I don't f#cking care...."
But he just did everything wrong.
"Stop messing up people lives..."
"I had promised to stop bothering him and I broke it...I broke our promise....I'm such a bad friend...that's why no one likes me..."
Tears rolled down his cheeks but you couldn't see them since it was raining.
The bus came and he drove home.
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It was quiet.
HIs grandmother wasn't at home, probably at Jeongjas home.
He went to his room and turned on his lamp.
A dim light shining in his room, making it seem comfy.
That's what he needed now.
Comfort.
But not from a person.
His bed will be enough.
He saw himself in the mirror.
Eyes red from all the crying, a bit of dirt on his left cheek therefore the big 'LOSER' still visible.
He tried his best to get it off and luckily it did.
"A Loser..."
"But I don't want to be a loser..."
Tears filled his eyes again, dropping into the sink.
He was feeling so lonely.
And hurt.
He wished he could be in Hyunjins arms right now.
"He hurt you...yet you want to be with him..."
He wished Hyunjin would caress his hair, wiping his tears from his tear streamed cheeks and comforting him with soft and gentle words.
But it would never happen.
He was a loser, right?
He shook off his thoughts, deciding to take a bath.
He filled the tub.
Seungmin turned the water off, undressing himself as he got into the hot tub.
A vanilla smell scenting the bathroom.
His favorite scent.
No.
It wasn't his favorite scent anymore.
Hyunjin's scent was his favorite.
But because of his stupidity....of his desperate and needy behavior he had lost Hyunjin.
And that's the stupid thing.
You see, the younger didn't do anything wrong.
He wasn't the problem.
Yet he was believing it was his fault.
And once again he cried, burying his face in his hands.
It was killing him.
This feeling...those emotions...
From the inside and outside.
He sobbed because he didn't want to lose Hyunjin.
He only wanted to be loved by someone once...
no, not someone.
Hyunjin.
He hugged his knees, drowning in his own tears....
"I'll never be enough....that's why no one will ever love me..."
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I don't even have words for this I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for doing this....I just-
...Thank u for being here~~~ 🖤
(btw I love their comeback! 🤭❤️)
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☆.｡.:*𝕕𝐞𝑠𝕡𝐞𝗋𝖺𝗍𝐞.｡.:*☆ || a Seungjin ff || ✓
Fanfiction"Why do you hate me so much?" "Why do you even care?" In which the schools bad boy Hwang Hyunjin encounters a softie called Seungmin. Started: 3/08/20 Ended: 9/12/20 Rankings: #1Seungjin - 12/11/20 #1Hyunmin - 15/11/20 #2Hyunmin - 13/11/20
