"Because if I'm lost either ways, I may as well be lost with you"
***
When he thought there was nothing left for him, she entered his life.
When she thought she was losing her sanity, he entered hers.
Felix is done with life when a beautiful brunett...
I groan as the sunlight peeks through curtains of my huge window. I roll over to my side to get my phone.
9:37 am
My eyes suddenly flicker to my wallpaper. It's me and Dylan. Freshman year. We were working out for the soccer tryouts and my dad clicked our picture. My dad.
It was a sunday last year and I was waiting for Dylan at our penthouse. We were gonna throw a impetous party for the game we had won the night before when my mom called me telling me that there has been an accident with my dad. I rushed to the hospital and found out that he didn't make it. They said he died in a car crash. There was a car crash that afternoon but what disturbs me is - he wasn't in that car.
Suddenly a knock interrupts my thoughts and before I can answer someone barges in. Frank.
"Hey kiddo. Your friends are downstairs. They said you knew about today's plan and that you should've been ready by now when I told them you're still asleep" and like the hyperactive person he is, before I can answer him he continues "and Isaac is saying that if you don't come downstairs in the next ten minutes then they'll ruin your beautiful morning face" and he goes on again "I don't like these threats by the way and I told them that" he says with an awfully wide smile on his face.
Isaac and Claire decided that it would be a good idea to take me out a day before school starts so that I take a break from my exploration.
"Can I speak now?" I say with an extremely irritated expression on my face.
"Yes sure, go ahead" he says opening the door a little bit more.
"I forgot to set an alarm yesterday and I was up late doing, um, something so tell them I'll be downstairs in fifteen" I say not bothering to hear what he says next and go straight in the bathroom.
Frank married my mom six months ago. He has a little son - Samuel and although I despise his dad with every little inch of my body, it's hard not to like that little munchkin.
He's probably the only good thing in my life right now. I'm lying. I have extremely amazing friends sitting downstairs and a wonderful mom who's probably making breakfast for them. And although I hate the fact that she could replace my dad so quickly, I love her.
But even after so many good things going on for me are right here in this house, I can't bring myself to smile everyday. At least not one that's genuine. I miss him. Both of them.
***
We are currently sitting in a corner booth of a cafe which is very much near our school but we always come here. This has been our place since all of us became friends- me, Dylan, Isaac, Brynn, Chloe, Claire and Jenny.
Brynn and Chloe don't talk to us anymore. That's what they say but it's pretty much the other way round. Jenny just couldn't come today.
The cafe is called 'Bluemoon' and it's a vintage one.
Claire and Isaac are bickering about some stupid shit and I'm just sitting here looking at my ugly ass drink right now.
"But I'm pretty sure that if we ask Fel, he'll agree that Scooby-doo is so much better than Bullwinkle" I suddenly tune in to the conversation when I hear Claire say my name.
"No way. Felix, what do you think? Scooby-doo or Bullwinkle?" Isaac asks me and I'm confused out of my mind.
"What?" I ask like I don't understand a thing. Which, by the way, is the truth.
"Nothing" Isaac says with a sigh. "We were just saying that you have to stop it now. We know that it's hard for you but it's a dead end Felix. You have got to stop doing this to yourself. You are constantly zoning out of conversations, you don't have any thoughts on your mind except for trying to figure out what happened that afternoon, you don't get proper sleep beacuse you're too busy linking one thing to another. You are going to start your junior year tomorrow and if you keep this up, you're going to waste it" he rambles.
And even though all the things he said is true, all I can think about is - "this is definitely not the dead end" I tell both of them as I get up hastily and ignorantly from my seat.
But a hand clasps my wrist and I see Claire look at me with a worried expression. "Of all the things he said, you just had to pick up that?" she laughs a little and I just give her a tilted neck and sit back down.
A waitress comes to pick up our drinks and looks at flirtatiously batting her eyelashes. She looks a bit familiar. Oh yes, she works here and I internally roll my eyes. She asks me in an extremely annoying voice "Can I bring you anything else?
"No can do. This new drink was pretty disgusting and I didn't even have to drink it to know that" I say not even looking at her but taking out some cash to pay.
Claire stifles a laugh and Isaac just snorts.
I get up not minding to look back at her expression and walk out the door.
"Do you want me to drop you? I'm leaving" I ask Claire as I fetch out the key to my motorbike from my pocket.
"Uh no we'll take a walk, I wanna buy some stuff anyway. You go ahead. Isaac will drop me" she says.
"Alright" I say and take off.
***
I hold my helmet in one hand and open the lock of the door with the other. I enter inside with every intention of avoiding conversations with any one present in the house right now and so I begin to jog on the stairs when I hear a laugh from inside the kitchen so I follow the voice because I haven't heard anyone laughing around here in a long time - that is if I paid any attention.
My feet stop itself when they see a vision of my mom, Frank and Sam sitting on the dining table eating and laughing at something and it suddenly hits me.
It suddenly hits me that the whole world has moved on except me. Everybody is happy except me. Everybody has forgotten except me.
"Heyyy Fel, come join us for dinner" Sam shouts enthusiastically breaking me from my thoughts. They all look at me expectantly but then my eyes flicker to Frank.
"I'm not hungry. I'll just go upstairs" I say and run off to my room.
I close the door behind me and pull out the soft board from my closet. This is gettting me nowhere. I have to stop it. And so I did.
I spent the next half an hour packing all the papers, photos, coloured pens and postmortem reports away in a box. Report. It is a report.
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