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30- Say You Won't Let Go

Felicity's POV

One month. It has been a whole freaking month since we've talked to anyone in the group. And it hasn't become any easier.

Fran still talks to the boys because they're all on the soccer team. And they have an upcoming match in fifteen days so they pratice together. Felix and Isaac still ask him everyday and he just replies "I can't say. Not allowed to"

Felix tried to talk to me in every chem and PE lecture for two weeks. He kept saying "we'll take it slow if you want" "I won't treat you like your ex-boyfriend did if you're worried about that" "whatever I did to make you stop talking to me, I'm sorry precious. I miss talking to you"

And I have tried so hard to stop myself from crying whenever he says this. It is breaking my heart to stay away from Felix. I miss him too. After two weeks, I told him to let go. That I can't explain why I have stopped talking to him but it's for his own good and that he should stay away from me. He asked me "did anybody say something to you?"

And I was about to budge but then I remembered that I am doing this to keep him safe in the first place. I can't let feelings get in the way.

Claire tried to talk to me and Summer too but we told her the same thing I told Felix. Jenny is extremely pissed off at us. She should be. 

Brynn gives me random smiles in the hallway. Chloe and her sit with everyone in the cafeteria now. She keeps hugging Felix. Smiling and winking at him. He doesn't give her much attention but I'm still jealous.

As for Penelope, we're still on the 'getting to know each other basis'.

She basically knows everything about me now except the incident in Sacramento. And I almost know everything about her. I think it's time I tell her everything. She's the only means to convince my parents that I'm mentally fine.

I'm on my way to the dance club right now when a guy says 'hi' from behind me. I turn around to see who it is. Wait. I've seen this guy before. He plays soccer with the guys. And I met him at Chloe's party. I don't remember his name though.

"Hey" I say.

"I'm Lucas. We met at Chloe's party?"

"Oh yeah. Right" I smile at him.

"So, how are you?" he asks scratching the back of his head. He wants to ask me how am I?

"Um, I am good. How have you been?" I ask awkwardly.

"I am good" he starts saying but then he looks at me and blurts out "I wanted to ask you out on a date"

What? 

"Um oh. Ok. That is sweet? But I am not looking for a relationship or anything right now. Even a date" I explain it to him kindly.

"Why?"

"Um, personal reasons?" I say but I mean it is as a question.

"Do you like someone else?"

I want to say 'it is none of your business' but before I can say anything he asks "it's Felix, isn't it?"

"It's actually-" I start saying but then he cuts me off again by "I know it is"

I look at him once again and sigh.

"Don't tell him anything about this please. I wanna be the one to tell him" I say and whisper to myself "if I ever do"

Lucas smiles at me and says "sure"

I smile back at him, wave a bye but he catches my wrist and turns me around.

"What's wrong?" I ask as I pull my wrist back.