Run Away With Me

Chapter 7: Other Party

Derrick's POV

"HINDI MO PA TALAGA NAIISIP YON? TAO KA PA BA NIYAN?" Gulat na tanong sakin ni Stella, her eyes widened and mouth agape.

Tahimik lang akong nakatingin sa kaniya, even I'm shocked. I've never.. really thought about that despite of my feelings for Gemini. It was either, lips touching each other or cuddles.

Even I can't believe I've never thought about that. "You don't even know how to do it, don't you? Amp-ta." Panay na asar sakin ni Stella while laughing her lungs out.

"S..sex.." I whispered consciously.. with Gemini? Oh.. god. H-how.. would he look? If.. if that happened between us that would mean that he'd have no cloth to cover his bare skin. I.. would see everything. Even his.. chest.. and.. everything.

Oh..

"Oh."  I didn't realize that I was staring into nowhere. Stuck in a fantasy I've never dreamt about until now.

Just imagine. Me. And Gemini.

The two of us.. doing that.

And with that, I've opened doors I'll never be able to close my whole life.

"You're gay, aren't you?" Stella asked quite frankly, sitting beside me. We've been talking for almost an hour now and.. I'm actually enjoying her company or.. maybe not. "Why didn't you know? Geez, do you even jack off? If it's taken that long, how come you're still hanging onto him? If he has a relationship and--" Nanlaki yung mata ko nang sabihin niya iyon as if it was such a topic to be spoken aloud.

"H-hey, keep your voice down." Sita ko sa kaniya as she displayed a smug smile at me. "Hahahaha, ang inosente mo naman, as if Gemini and his girlfriend have to do with that crush of yours."

Oh. My. F-cking. Hell. Because Yes, Gemini and Ashlee have everything to do with my crush.

"Luh.. bakit ang tahimik mo?.." she looked at me as if she'd discover something out. And. She did. "Don't.. tell me.."

Before she could loudly and obnoxiously declare his name, "Yes, for f-ck's sake, it's g e m i n i.." inunahan ko na siya due to my exasperation, muttering his name discreetly.

"GAGIIIIIIIIIIIII, SERYOSO KA? LIKE, NO JOKE, NO KIDDING, YOU.. You.. seriously have a crush on a guy who already has a girlfriend.. oh my god, and, AND,  with the assets you have, no one would've actually guessed! This is so amusing! No amusing is an understatement,

A M A Z I N G, I've seriously never encountered such a cliché circumstance my WHOLE LIFE! LAGI KONG NAKIKITA SA MGA MOVIES YON PERO STRAIGHT HEHE, I MEAN THAT'S NOT THE POINT BUT.. DAMN." And so went on her babbling. I had to endure the torture for a few minutes that felt like it lasted for years. Sigh.  "Still.. kidding aside," her voice instantly stern sounding. Napalingon agad ako sa kaniya, it's like she flipped a switch.

"What you did to me Derrick, it's almost unforgivable.." While staring into nowhere. Her face bleak and somber. "Imagine how unfortunate I'd be if I didn't discover soon enough.."

"..."

She curled into a ball, her arms on her knees and head on her arm. "..Why did you even resort to that? Have you ever thought about the other party's side?"

I gulped slowly, I felt something sink in the pit of my stomach. I.. really shouldn't have done this, "I.. got desperate.. and I know that's not a valid reason but.. I did." Sagot ko sa kaniya.

"Sinong ginagago mo? Di ako tanga." She spoke in a curt manner while blowing on strands of her hair that were blocking her view. "..hays.." she sighed.

"Blockhead, goof, dumb, buffoon, idiot, fool, jackass, numbskull, a twit." Sunod-sunod na salita niya as if she were chanting a curse against me.

"In short, bobo."

"Be glad I'm the person you.. did that to.. for Pete's sake, you should be thankful that I'm the first and EXPECTEDLY, last." Salita niya causing my silence, the word 'first' echoing in my head. Because.. uh.

Well.. like I said in the past,

Remember "Emily." ?? Yeah.. oh god. I really am that dumb.

"What," she instantly raised her head and looked at me as if I were the most ridiculous person she'd encountered. "Ha Ha Tell me that this Emily didn't go through what I did. Please. Tell Me."

I gulped. "Emily.. well. Uhm. I was dumb in the past-- I mean, I am dumb right now but like-- I was dumber in the past? I mean.. it was for a different reaso--

"OH MY F-CKING GOD DERRICK!" She exclaimed in frustration, cutting me off and silencing me. "UGH. You make me 'U g h'." As she let out an exasperated sigh.

"Whatever, as if talking about it now changes anything in the past." She spoke, dismissing the topic. "But who knows? Next time I might even see you date a f-cking pillow with Gemini's picture printed on it."

"You're such an ignorant jerk, it's like, your world only revolves around Gemini."

And she was right. There's nothing for me to deny or reject because it's the reality I've always faced. "Sorry.." Paumanhin ko, drowning in guilt.

"Oh my god, it.. actually does? You're ludicrous.. it's like you've been living in a fairytale of 'I'm-so-sad-love-me-back' since you were born." She pinned at me but.. it's not really like that.

It wasn't like this before.

I wasn't this foolish guy that I am before I met Gemini. My life before meeting him was.. a bore. There was nothing interesting in me. For me.

During grade school, I wasn't a loner, the opposite actually, I had friends. A lot of them but.. they were that type who'd fade away once the bell rang. As if my friendship with those people only exist because of school and once dismissal rings, they all leave me alone. In fact, I don't remember any conversation I've had with anybody during those times but all of that changed when I caught Gemini..

Cheating in a test.

And trust me when I say, he was blatantly staring at my testpaper. Stealing my answers. Our relationship didn't begin from a friendly approach of, "Let's be friends!" Or, "I'll protect you." Type of thing. It.. all started with a dumb Gemini leeching off on my answers in a test.

I didn't even like him at first, he was an ill-mannered, uneducated dunce in my view at the time. I had a lot of friends, my grades were extremely higher than his, and the teachers were fond of me. I thought of myself as someone a cut above him. I was better than him. I was better than everyone, obviously, because the only thing I centered my life onto was my achievements and skills. My goals. Me.

In layman's terms, I was confi--

Okay, I was Vain. Narcissistic.

Pretty much, a douchebag.

Still, I thought I was at a higher standing than everyone.

That's what I thought,

But all of that changed in one afternoon.