Run Away With Me

Chapter 15: Inside the tent

Derrick's POV

Holy.. f-ck. I froze, in shock and in confusion. Is.. is this a dream? Kakagising ko lang from crying since a while ago and now, how..?

Is this.. for serious?

Napalingon ako sa kaniya, w-why is Gemini here? No way.. this is too good for a dream. It feels way too real..

Then.. is it the real thing? I slowly raised my hand and touched his cheek. I-it really is the real thing! It's.. soft and warm.. he's so adorable..f-ck.

And I gotta say, he's w a y too close for comfort. His head's against my chest and.. his hands are clinging onto my other arm.

Sweet baby jesus.. Help me suppress what must be suppressed.

"Mm." He groaned while asleep, causing my shoulders to tense. Chills were running through my spine and my breathing was irregular. As much as this feels heavenly, it's also difficult af.. to control myself.

..because damn,

Goddamn it, he's so adorable. Really adorable. Really really.

But wait, that's.. weird. I leaned my face a bit towards his to.. sniff something. It.. smells like, he..

He smells like alcohol, oh HOLY HELL, RIGHT! Nakalimutan ko na iinom pala dapat kami kanina kaso nakatulog ako.. kakaiyak..

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Unconsciously, my hand found its way threading through his hair.. a wind of relief relaxing my shoulders. It's.. soft.

My fingers went through the threads of his hair for who knows how long.. and soon enough, moved down to his cheeks. My thumb slowly caressing it that I could feel my heart beat rapidly.

And there, I could feel a pulse at the back of my head when my thumb accidentally touched the side of his lips.. f-ck. F-ck. Now, my attention centered to his lips.

...Seconds went by, my eyes still onto his lips. I.. can't help it. My lips quivered, I felt conscious and nervous and..really compelled to.. touch his lips with.. mine.

Please.. you can be mine.. right?

My head slowly closed the distance between our lips, the tip of our noses touching. So.. f-cking close. A bit more.. and maybe..

Just.. once.. good lord.

Let me do this.. please. The sound of my heart beat was the only thing I could hear and his breath against my lips was the only thing I could feel.

..Gemini.. I..

"I love you." There, I..

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Gemini's POV

He.. he didn't come. Napahinga na lang ako nang malalim. Andito ako, mag-isang nakaupo sa tela na nilapag namin sa lupa kanina.

Kainis. Kala mo naman, hmph. Di man lang ako sinipot, sinabi ko nga na mamya.. iinom kami eh.

Joke lang, di naman ako ganon ka-closeminded haha. He probably wasn't in the mood to drink.

"Hm.." I sighed.

I stared at the cold can of beer my hand was holding onto. Whatever, I just.. wanted to vent out.

Tiyaka.. I can still vent out by myself right?

Binuksan ko na yung beer as I marveled at the fire right infront of me. Damn,

nakakatampo.. di si derrick pero.. si Ashlee. Maliit na bagay lang naman yon eh pero..

Isipin mo, dalawang buwan.

We've been together for 2 months..

And yet, I don't know much about her. It's like there's a wall between us.. and I can't get past it.

But whatever, it's still a work in progress, right?

This is just the start.. yeah, we'll pretty much warm up with each other soon..right?

All we've done till now is hug and hold hands. It's more than enough pero.. alam mo yon? Gusto ko lang ng closure sa kaniya..

Since she never brings up anything about her family.. and if I try to, she changes the topic immediately..

Alam mo yung mga simpleng reklamo lang sa kapatid mo, kahit mga ganon man lang sabihin niya sakin pero ni-kapatid nga, di ko alam kung meron siya eh.

Nakakatampo talaga.. hays.

And I always open up to her.. pero parang hindi siya nakikinig minsan.. or maybe it's just me being needy and expectant..

Hays..

Ubos ko ng isang can.. well f-ck, didn't expect myself to drink a whole can in a matter of minutes.

Ni hindi ko nga malasahan eh.. I guess it's because of this crippling sea of bitterness flooding in me..

Tiyaka.. Ashlee's my first girlfriend..

Is this really how relationships work? F-ck.. bat kasi andami kong reklamo? For all I know, being together with her is enough.. it should be.

Kakabasa ko toh ng comics at manga eh. Yeah, you heard me, I read those stuff.. but really..

How can I.. make it up to her?

Will I ever make it up to her?

To Ashlee?

crk! as my fist gripped onto the can tightly.. I sighed deeply at napakuha na lang ulit ako sa tent ko ng isa pang can sabay balik sa puwesto ko sa harap ng camping fire.

Last na..can na toh..

10 minutes later..

Oh f-ck.. naubos ko na agad? Halungkat ko sa bag ko, trying to find another can of beer.. If I can remember, ang alam ko mga lima binili ko eh...

Seryosooo? Wala na talagaa?

Napalabas ako ng tent ko, a bit unbalanced and unstable.. my body felt light and my mind felt empty and unbothered..

Is this what you call getting drunk? Because f-ck, it's my first time.

Napalingon ako sa tent na katabi ko.. gusto ko tuloy pumunta sa loob ng tent ni Ashlee..

Absentmindedly, I found myself walking near the tent beside mine.. Welp, I guess I'm going.

I zipped the tent open at pumasok sa loob. Ang dilim naman.. di niya man lang binuksan yung lamp na binili niya before camping.

And there, I lied down beside her. Not touching her ofcourse.. pero teka lang..

Did she use a new perfume?

Bahala na nga, it does smell familiar anyways tiyaka na-aantok na ko eh. Sarado agad ng mata ko as I fell asleep soundly.