Mia's pov
I'm not one to support suicide in anyway possible...But sometimes do you ever just feel like-
"-Mia?"
I break out of my daze.
"What?" I ask Boggi.
"I asked if you want to join us, we're going to Starbucks."
I shake my head, not really in the mood, "No, I think I'm just going to stay in today. I'm not feeling really good."
"Oh, okay. Do you want me to stay with you or-"
"No, go. I'll be fine." I give him a tight smile.
"Okay..." He places a kiss on the top of my head and leaves the kitchen where I currently sit at the island.
When I hear the door closing that means I'm all alone.
The boys left to get breakfast at Starbucks.
I turn my attention back to what I was staring at earlier.
An orange bottle filled with pills sitting on the counter in front of me.
I shouldn't be thinking like this.
I roll my eyes at myself and peel my eyes off the bottle.
It's been a few days now since Boggi and Ivan had returned from their trip.
I still haven't told Boggi, or anyone, about what had happened between me and Emilio. I just couldn't find the courage too.
But there's one person who I knew I could trust...I think.
I got up from where I sat and went upstairs to grab clean clothes. I walked to the bathroom and decided to take a shower.
I ran the shower and waited for it to heat up. I undressed myself and stood in front of the bathroom mirror.
I didn't almost recognize myself. My brown, waist long, hair were knotty and oily. My eyes had dark circles around them and my cheekbones stood much more out than it usually did and my skin, pale.
What happened to me?
When I got out of a long shower I dried my hair and let it air dry letting it fall into it's natural waves. I don't wear make-up but today it was needed.
I put on some concealer, a little blush, mascara and lipgloss.
I finally looked somewhat 'alive'.
I smiled to myself in the mirror in satisfaction.
After a few hours of doing nothing, I walked out of Boggi's room and went downstairs where I found the boys.
Ivan and Uri were filming a tik tok together, Emilio facetimed someone on his laptop and Boggi was outside in the backyard taking pictures for Instagram.
I silently came into view.
I noticed Emilio quickly lowered down his laptop screen when he saw me.
That's weird. I didn't think much of it.
"Um, Ivan?" I call out.
Ivan turns around and walks over to me leaving Uri to plop down next to Emilio on the sofa.
"What's up, chica?"
"Can I talk to you?" I ask him quietly, so only he could hear.
"Sure...what's going on?"
I look at the two sitting on the sofa, eyes on both me and Ivan.
"Can we go somewhere...more private?"
Ivan agreed and we hopped into his car.
We were driving for a while until we came to the familiar woods.
"Are you driving me to my death?" Ivan jokes.
I lightly shove his shoulder playfully.
I show him where he should park the car.
We then climb out of the car and Ivan takes in his surroundings.
"Okay, why are we alone in a creepy looking forest?" He asks.
"Come on." I grab his hand and lead him to the familiar spot.
When we got to the middle of the forest he then looks at the huge lake in awe.
"Wow...How'd you find this place?" He asks me.
"Boggi actually brought me here. It's a nice place to think." I smile to myself as I remember the first time Boggi had brought me here.
"Boggi brought you here?" He walks onto the deck that's over the water.
"Please don't tell him I brought you here. I think it's kind of personal to him."
He then agrees not to.
We both take our shoes off and placed our feet into the cool water, sitting on the edge of the deck just looking out into the lake.
"So why did you bring me here?" Ivan asks again.
"I wanted to tell you something. A secret I have been keeping for a while now. I feel like I need to get it off my chest but then again if I do, it might hurt people."
Ivan watches me intently. He's a good listener.
I continue, "Whatever I tell you now, you have to promise me you won't tell a single soul...especially Boggi." I look deep into his ocean blue eyes.
He raises his pinky up and I chuckle at him.
"I pinky promise." He says.
I lock my pinky with his.
"So, what is it that you want to tell me?"
I take in a deep breath then letting it out.
"Okay...The night before you and Boggi came home from your weeks trip I did something really terrible. Something that's possibly unforgivable..." I shake my head at myself as the images of that night flashes in my mind.
I pull my knees up to my chest, hugging it.
Ivan frowns at me, "What did you do?"
"Ivan...I slept with Emilio."
The truth's out. No going back now.
Ivan's eyebrows shoot up in surprise.
"What?" I ask.
"Wow...nothing. I just was never expecting 'that'."
I feel my stomach turning again.
"Please don't tell anyone...I promise to tell Boggi when it's the right time. I just hate that he would hear it from someone else than me." I beg him.
"Mia, trust me. I would never...Cross my heart." He makes an invisible cross over his heart area with his index finger.
A smile pulls up in the corners of my mouth.
"Thank you." I place a peck of a kiss on Ivan's cheek.
I didn't miss the light blush that rose onto his cheeks.
"Can you take me somewhere though?There's something I need to take care of." I ask him.
"This was not enough?" He motions at the forest playfully.
