𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐃𝐞𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐯𝐞 𝐁𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫! 𝐉𝐉𝐊! 𝐊𝐓𝐇 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫

Chapter 38

Taehyung pov

What am I doing? She loves Jungkook. How can I kiss her? I shouldn't do this. This is wrong. 'But you love her' replied my stubborn heart.

She is Jungkook's girlfriend. I should be away from her. That's best for both of us. 'But you can keep her happy, happier than Jungkook.' replied my heart.

No. I cannot do this. Not until I know this is what she wants. She too started leaning towards me closing her eyes. I thought this is what she wanted and I started moving towards her. Just when I was about to kiss her, she got up and went out making an excuse that she doesn't want to be late.

I guess she realised that it is wrong. What are you doing to be baby girl? Why don't I feel it's wrong even when I was about to betray my brother?

Whole day went with both of us ignoring each other. The shooting of the day winded up and in the evening we came back to our house.

We slept in our respective rooms. YN's mobile was still with me buzzing indicating newly received messages but I didn't check them. YN didn't complain about another nightmare. May be I was right, her nightmares are beacause of her crying over Jungkook.

The following day was a day off. YN and I decided to spend it lazing around in the day. Things were still awkward between us but we tried to ignore the tension that filled the room.

Everytime we glanced at each other when the other wasn't looking but ended up making eye contact and turning around smiling awkwardly.

In the afternoon, I ordered a pizza to share it with YN and make everything normal with us. I even got her some chocolates. I went and knocked on her door.

"I ordered pizza. Do you wanna share?" I asked. Knowing that she wouldn't deny as it was her favourite I stood smiling at her. She nodded her head and followed me to the living room.

Both of us sat down eating pizza and laughing over the movie that we were watching. The last slice of pizza, both of us held it touching our hands. We both let it go, feeling awkward. Normally we would fight for the last slice but this time we started being polite and asking the other to take it.

"YN don't you think it's too weird of us not fighting for the last pizza slice?" I said honestly feeling bad.

"I was thinking about the same Tae. Can we just be normal again leaving this awkwardness?" she said smiling at me.

As soon as she said that, we both started fighting again for the last slice. She won as always and started eating it with her proud smile. Actually, I let her win every time. She ate half of the slice and fed me the rest just like always.

"I have something for you." I said bringing the chocolates to her sight.

Her eyes went wide. She started smiling widely looking at them. I handed the chocolates to her and she started jumping with excitement. Such a baby.

She sat back and started having the chocolate. She was eating it messily and there was chocolate on the corner of her lips. I bent down to wipe off her lips with my thumb.

She was smiling sweetly realizing her clumsiness. She removed the chocolate bar out of her face and leaned towards me to clean her face. I was about to clean it but instead leaned and kissed her lips without even realising what I was doing.

I closed my eyes deepening the kiss. The kiss was sweet. Her lips mixed with the sweet taste of chocolate made it sweeter. When I realised what I was doing, I was about to back away. I opened my eyes and saw YN with her eyes closed.

She let go of the chocolate making it fall on the ground. Her hand went to my neck and she started kissing me back. I continued the kiss with passion and she replied with equal passion. We both let go when we were out of breath.

I was smiling like an idiot thinking about the kiss . I was about to cup her face ,she opened her eyes and looked at me in with a hurt expression. She looked away as if she was trying to hide her emotions. We couldn't look at each other after we came back to our senses. I wanted to make things less awkward but ended up making them more awkward. Now it's for sure that YN will ignore me.

I was lost in my own thoughts when I heard her voice trying to say something "I.. I.." before she could say anything, I said, "I am Sorry." and went to my room.

My hand automatically went over my heart. What am I doing? How can I do this to Jungkook?

I cannot let my feelings control my actions. But why do I feel like she wants me as much as I want her? What do I do? I want her even at the cost of betraying my brother.

I just want her to be mine.