Forget Me Not (Levi Ackerman x Reader)

Chapter XVIII

This is a whole flashback scenes.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry my child, I'm sorry."

Y/N could hear sobs and a low voice in the middle of her sleep. The cry is filled with sorrow and regret. She wants to open her eyes to check who is crying at this hour, but she is too sleepy so she just put in her mind that maybe it is just a dream.

A hand caresses her face, gently rubbing it with a soft one. It is soothing and lovely which made her want to sleep more. She really thought it was a dream, because in reality, she knew no one could do that to her except for herself. She smiles as the hand continuously touches her, it is so loving and she craves for more. If this will last forever, she don't want to wake up again.

"I'm really sorry. I don't know what I am doing."

That voice confuses her again, someone is crying. She convinces herself to get up just to see what's happening around her. But she was too selfish to do that, feeling a love from the unknown is more important to her than to comfort someone.

For the first time in her life she felt happy and contented. This is the thing she won't feel everyday, so might as well enjoy it to the fullest. And for some reason, she can't stop herself from imagining that this is her mother. Well maybe this person is her mother, but why is the voice so different? Unlike Monet, this voice is soft and more natural. It is sweet and full of emotion.

Again, it is soothing and loving which her mother did not possess.

Is it really not her? Considering that Y/N only has a limited knowledge about her mother, she really can't tell. Monet is only showing at least two emotions, her anger and disgust. But is that all she have? Impossible. Perhaps she just really don't know her.

She may be a monster in her eyes but she still loves her. She wants to know more about her mother.

"Isn't it good if I just kill you then?"

"No mother please!"

"Your father left me and came along with another woman because of you!"

"I didn't do anything mother please let me live at least!"

This is the Monet she always see everyday. This is her mother that she really know.

Abusive... Sadistic.

She intend to learn about her mother's life and such but sadly she have to leave this house. This day is the worst so far between them. Her mother became more insane than she was from the usual. Monet is holding a knife ready to stab her daughter. So she did everything to free herself from this hell. With all her might, she escaped the house and run for her life. She did not dare to look back, seeing her mother alone will only make her reluctant. It hurts her to leave. Even if her mother did not show any love, Y/N still loves her. And if only Monet isn't physically hurting her, maybe she stayed and bear to not feel anything from her in return.

"Hey! Are you just going to leave me here? Alone? After you drag me all the way here? Seriously?"

"It is your fault why you need to run with me brat."

"You owe me for that hole."

"I owe you nothing, and I hate you because you laughed at me."

"It's because that was hilarious. Fine just leave but c-can I ummm"

"Tch."

Being alone hungry is not easy. She just watch the people pass by and ease the hunger she don't know when will stop. Waiting doing nothing is boring too. Also, there is still no place for her to stay.