Love's Deception

Chapter 22 - Apples

There are moments in our lives that can sometimes push us to do something. Maybe you're scared to do something and then this chance occurrence happens that only proves that you need to do it. I like to think that's called fate, and I'm not much a believer in that kind of thing, but I'm starting to. I'm really starting to.

When you're pushed to do something you never know what effect it can have. But you just have to believe that that 'push' was there to help you. It was there to help make your life better and to add something to it that wasn't there before. You have to hope that fate is watching out for you and is trying to do what's best for you.

These 'change occurrences' can be something great, or they can be something awful. Either way, you have the strength to get through them and to take that push as something good. But, always make sure to think of the long term effects and make sure that you can handle what the push is leading you to. You can handle it, you just need to make sure that you know what you're heading towards. That's one mistake that's made too much.

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Christmas is my favorite time of the year. Everyone is cheerful, celebrating time off of work and school to be together and enjoying the holiday festivities. Unfortunately, if you're the owner of a million-dollar hotel, you don't get much time off; even on one of the emptiest times of the year. For these past two months ever since the gala, Jace has spent most days in the office, having business meetings over the phone and going over details with the other employees. I managed to convince him to take tomorrow off so we can spend some time together. Not that we don't spend a lot of time together anyway.

Most nights when Jace refuses to let me waste my time helping him with his work, I'm waiting for him in his suite so that I can spend time with my man. When he gets home he's tired, so sometimes we just go straight to bed. Other times he manages to stay up with me. I don't mind when we go to bed, I just want to be with him. I want to be in his arms so that he can make me feel safe in this dangerous world we live in. Especially if you're an FBI agent with someone threatening your life. The nights I spent with Jace in his suite I cherish, because one day they'll probably be gone.

Jace and I have discussed our little spat that we have two months ago, where he wanted to be official but I wasn't ready yet. I'm starting to feel more ready. I just need a little push to help me make that jump.

The past two months have been great and Jace and I are getting close and closer every day. Every day I fall from him more, each day more than the last, I can't even comprehend it myself.

Everything about Jace is perfect, everything about the way he treats me is perfect, we're perfect. Jace still brings me tulips and he says he's not going to stop. Let's just say he and the florist are good friends now.

Then there's the Cobra business. We are no closer to finding out who the leader is, and I haven't heard back from Mrs. Abbot yet. There's been no new news about the Holloway's or the Abbots lately. Just more gossip about Gia Holloway and her boyfriend, which is the last thing that is necessary to this case.

I've been working more and trying to focus on my real work, but it's difficult. I find it so hard to spy on Jace and also be with him. Luckily, Cam and I have been given a few more one time assignments and those have helped to keep me focused. But at the end of the night, I come back to Jace, and I'm lying about where I was. It's tough, but I don't know how I can live without both lives.

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This evening, Jace and I are working in the office late. Everyone has left, including the security guard because Jace dismissed him. It's just me and Jace.

Cam stayed pretty late, but then he had to go home to Anna and Kierra. He's been easing up a little about watching Jace and me, but he's still like a hawk. Cam and Paige, both, are on my case about ending things with Jace. They insist it's just lust and infatuation, nothing else. But they don't know the truth and how wrong they truly are. This isn't lust or infatuation. I guess I don't know exactly what it is, but it's beyond anything I can ever comprehend.