Love's Deception

Chapter 36 - Tears

People change over time. It happens to everyone. As you grow older in life, you change, just like the world around you does. People are born and die every day, people get engaged, people get their hears broken, people get promoted, people get fired. Each of these has an effect on someone.

When something happens to you in your life, something drastic, you have to decide whether or not to make a change for good or for bad. You don't have to change, you can remain the same. But sooner or later that change will come. You need to be prepared.

A good change is adapting to the change in your life realizing your strength for what's to come. A bad change is sinking more and more each day until you're no longer there. Everyone handles change differently, you just have to decide how to handle yours. Do you swim? Or do you sink?

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It's been an entire month. It's been a long and painful month. Everything has gone to shit. Well, everything in my life has gone to shit.

The next night after I saw Jace at his suite, it was shown in probably a dozen gossip magazines and channels that he was out at a club, and he left with a girl. That hurt. That really fucking hurt. Especially since we had just officially ended our relationship for good. And he was already out with some girl?

Sadly, the pain didn't stop there. Not only did he leave that night with some girl, every night he has left the club with a new girl. Every fucking night. All the gossip tabloids are all over this. They're all reporting how he goes to one of his clubs every night and leaves with a new girl on his arm.

I don't even want to know what happens after they leave, but I already do. Each night there's a new girl sleeping in his bed, a new girl taking my place. As I said, it hurts. Last night it was some brunette. I wonder who it will be tonight.

I try not to think about it, but when it's the talk of the city it's difficult to. It's so difficult to not think about Jace at night with another girl in his bed when the only girl he's been with for seven months was me. But now that streak is broken, and he's gone back to his playboy ways.

The women in the city love it, having the chance to go home with the billionaire, Jace Dyer. Who wouldn't pass that up? The men hate him for it, all men see him as a threat.

And the tabloids don't just show him leaving with a new girl, it shows pictures of him in the club kissing different women. And typically one of those women is who he takes home. It's so hurtful to see how quickly he moved on from me, and how he isn't afraid to show it. Yet I'm still here crying in my bedroom wishing I could be with him.

Many months ago, I was so afraid of this relationship ruining my life, my career. I was so afraid of him ruining my life. But now that he's gone, I want him to come back and ruin my life. I have to stop this, but I can't. Because I still love him despite him thinking with his dick and not his brain this past month.

When I'm not obsessing over someone who doesn't love me anymore, I'm spending time with my mom in the hospital. Her odds looked good, but unfortunately, her condition has taken a turn for the worst.

The cancer spread, the chemo stopped working, a simple mastectomy wouldn't work. It's too large. The doctors have been doing everything they can, but the cancer spread so fast. My mom has been struggling, but we all knew that it was only a matter of time before she'd go.

When I got the news that it spread, I couldn't believe it. That same day, I called Aidan and he flew to D.C. immediately. That was at the beginning of the month, and now we're towards the end. He's been staying with me in my apartment ever since and we've both been spending as much time with our mom as we could.