Love's Deception

Chapter 33 - Two Days Ago

'Secrets, secrets are no fun. Secrets, secrets hurt someone.'

Isn't that something that we've all heard on the playground and throughout life? I know I have. Too bad, lots of people don't listen. It's truly a shame, isn't it? To learn something all throughout life only to ignore it and continue to ignore it.

It's true, secrets end up hurting someone. So why do we keep them? To protect ourselves or someone else?  When all they do is hurt someone, it kind of seems redundant to keep them. We shouldn't want to hurt someone yet we still do with each secret that we hold close to our hearts.

Not to mention, keeping secrets is such a burden, a burden that you don't need to carry because it will weigh you down. But if you do carry that burden, you just need to be careful when the person you're keeping the secret from finds out. Because often once it's revealed, there's no going back. There are no second chances.

****

2 Days Ago:

"My dad is Officer Samuel Warren," I let a tear fall down my cheek as I mentally say goodbye to Zoe Collins, "I'm Ivy Warren. Special Agent Ivy Warren."

"What the hell are you talking about?" Jace asks me.

I cry a little more and then slide off his lap. I walk to my purse and take my FBI badge out of it and present it to Jace.

"I'm Special Agent Warren. Not Zoe Collins. I never lived in Chicago, I never went to business school, I'm not a personal assistant. I've lived in D.C. my entire life, I was a criminal justice major, I was a police officer and now I'm an FBI agent."

Jace stands up suddenly and looks at me. He doesn't say anything but looks like he wants to and he's struggling to find words. I watch his face turn from confused to angry.

"So this entire time, you've been pretending to be someone else? Why the fuck did you do that?"

"I had to," I cry, "I was sent undercover to your hotel because we're working on a case against the Cobras. They thought you were the leader so I had to get close to you to find out. Then I developed feelings for you and I wanted out but I couldn't."

Jace waits a moment and then realization strikes his face, "You've been spying on me? Wait, this means you're the one who arrested Cooper? Did you arrest the Holloways too?"

"Yes,"

"So whenever you said you had to go help a friend, all those times you snuck off, all those mysterious phone calls, those were for your job?"

"I'm so sorry," I nod.

Jace runs his hands through his hair in frustration and I can see him tearing up as well, "So has all this been fake? Has our relationship been a complete fucking lie?"

"No! I really do have feelings for you. I wasn't even supposed to be in a romantic relationship with you but I broke the rules so I could. Our relationship was real."

"Clearly it wasn't since you weren't even who you said you were," He turns around but then whips back with more to say, "You let me feel guilty about your father the entire time I knew you. I've been looking for you for five years and now it's clear why I couldn't find you. You sat there and watched me beat myself up over this!"

Between sobs I make out words, "I couldn't tell you."

"You could, you just chose not to."

I need to stay on track here. I can't let this get in the way of why I came here, what I need him for. But I want to explain everything so badly, I just can't right now.