Love's Deception

Chapter 38 - The Bust

Opening up an old wound can be tough. It hurts. When you open an old would again, you bleed, you sting, you ache, it's a shit ton of pain. So how can you close it? If it opened once, doesn't that mean it'll open again? How many times can this wound open up before it opens permanently? Can it close again?

But what if the wound never closed? What if it has been open all this time, and you never knew? What if it has been ever so slightly open, and it's just been waiting to open some more? You may have never known that. Your wound never healed, you may have thought it did, but it didn't.

What if the wound was on your heart? Can you fix it? Can you put a bandaid on it? You can try, but it probably won't work.

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The next day, we all get right to the field office to make this bust. Cam and I got there bright and early. Well, I actually only left the field office for two hours before returning. After visiting my parents, I went back to work and then eventually left at 4 AM, only to return at 6 AM. I didn't get much sleep, but that's okay. There's too much work to be done to sleep.

When Cam and I arrived we began discussing the whole plan with Director Scott. He approved it and we got into a last briefing with the other agents. We're ready for this bust. This case hasn't been going on for too long, but I'll be glad to finish it and get started on a new one.

The only thing I'm not quite ready for is to go to the Dyer Hotel again after six months and possibly see Jace there. I'm so not ready to face him if I do see him.

There's no telling that I will even see him. No telling at all but I need to mentally prepare myself to see the man that I fell in love with, the man that broke my heart by saying he'll never love me, and the man that still lives in my heart 24/7.

I'm not even sure I want to see him. He's turned back into a playboy and he's out with women all the time. What if I see him and he's with someone? One of the women he takes home to sleep with? I don't know if I could handle that, it would probably crush me.

It would crush me to see how he's moved on, yet I still can't. Would I break down? That would be embarrassing. Why does he have such an effect on me? I guess that's what love is.

No matter what, I'll have to see him tomorrow. Natalia's trial is tomorrow and I learned today that he's being called last minute to testify. So, I will have to face him, but I'd rather it not be today.

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Cam and I brief the agents one last time. We decided that we're going to wait until we see James Wilson walk into the hotel and then rush inside and arrest him. We're going to make a scene, but any other way he could escape.

We considered getting him in his hotel room, but according to the front desk it's on the first floor and he could escape out the window. So the lobby is the best we can do. Of course, Cam and I will be in front, with our guns, arresting him. The other field agents are there for additional help, should we happen to need it. But I don't think we will. We have this, I know we do.

After the briefing is complete, the agents disperse to prepare to leave. I do the same and put on my bulletproof vest, Cam does the same. Wearing a bulletproof vest is required for all agents when they're going to apprehend an armed suspect.

Unfortunately, I couldn't wear a vest when we arrested Natalia because it would have given away my cover. It was a risk, but luckily all I was shown with was a blank bullet. A blank bullet that was shot by Jace.

I shake the thought out of my head. Do not go back to that time, don't go back to that day, it'll only make me cry. I cannot cry when I'm the lead agent on this case and am about to go arrest someone. It would look so unprofessional, but then again, I've done it before. So what're a few more tears? But I won't. I won't cry, and I mean it.