Guardian angel BOYxBOY

Chapter 7

"Good morning" I hear him whisper in my ear. I look up at him light glowing around his head as if it were a halo.
"Morning Alex" I say in a hushed voice. I kiss him.
"Your not going to school today" he whispers.
" Good I don't want to go to school today because I don't want to deal with yet another beating" I cry. He hugs me tightly. I start to think bad things again. I don't push them away because every time I do it makes my chest heavy with depression as a reminder that thoughts were the farthest I would ever get into the sex world.
" I didn't know that's how you really felt I mean I'm your guardian angel but I'd think that even when I'm not watching or I was off doing other orders I was given, that you had done at least something as bad as blowing someone " he says in shock.
" Yeah I know I'm weird. I'm a junior in high school and I'm still a virgin" I pout.
" Ugh fine then. I guess I'll fix that then" he growls. He crawls on top of me.

"MATTHEW" Alex screams in my ear. I jump. "stop thinking like that it's making me uncomfortable."
" I'm sorry" I mumbled." I can't help it anymore. It's starting seem like the more stuff I push away the worse I start to feel.".
"It's okay" he whispers." I will always love you and I always have loved you. So don't ever think for a second that I don't love you just because I don't have sex with you.".
" I know" I say kissing him almost whole heartedly. I start to slip off into the darkness of sleep. I mumble something that I couldn't even understand. Then I'm gone, off into the quite darkness of unconsciousness.

I hear a loud ringing I my ears and I soon notice that it's my phone. I pick it up Jessie and Zach have been blowing up my phone for the past hour. my phone rings again scaring me. It's Jessie calling. I answer it.
"Hey" I speak into the phone.
"Hey where the hell have you been all day" she asks " and why weren't you answering our calls?"
"I'm sorry I'm home sick" I answer hesitantly. I've never lied to her before.
"Well you scared the shit out of me and Zach we thought that you committed suicide because of Jared" she says with relief.
"Well I'm not dead " I chuckle.
" Zach's asking if we can come over to hang out tonight" she ask.
"Yeah" I say cheerily.

I look over at Alex he's looking out the window. He looks upset.
"You miss it don't you" I ask walking over to him. He nods slightly.
" I miss my family" he mumbles. he's fighting off tears I can.
"How did you die and when" I ask.
"I died two tears before you were born" he starts to explain and sits down. " I died because I was being stupid. I got drunk got in a car with my boyfriend and we crashed. next thing I knew was I saw our bodies being pulled out of the car. He was screaming in terrible pain and I was dead." He starts to tear up." For the next two years I had watched him and the rest of my family wallow over me."
"Oh I'm sorry" I say hugging him.
" I was supposed to be in Harvard studying to be a psychologist. Me and Jason were planning on getting married the next year, and now he's in a wheel chair trying to recover from his paralysis. He blames himself for my death. I wish I could just hold him in my arms one more time." He says now crying I kiss him.
"Hey at least you have me to hold now" I say trying to cheer him up. We lay down on my bed. He puts his head on my chest and sobs as I comfort him.
" I love you " I say kissing the top of his head.
" I love you too" he sobs.