Guardian angel BOYxBOY

Chapter 17

MATTHEW'S POV

I lay in my bed alone. It's been a week since I kissed Jay and Alex disappeared. Damn I miss him. I haven't been going to school so my friends are starting to worry. Jessie and Zach have been blowing up my phone but I refuse to even read them. Jay keeps trying to call me but I refuse to answer.

I stand up and reach under my bed for the little box that holds my blade. I walk to the bathroom and roll up my sleeve. Last time I cut Alex appeared so I was going to do it again in hopes of seeing him.

I press the cold metal blade to my wrist and slice it. Once....twice......three times. The blood trickles from my arm down into the sink. I start to cry. I press the bloody blade back to my wrist.

"MATTHEW. Stop it" he screams. I faint but he catches me before I hit the ground.

"Alex" I whisper before the room starts to go black. He says something but I didn't hear it. He kisses me as I fall into a dark sleep.

I wake up an hour later. Alex sits on the foot of my bed. He looks upset. He hasn't noticed that I'm awake. I drift back off into sleep.

I wake an hour later. Alex is no longer at the foot of my bed. He's now cuddled up at my side asleep. It's dark out so he probably got tired.

"Alex" I say. He wakes up and stares at me. Tears start to fill my eyes.

"No no no don't cry" he says pulling me closer to him. I set my head on his chest my tears soaking into his shirt.

"I-I'm s-so so-sorry" I sob. I look up at him. He kisses me.

"It's okay. it was an accident I understand" he say.

"I love you" I say.

"I love you to" he say. He set his forehead on mine. His warm breath brushing on my lips. I kiss him passionately. He kisses me back. I slip my hand under the him of his shirt. He pulls away.

"I'm sorry but I can't do that" he says apologetically.

"I understand" I say "good night."

"Good night" he says. I curl up next to him he wraps his arms around my waist and we fall asleep.

KATS POV

"Holy shit Apollo we are devils" I scream. We walk out of the lair.

"Damn I have never seen you actually smile" Apollo says with a sound of surprise.

"Well I'm never really happy dumb ass" I say now annoyed.

"Okay bipolar bitch" he says not irritated.

"Shut up asshole. Good bye" I say flipping him off.

"Love you to" he says waving to me. I walk into my house

"Kat something's wrong with Matthew. You need to get here now" Alex yells inside of my head. I disappear and reappear in Matthews room. Matthew is on the floor having a seizure.

"Oh god what's wrong" I scream.

"He's having a seizure obviously" Alex says to me scared for his boyfriends life.

"You need to kiss him" I say trying to control the situation. Alex gives me a confused look.

"What" he says dumb founded.

"You're an archangel now you can give him the kiss of life" I explain. Alex gives me a shocked look but does what I say.

Matthew wakes up and coughs trying to catch his breath. he starts to cry out of embarrassment. Alex hugs him.

"I need to go do something. I'll be back later" Alex says kissing his boyfriend deeply and then disappearing into thin air.

"Kat" Matthew says. I look at him.

"Yes" I reply.

"Why do you wear make up if you're dead" he ask. I cringe at the question remembering the reason.

"It has to do with the reason I died" I answer.

"Then how did you die" he ask. I fight back years at the memories.

"I committed suicide because girls at my school used to bully me and tell me I was ugly and I of course wasn't wearing make up. But then I started wearing make up and I felt beautiful but no one felt the same people still said I was ugly. Guys would laugh every time I asked them if the liked me or if I was pretty so I got tired of it one day and I took a rope tied one end around my neck and tied the other onto a tree branch and jumped out of the tree. So I wear make up so I can still feel beautiful" I answer now crying. He hugs me. Alex reappears.

"Oh crap, Kat's crying" he says in shock.

MATTHEW'S POV

***********NEXT DAY*****************

"Do I have to go to school" I whine.

"Yes" Alex replies.

"Ugh, fine" I groan. I grab my bag and leave giving Alex a kiss on the way out. I get in my car which I haven't driven since I meet Jessie half way through my sophomore year.

I arrive at school. I see Jessie walking through the school parking lot with Zach which is a rare occasion. I run up to them and Zach jumps into my arms.

"Where have you" Jessie screams.

"I've been sick" I said. "So Zach what was it's that you wanted to talk to me about."

"Um, Jessie do you mind us some privacy" he ask. She nods and walks away.

"What's that for" I ask.

"Listen Matthew I know we tried this before but I have deep feelings for you and I was wondering if you would want to go out on a date with me sometime" he asks. My face starts to burn bright red. I can't date Zach for two reasons. One I'm dating Alex. Two he's Zach.

"Zach I'm sorry but..." I pause to think of something. Jay walks up and I jump into his arms. "I'm dating Jay. "

Smooth Matthew you pick the guy who you cheated on your actual boyfriend with.

"Alex I hope you can hear this but I'm sorry for this one I have to use Jay as my cover up for you" I say in my head hoping that Alex hears it.

"I understand" Alex responds. I feel his smile.

"Really prove it then" Zach says. I look at Jay. He looks into my eye knowing what Alex would do right now if I hadn't said something to him.

"Okay" we say cautiously. We face each other and crash our lips together. I see Zach's face start to burn with jealousy.

"Wait now you're a fag to Jay" I hear Jared yell from behind us.