SERRE-MOI | taejin ✔️

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The fluffy brunette groaned as he began pacing around in the middle of the street.

Hoseok was extremely worried.

Ever since Jungkook walked out of his own apartment, he never came back and he hasn't been picking up any of his calls. He was terribly annoyed at Jungkook's recklessness.

He just wished that he would think about his actions, think about himself for once.

He called the only person that might know where he could be. After all, it was who Jungkook could worry about these days.

"Hello?" A deeper voice rang into the elder's ears. He smiled internally hearing, he sounded clearer and better.

"Taehyung ah, how are you?" He asked. He actually hadn't seen Tae in a while, they called each other time to time but never really met up in person even though they were both in the same country. But through the phone, he sounded better each and every time. Whatever Taehyung was doing, he had to keep doing it cause it was making him seem more alive.

"I'm good hyung, how are you?"

Hoseok sighed, he took that question pretty serious. How was he? Well, he was okay...nothing major had been going on in his life...just living lavishly and obviously catching feelings for a certain individual.

"I'm fine...but I'm worried, " he started, "Jungkook and I had a bit of a heated discussion...nothing too bad but I confessed my feelings for him and he didn't take it too well. He walked out and I haven't seen or heard from him since." Hoseok finished anxiously, still standing in the middle of the sidewalk.

Taehyung gasped through the phone, "Oh my God, you confessed? About fucking time! Been waiting for some action between you two. But I'm guessing you guys still haven't gotten your shit together...well Jungkook at least. You seem fine."

For some odd reason...that didn't sit well with him.

You seem fine.

Was he fine? Not a lot of things happened in his life recently like everyone else but does that still make him okay?

He sighed, "Yeah...but assuming by the way you're speaking, you haven't seen or heard from him have you?"

Taehyung sighed through the phone, "No, and I think that's for the best. I love Jungkook to death, that man has been there for me through everything and I can't imagine him not being in my life but...he needs to learn to take care of himself FIRST."

Jung Hoseok gasped at the way him and Taehyung were on the same page about things...he actually believed Jungkook needed to love himself too.

"Before you say anything, I know you been trying to drill that inside of his head and honestly, I think you should keep doing it and trying to help him. The feelings part scared him probably and that's okay...I think what he needs right now is a friend. A healthy friendship and you guys have that now. Him and I...our friendship is too much for the both of us right now and we both need space away from each other to heal separately. Us facing each other will have him going back to his old worrying habits and me stressed out about something not even major."

Hoseok began looking around, watching the street lights come on. "You're so right...I told him that too. I told him that–"

Taehyung raised his brow at the sudden silence through the phone. All he could hear was unsteady breathing. "Hyung?"

Hoseok couldn't believe what he was witnessing right now...who he was seeing right then and there.

His throat became dry and tight, words couldn't come out. He was terrified at the sight in front of him.

"A-" he gulped, shaking his head unbelievably. "Appa?"

"Okay hold on...you're RM?"

Namjoon raised a brow but also nodded. He couldn't understand why this was such a surprise...did he know him by chance?

"Oh my god," Yoongi wanted to cry tears of joy, his idol, his inspiration, his everything was his own boyfriend. He loved it...he fucking loved it.

He grabbed his cheeks before planting his lips on his. "Ugh you're amazing!"

Namjoon chuckled, quite shook at the sudden affection. He signed, "Wait...did you listen to my music?"

Yoongi nodded. "It was your music that got me through when I was in high school. I remember waiting for those tracks to come out on SoundCloud and listen to them after school. Your words spoke life to me, they hold meaning. Then you stopped and I wondered why...and where was he?"

Namjoon smiled, feeling suddenly overwhelmed with the information. He loved that his music impacted lives, someone like his boyfriend. He didn't know why he felt so emotional.

Maybe cause he missed music...he missed rapping, spitting out relatable and meaningful bars that people could connect to.

He missed speaking.

"You really were the only rapper that was real with your words, you talked about struggles that you faced that any other teenager faced as well...you were 100% relatable. You knew what struggle was and I loved that about you, " Yoongi told him as he took in Namjoon's watery eyes.

"Youre gonna make me cry, " He anxiously smiled.

"Why are you crying though, love?"

"I miss it...these days I create sounds and so badly I wanted to add my voice to it but I can't. I can't speak anymore, Yoongi and that kills me inside sometimes."

Tears began to spill and his hands were shaking but they were then held by the elder who looked him right in the eye.

"We're always so emotional, Joonie." Yoongi sniffled. "Please don't cry, I believe one day you'll gain your voice back."

It was the younger's turn to lock his eyes on Yoongi. "You think so?"

He smiled, "I know so."

Seokjin sat down on the ground, with his mother's grave just right in front of him. He couldn't understand why he kept coming back here, especially since his mother didn't really love him.

He had no one else to talk to about this though...this realization that dawned him, that shook him and deep down...didnt surprise him one bit.

He bit his lips nervously while staring at the grave in front of him.

"Mom, I know you had no ounce of love in you when you were alive...but there had to be one time you've experienced it right?" Seokjin began with a question, hugging his knees tightly against his chest. "There had to be someone in your life that just made you feel like shit but also so warm at the same time."

"Someone that's so goofy and kind yet could have this stare that will burn your skin, someone who has so much to say but likes to write on your skin instead, someone who's been through hell and back for almost all his life and yet he's so forgiving. Someone like that...so complicated...is what I'm feeling for him, could that possibly be what it was before?" Seokjin gushed out.

Taehyung was on his mind 24/7 now, it was impossible not to worry about him, not to think about him, not to want to feel his fingers on his skin again. It had to be that.

"Fuck I'm in love with him, Mom, " he exclaimed, "Im in love with Kim Taehyung."

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hey guys, sorry for the long wait

when I tell you a lot happened these past two months...A LOT HAPPENED.

all I do is work and school these days...i barely have time for myself and when I do, I just sleep.

but here I am!

I'll try my hardest to update as quick as possible but part 2 is finished finally!