BLUE

CHAPTER EIGHTEEN

HONESTLY, I DIDN'T LISTEN TO MUSIC WRITING THIS SO I'M JUST SHARING ONE OF MY FAVORITES

TODO CAMBIO- BECKY G/ CNCO

Begin like this almost all day I start to overthink things, and I realize that we are not even friends and I don't know him at all, while he plays with my hair he murmurs something that I don't catch, images of that guy touching me, using me as I'm not even a human-like I'm no one all those things that I thought for a minute that they could go away prove me wrong, making my eyes close of disgust and I can feel my body shaking and this time no for pleasure, now my body has fear, fear to even look at my body and at myself. I quickly stand up and grab a towel and wrapped around my body at the same time I search for cloth and run to the bathroom I take a long hot shower.

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When I am about to open my door, I can hear talking to someone harshly on the phone "No Charles, I have no fucking time they are better damn things to do, stop fucking calling." When I open, he is already fully dressed and see his face, he is red, his eyes full of anger they are so strong that it is kind of scary.

"I have to go." I say while grabbing my backpack, it already late.

"are you coming soon?" he asks

"no well, I will pass by the library and the store" I haven't study that much and I need to get things I need for my room like hangers, I hate folding my cloth.

"Ohh, I'm coming later, Anna text me to pass by around eight, we are meeting here with my friends" I hope not of all their friends are mean.

"it's fine I am leaving right now, it 1:30 already, and I'm running late" he nods and walks with me with through the front door. He doesn't ask any more questions and I'm grateful for that. I know that he is the kind of guys that will play nice part of the time in some not, probably my that is why my best friend is always trying to make me realize that.

In class my professor talks about poetry and the importance have during composing, which I would agree if I was someone else but the little I know of music is that I prefer to write a letter a turn it into poetry and then accords in a guitar probably I am not a expert but that is how I use them is how my brother taught me. I love to listen to music my day cannot start without it even if I'm listen to kids music still is the best for me, I was raise hearing to music, some people may think that is something stupid but for me it works, it depends in what I listen is how I feel if tomorrow morning I play Soda Stereo or Queen I will feel energize and in some way happy, Or Paloma Mami who makes me invisible the way that she always speaks about she is in control of her body, Halsey who makes me feel like I own everything I touch. Camilo who make me fall in love with his music, but In my lower point Adele that her songs that talks about love for someone else what is something I have never felt but she make transmitted to all my body, and Billie Eilish that each one of her songs talks someway about my life, sometimes I can swear that she knows me.

"class your assignment is due October 15, this will be a big part of your grade so don't do it as an essay, I will be grading it with the content but that doesn't mean that is going to be a mess just try to do your best when you express yourself, all the information will be in online anyway you can start now or when you pleased we still have a couple of weeks" and like that professor Adkins says before she finally dismisses the class.

"Mr. Flynn are you here to catch up on what you missed this morning?" she says to someone and when I turn to see who it is, as I fit my things in my bag is Kai.

My phone start to vibrate I turn and grab my phone and my bag and decide to answer the screen says: Joel❤️;

"Bebe" Joel says with and excitement voice in the other line.