HATE AND LOVE- JACK SAVORETTI
In the kitchen, the first thing I grab is my hoodie and mug of coffee with no sugar or cream just plain, I drink my coffee, I'm trying to act the most normal way possible, but I'm too nervous right now "Do you know where Anna went" I ask to dissolve my nervousness
"No!" ouch, that is why you don't do these things, my subconscious says.
"Okay" I turn around, looking for my car keys they have to be somewhere I can't find them... Oh got it in the couch, I throw everything in the couch when I arrived earlier AY DIOS his in the couch I don't want to talk to him right now I just want to run from this place as fastest as I can but to run I have to talk to him "Hey do you see my keys over there" I yell from the kitchen.
"Yeah, they are here" great thanks to god for such a gesture directing me to a place where the person I don't want to see. I walk over and he grabs my wrist as I tried to grab my keys.
"Let go of me " and he does what I said but I can feel his eyes in me, and my eyes are on the floor as I walk to toward the door he is trying to say something because of the way he is moving, he stands up and walks toward me.
"Lexie are you okay with what just happen because I thought you were... well you know, you freak out," I thought he didn't notice that I thought what he normally does with girls and more, but I'm not like every other girl I'm me.
"Yes, is not like a big deal, you probably do this with other girls, don't worry about me"
"I don't do this with everybody, especially not with Virgins" Que pedo who those he thinks he is to talk about my sexual life.
"Who do you think you are to decide if I'm a virgin or not?" seriously
"I mean I can notice your body language, the way you talk, and the way you are so uncomfortable with your body that can only mean that you have never been fucked"
"I don't know why I having a conversation about sex with you"
"you are probably one of those kids that still listen to their parents, you look so perfect all the time, probably perfect life"
"you don't know shit about my life, I came running from Mexico to the US, a year after my older brother died when I actually witness how they killed hi...." as soon as the words live my mouth, I realize that for the first time I said this to someone and no one knew this not even my parents, no one knows about that night. "MIERDA!" I yell and with tears in my cheeks his finger catching them, and I flinch, and I can see in his eyes that he is sorry but the way I think I know him he is not going to say it. "Can you just keep this to yourself well everything, including the kiss and what I just said"
"It is not a big deal you said it I kiss and do more with other girls" I yank out off hand out of my face.
"you are an asshole" and just like that, I go out and Alexandra what were you expecting he is a man whore and you just an innocent girl as Anna said, what did you think that he was going to like you just because he kisses you. "ESTUPIDA"
I have to realize what I felt is awesome I have never have imagined that something like that could happen, feel my body a full of emotion in just one object, his lips, I would do whatever to feel those soft, pink and full lips on mine, No Alexandra no you won't my subconscious warns, and again my body and my brain are having a fight but I already know who is going to win for now and of course, is going to be my brain, but when his inches of my body I have never felt like myself, and free. Probably that is why he is so intimidated because my body feels the need to feel him as close as possible. Probably that is why I feel the need to run as furthest as I can from him...
As soon I got to my apartment, I brought along a couple of things and the most important thing a top and a skirt hand made it very pretty and I'm wearing it next week since I'm going to my hometown with my parent but the first thing I want to do is to see him again and I know that is wrong because I'm betraying my oath to never even kiss a guy.
My wishes are broke when I see Anna on the couch with her laptop in her lap doing homework, "Hey where were you"
"Ohh I went back to my old place to get the rest of my stuff out, but finally everything is out, no more going back to that place," I say as I set in the couch next to her.
"Great then, finally we are officially roomies"
"Guess soo," I say and she turns to look at me.
"Whoa wow wow and wow, I thought..." she looks to impress and holding her laughers
"What? ... you thought what?" okay this is awkward I'm getting nervous
"You said you have never kissed a guy and you have never had sex... and..." she says with a huge smile in her face
"and what? it's true"
"lair" she is laughing now, god why is she laughing? did he tell her?
"I'm not a liar, god I'm not"
"Yes, you are I can see that you are lying to me right now and right in my face and I have evidence" pointing at my face with confidence in each one of her words
"Did he tell you?" I'm sure that Kai did. FUCK HIM.
"You have a hickey in your neck and another in your collarbone" pointing at my neck.
"AY NO! no, no, no. I can have a hickey not right now" I check my get out my phone, I put it in selfie camera and no, no, no is huge they are not even two as she said they are three one in each side of my neck and one in my collar bone.
"Wait you said if someone told me, I know him, don't I?"
"No, I was talking about something else" I trying as fast as I can to change the subject, so I get to my feet get some clothes to the shower.
"However, you prefer but I know you lying, I know you well enough to know that you are"
I take the longest shower I have taken just to avoid Anna and her three hundred and two questions. When I get out of the bathroom the first thing, I see is Kai and Anna speaking, Why Kai is always here? Anna turns in my direction and I already know that she is going to explode.
"We are not done young lady you stay here until you say to me who did that to you," she says with an authoritative voice and a little smile, and continue walking I know she must be happy about this but no I don't want anything else. "Are you listen to, right? "
"Yes, Anna I'm listening, and no is nothing important it just a
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Romance"tell me Lex what are you afraid of?" that is the thing that I don't want to tell him, but I am so curious at all he was saying before that eventually I will show all my fears with no words. "I not afraid of anything, just go" I need him to go I can...
