YOUNG AND SAD- NOAH CYRUS
On our way back to her Apartment, Anna literally tries to tell me what the hell was that about and why Kai spoke to me, and If I know him from somewhere.
"no, I already told you no, I have never seen him before, well probably already but I never put so much attention to the people who are in this university you know how I am all the time, in fact, you are the only friend I have," I tell her for the fifth time already
"Okay, Lexie lets say I believe you but, do you like him? I mean like a friend or something else?" she asks, she's crazy obviously who in their right mind would ask something like that.
I roll my eyes at her and say, "No Anna I don't like him like at all, and don't ask that again, okay?"
"Hey, why you always like that? since I know you, you have never said something about guys, not even to say something stupid you always running from any subject related to guys, all the fucking time, really you don't get tired of being alone? you have never dated a guy before and I'm not just talking about Kai, because he's not a good influence but in general look at you, you're beautiful, you are hot, and you not even noticed, man I really wish I could have your boobs and ass even in the way you dress guys have tried with you, you always flipping them out like you don't give a fuck about them " Anna says annoyances in her voice I know she is not being mean, she looks hurt but, is she hurt for me? I know all she just said is true I know the way my body is my mom say this all the time when I'm around my family well most of them, I dress like a girl like my mom says I use skirt, blouse, dresses, I even wear makeup, that is what Anna means when she means that she has seen my body before because when I am around my family I use clothes my size.
"I don't know Anna I just don't like talking about them they are not important in my life they are not a Highlight" That is all I can think to say, so I just maintain a neutral expression. If I could only tell her the truth she will understand what are my fears, that I'm always crying from my insides, that I will never in my right mind I will ever even kiss a guy. No one absolutely no one will know this because I'm the only one carrying it.
"I don't care, I'm your friend, well the only one you have just like you said a minute ago, and for me you are like my sister, we practically grew up together," she says with a sincere sad smile "Lex, you know that I will always be by your side even if you don't want me to be, because that is what sisters do, they stick together, so if you like a guy just tell me ---" she says and touches my arm "----Hey are you are listening to me, right?" I turn to look at her and nod "that is what I tought, well just like I was saying, If you like a guy no matter who, you can tell me I won't judge"
"Yes I know that you are my best friend and like a sister too, but I don't have anything to talk about, at least not about guys"
"finally you are mentioning the topic," she says and I know that this is a one time only thing so I just tell her the following.
"Okay...Anastasia, This is one thing time only so ask as many questions about boys related"
"HA, I knew you had something to say" of course I don't, I just mentioning things that happened with my consent.
"NOOO I don't but you can ask without me whining"
"So Lex, have you ever dated someone, I don't know because since you move to the US you have never had, know because we went to school together and you never show interest in any boy and I don't know if you had in Mexico"
"No, I have never dated someone, not even kissed someone" Honestly I have never kissed anyone not willingly.
"ever" she says surprised, probably she thought that I have a kiss, someone, before but didn't tell her.
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Romance"tell me Lex what are you afraid of?" that is the thing that I don't want to tell him, but I am so curious at all he was saying before that eventually I will show all my fears with no words. "I not afraid of anything, just go" I need him to go I can...
