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CHAPTER FIVE

OCEAN EYES- BILLIE EILISH 

I'm sitting in the couch close to the table, Ian talk with me about what the game he was playing was and how to play it, the only thing they do with this is to get drunk, I mean what is the fun of it. Ian is nice I really like him he makes me feel comfortable, he makes me laugh all the time I'm next to him, I like the way he smiles, his eyes almost close when he does, probably because is an honest smile.

"So this is your first semester," he asks 

"No, I'm in the middle of my forth semester, I been here for a while, I moved the same day Anna did" I answer 

"How I haven't seen you around before?" Because my parents don't let me go out

"probably because I don't go out a lot" I'm not going to tell him the truth I mean who will like to know that my parents control me even when they are not around.

"Well, that's gonna change right?" which is more of a statement than a question.

"Yeah probably I will, Anna just pull me out and I'm for sure she's not going to let me alone" which is true and also because I want to move out of that place I want a little more freedom, I don't do what people my age do, I have two jobs and one that I don't count like one but it one, I'm in my forth semester of college at seventeen years old, I live by myself but my parents still control me, so that's why I need a new place to be myself for once.

Ian's phone starts to vibrate in his hand "Oh shit, I have to go, you will be okay by own right if not I will search for Anna" he looks worried.

"yeah, go I will be fine I going to the restroom anyway"

"well see you soon, it was nice to meet you" he practically runs.

I need a cigarette I always carry four things with me, my phone, a cigarette, lighter, and a lollipop. When I am stress out I smoke which most of the time is when I'm visiting my parents, and when I am doing something Inappropriate, which most of the time it doesn't mean that I'm doing something bad, it just means that my parents don't allow me to do it. I stand up off the couch and look for a balcony upstairs because the back yard is full of people and I need some time alone and finally when I turn to walkout to the balcony someone drops a drink in me, 

"Damn it" all I feel in my arm is cold 

"Watch it !" the boy says harshly while I shake my arm.

"You watch it!" equally harsh, and when a rise my face to see who is it the first thing I see is his eyes they are blue as the ocean with anger reflected into them and when I realize who is it, is Kai and he is doing the same thing I was doing seconds ago he is analyzing my face, he is very attractive he has a perfect face goddamit, why I'm thinking all these things.

a few seconds later he leaves without a simple sorry or goodbye. attractive, perfect face and everything but that doesn't takes out his bad attitude anyway I don't even care about it, who is he? Pinche pendejo. 

The good side of this whole thing is that the drink was only water and it only in my arm so I just decide to take out my sweater and tide it in my waist, I walk out to the balcony taking out a cigarette and my lighter, I turn it on, I inhale it, I feel the smoke go down my throat finally I'm relaxed there are couple people here but not much.

"I thought you weren't one of those chics," Kai says, I didn't recognize him how did he even come here without me even noticing and when I turn to look at him, he's leaning against the balcony.

"what?" I ask innocently

"the kind that smokes," he says, pointing at my hand, and as quick he said those words I take out my lollipop and unwrapped and put it on my mouth.