FORBIDDEN FEELINGS

Chapter 30- The Valentine's Dinner

We have the weeks detention, but Malfoy hasn't even spoken to me since the kiss. It's really awkward.

It's the 14th February and after school we get to invite someone to a Valentine's meal.

In Muggle Studies, last period, we are packing away our stuff, so I think this is a great time to ask Malfoy on the date.

"Malfoy" I say, nervously.

"What do you want?" he spits.

"Want to go that date thing with me?"

He starts laughing "I'd never go to that stupid thing. Especially with you. It's a waste of time"

The bell rings and I roll my eyes "Alright, I was just asking" I barge into his shoulder as I walk out of the room.

I get to the common room and Harry is stood by the fireplace with a bouquet of roses. "Oh, hello Jessa" he says. The whole of Gryffindor stand around, watching us.

"Hello Harry" I say, awkwardly.

"Urm, I was wondering if you'd like to go to the Valentine's meal with me tonight"

Fred wolf whistles. I feel so pressured right now. I don't want to go with him but everyone's watching me, and he even got me flowers. I can't reject him.

"Sure" I say.

Everyone claps and Hermione whispers "Don't lead him on this time".

I nod and I go to the dorm to get ready for the date.

I get into a nice, white dress. It's pretty short but I look great. I curl my hair and put a bit of makeup on. I slip into some white trainers, because I feel like if I wear heels, I'll be taller than Harry (we're the same height haha)

I make my way to the common room and everyone stares at me. "Bloody hell Harry, you got a good one" Ron says which causes Hermione to roll her eyes heavily.

We all start walking to the Hall and on the way, we see Malfoy. "Ah, Potter, enjoy getting your cock sucked tonight" he teases whilst laughing at his joke. We all ignore him and carry on walking which clearly irritates him as he then says "Don't ignore me!". We look away and walk into the Hall. We hear him scoff behind us. It's so funny.

In the Great Hall it's been decorated beautifully with roses and fairy lights. There's a bush in the middle of the room which has been cut into the shape of a heart. There's small tables circling the bush and they all have candles on them.

Mine and Harry's table is right by the bush. We sit down. "This is nice" Harry says.

We have a conversation and we order our food and drinks which appear in front of us. The food is Valentines themed, so they've been cut into heart shapes. "So, you got over Mikey yet?" Harry asks as we tuck into our food.

"Yeah but it still hurts that he cheated"

"Understandable. I'm pretty sure there's someone out there who will treat you much better than he ever would've because you deserve it"

He places his hand on mine. I look in the direction of the doorway to see Malfoy standing there. He rolls his eyes and walks off. I think I need to tell Harry that we're just friends.

"Harry" I say.

"Yes"

"Urm. I think I should just put something out there"

"Okay"

"I just want to be friends. Nothing more. Nothing less. I never want to be your girlfriend and I never did"

He frowns "What about the kiss?"

"That didn't mean anything. I just did it so that Malfoy wouldn't win"

"Win? What would he win?!" people start to look over "You used me. And you lied to me saying that you liked the kiss. I really liked you Jessa, but clearly you never felt the same. You're so selfish. One day you will regret trying to win this petty argument between you and Malfoy. It's just childish"

He blows out the candle and stands up "Harry" I say.

"Have a good night" he says as he pushes the table which makes me flinch and he storms out.

The room goes silent. Everyone stares at me. Ugh why does Malfoy always get me into these situations? I can't face this embarrassment, so I decide to leave.

When I get back to the dorm, I start playing some music to calm me down. I feel so bad for Harry. I shouldn't have led him on like this. But I'm glad I told him the truth. Hermione storms in and shouts "What on earth did you say to Harry?"

"I told him the truth. I had to. Like you said, I can't keep on leading him on"

She sighs and gets ready for bed. I hate everything right now. It literally feels like everything's falling apart slowly.