FORBIDDEN FEELINGS

Chapter 29- The Lake

It's Friday 4th February. I didn't turn up to tutoring on Tuesday. Luckily, I haven't seen Malfoy much since then because he would definitely have a go at me. Everyone is still talking about me and Harry. I hate it.

I sit down in Care of Magical creatures last period. "Why didn't you turn up to tutoring?" Malfoy asks as he pauses above my desk. He's looking down on me.

"Why would I?" I get my book out and as I'm opening it, slams it shut.

"Because you're a dumb, stupid girl"

I laugh and push his stomach away from my desk.

"Don't touch me" he spits, staring into my eyes.

"You think you're so above everyone, don't you? Well guess what, you're not. You're just as average as all of us"

He clenches his fists "How dare you call me average"

I stand up, holding eye contact with him "Well, you are"

He mutters "You bitch" and wraps his right hand around my neck. Why's it kind of hot though?

"Out! Both of you" Hagrid demands as Malfoy lets go of me, and we both walk out with our eyes on the floor.

"You don't stay out of trouble, do you Carter?" he mutters as we stand in the corridor.

"This is your fault" I say.

He scoffs and walks off. "Where are you going?" I ask. He ignores me so I just decide to follow him. We go through the whole school and down a hill. As we approach the bottom of the hill we arrive at a lake. "Why did you follow me?" Malfoy asks, stopping.

"Well I didn't want to get in trouble on my own"

He rolls his eyes and sits down against a tree. I sit next to him.

"Did I ask you to sit by me?" he questions.

"No" I answer bluntly. He seems impressed with my reply.

There's a moment of silence.

"It's all about Mohoseph, isn't it?" Malfoy moans.

"What?" I ask, confused.

"Everyone thinks he's so brilliant when he's not. He's a selfish, inconsiderate dickhead"

"Didn't know you felt this way about him"

"Everyone worships him like he's some sort of God. And you, you keep getting me in trouble which makes me look like the failure of the family"

"Me? Are you joking? You're the one who always starts the arguments"

He stares at me in the eyes and gets closer "Yeah well maybe that's because you're obsessed with me"

I gasp and lean in closer "You're clearly obsessed with me. You're the one making rumours about me as you're so invested in my life"

He moves in a lot closer, we're like 10cm away from each other.

"Rumours? They're all true. You know why?"

"Why?" I move in so we're 5cm away.

"Because you're a slut" he whispers and grabs my jaw, pulling me in. Our heads tilt, eyes close and our lips touch. This is magical. I grab the back of his head and I move my body in closer. He grabs my waist and pulls me in even nearer. I slip my touch into his mouth and stroke the back of his head. This is so much better than last time. It feels real. I don't feel bad anymore. 

We release for a second and I stare into his blue eyes. His hand slips through my hair and grabs the back of my head so he can pull me in for another kiss. His tongue slips in my mouth and I get butterflies. This is so passionate, and it lasts for a while. We finally release and smile at each other. Well his is more of a smirk but that's good for now.

"Oi, what are you two doing down there?" we hear Filch shout from the distance.

"Run!" Malfoy says as he grabs my hand and we leap up. We run all the way back to Hogwarts. We finally get into the building. He lets go of my hand and we start laughing. I look up and see Snape and Hagrid standing in front of us. Snape says "Dumbledore's office, now"

We sit in Dumbledore's office, getting told that we can't continue with tutoring until March and we have a week's detention. 10 house points also get taken off each house. Malfoy doesn't look as annoyed this time. Actually, he has a poker face, I can't really tell what he's thinking. I'm not too bothered about our punishment because it was really fun breaking the rules, and the kiss was definitely worth it.

I get back to the dorm. "Where were you?" Hermione asks, lifting her head from her book.

"We ran off" I mutter quietly as I know she is not going to be happy.

"Are you JOKING?!" she shouts.

"No" I say, worriedly.

"That was a rhetorical question! You need to stop getting Gryffindor in trouble. And I know for a fact we've now lost 10 house points because of you"

I stand there, silently.

"I knew it! Jessa, you are so selfish. You have to start thinking about us!"

"It was Malfoy's fault!"

"Stop blaming Malfoy for your mistakes. Ever since you've been here you've messed up everything. You've even hurt poor Harry. That is not okay. Maybe you should start thinking more about your friends because one day you might lose them"

"Hermione!"

"I'm off to the library. You have time to reflect. You also have four pieces of homework due for Monday. Better get started"

She leaves the room. I know that everything she said is the truth, but I can't get Malfoy's kiss out of my mind. I get my Discman out of my drawer and plug it in. I place my disk full of love songs in it. 'Love is in the air' plays. I start dancing in the mirror. I change into some booty shorts and a tank top. I use my hairbrush as a microphone and get my books out of my bag. I do most of my homework for the rest of the night.