FORBIDDEN FEELINGS

Chapter 7- Shut up Malfoy

I wake up to Hermione shaking me and asking, "What did Dumbledore say last night?". I rub my eyes and groan "Give me a minute. What time is it?".

"7 in the morning. We need to go down to the great hall for breakfast"

I grunt as I place the pillow on my face. I get out of bed, have a shower and get my uniform on.

Hermione, Harry, Ron, Neville, Seamus and I walk down to the Great Hall and take a seat to have breakfast.

I look over at the Slytherin table and I see Malfoy and Pansy flirting. God, she irritates me already. She thinks she's so amazing. Malfoy glances over at me with disgust on his face, wow how rude, I give him a fake smile back.

"So Jessa, what did Dumbledore say last night then?" Ron asks. Everyone around me leans in to hear what I say. Should I tell them? Might as well.

"Urm, well I'm two years behind you lot and I need to learn to control my powers, so Dumbledore decided that because Malfoy is top of the class, he should tutor me"

"But I'm top of the class! That doesn't make any sense! And he's a Slytherin, we shouldn't be mixing with them" Hermione buts in.

"That's exactly why he's doing it, so the houses can get along"

"But it's so stupid" Harry adds.

"You do realise that Malfoy's just going to hurt you, don't ya?" Seamus warns me.

"Yeah, I can deal with twats like him" I reply.

Everyone laughs and we get ready for the day.

We have a great day at school, I learn a lot more today than I did yesterday.

After dinner I head to the room where Dumbledore had asked us to go. Malfoy is leaning against the wall with his arms crossed. He doesn't look very happy. "Did you intend to be this late, Carter?" he asks with a cold look on his face. 

"Yeah I did actually, just to piss you off" I say confidently, I love pissing boys off.

He rolls his eyes and unlocks the door. He grabs me and mutters "Get in" whilst pushing me in the dull room. He shuts the door behind him and turns the light on which barely produces any light. You can tell this rooms old and abandoned because there's cobwebs everywhere and no heating or much light source.

I drag a chair into the middle of the room and sit on it. Malfoy is pushing all the tables to the edges of the room, so we have enough space. He actually looks quite attractive in his shirt with his sleeves rolled up. Ugh Jessa what are you talking about? You have a gorgeous man waiting for you at home. You can't be looking at other boys like this.

"Let's get this over and done with so I can go to bed" he groans as he's looking round the room.

"What are we doing first?" I ask curiously.

He looks down at me, almost trying to intimidate me. He then looks me up and down whilst saying "Your skirt is so short I can almost see up it. I guess that's what you're trying to do though, as all you want is the boys to be all over you, you slut. I'm guessing you'd love me all over you, wouldn't you? Well that's not ever going to happen because I don't go for filthy, little mud bloods like you."

I gasp as I feel tension going through my body just like when my dad shouted at me. What's Malfoy trying to do? I lower my eyebrows as he starts to move closer to me.

He continues "Why don't you go back to your muggle school where you belong. No one wants you here anyway. No one will ever want you here, you whore"

"Shut up Malfoy" I snap back feeling more tension running through my arms. I just want to punch this immature boy. He grabs my knee and leans in until he's inches away from my face. He howls, mocking the fact I talked back to him.

"Getting cocky are we, Carter? Wait until my father hears about your unbelievable manners. You should never treat me like this because I am superior, unlike you"

My tension builds higher and higher. I look up at the light bulb to stop my tears from running down my face.

"You do realise that none of the boys that you talk to actually like you, they just want to get into pants, especially pottah, because you're just a filthy, stupid-"

Before he can finish, I push him away and shout "Fuck off!" as the light starts flickering. I step backing, clenching my fists in anger. The light bulb smashes which causes me to scream loudly. Malfoy laughs hysterically. I'm so annoyed.

"What's so funny?" I ask, sobbing.

"Now I understand that you definitely can't control your powers"

"Wait, so this was a set up?" I lower my eyebrows.

"Maybe"

"You're evil"

"I was only trying to help"

"Help? You hurt me"

"Good, because everything I said was true"

"Oh my god. I'm done"

As I'm walking out, he shouts "Same time next week?"

I roll my eyes and slam the door as I can hear him chuckling to himself. What an idiot. Thinks he can tell me "the truth" when he doesn't even know me. I HATE HIM.

I storm into the Gryffindor common room and everyone immediately crowds round me, asking if I'm okay. Sometimes I hate being the centre of attention, especially as I'm crying. Harry places his hand on my shoulder, and that's where I've had enough. I shout to everyone "LEAVE ME ALONE!". The room goes dead silent as I huff and stamp up the stairs in anger.

I get into my dorm and slam the door behind me. I sit on my bed and cry into my knees. I hate it here. I want to go home. Everything Draco said is right. I know it is. It hurts. I miss Mikey so much, he'd be comforting me if he were here. I just want to hug my mom.

After about an hour of crying Hermione comes in and gives me a glass of milk and asks me what happened so I tell her. "Ignore Malfoy. He does this to everyone in Gryffindor. Don't take it to heart. He just wants you to feel bad about yourself so he can feel in control. You just have to fight back"

Hermione's right. I'm not going to let that boy make me feel like shit. I go down to the common room and join everyone and we play card games until bed time.